Roll Call 59

its this grain rice thingy. idk here it is


thats the harvest grain one i like the tuscan one better. i thought thats what i was making but i realized halfway thru it wasnt the same thing

im going to bed my prn made me rly tired

Good night.

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Just back from my date I think it went well

So are there going to be miniature sp's running around?

Haha not that well

Lol glad it was a good date!

Good! I'm glad.

I had a date night tonight. We went to the movies. I have weird urges to steal random things and I stole candy because it was right beside my hand. I feel wrong now. :/ we watched inside out. It was very deep and emotional to me. It was very depressing. It was like watching depression playing out in a psychical form and seeing internal panic of not knowing how to fix it.

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My mom is very drunk and she's mad my boyfriend won't let her come over and she just called me and told me she wasn't going to talk to me for a long time. :/

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Morning!

Busy night on roll call last night... pleased to hear your date went well Sometimes!

I've been over at my parents house the past week but I'll be going back to my flat tomorrow. They are actually moving houses in a month and a half so today I've got to clear out my old room of stuff I don't want. I'll be taking the stuff I want to keep at some later date. It'll be sad to see them move because that means I'll be all alone in this city now. I decided I'll visit my parents once a month since they won't be living too far away but I'll have no social contact outwith that for now. I'm not really one for getting lonely really but I have a feeling I might after they move.

I remember when I was coming out of psychosis and my girlfriend who was infinitely wise decided on a movie named Shutter Island. I sat there, heart beating, pulse racing as I watched it until it's final conclusion. I couldn't believe she had me watch that movie.

months later I was having panic attacks and said I wanted something light hearted, a comedy, even a romantic comedy would have done. So she picked out the Green Mile of course. She owned the movie, had saw it before, and thought that it would be a good idea for me to sit through that. If you could only see me shaking my head right now.

Tell your boyfriend so he can remind you not to do it. I had a girlfriend who would pull a single strand of hair out in an addictive way. There's actually a name for it. I think it starts with a "T". She told me and asked me to politely remind her not to do it each time I saw her about to do it. Teamwork always helps.

omg that was good

im glad your date went well sp!

everyone i know and my family goes to church except me on sundays. except my dad cuz he has to work. i sort of feel left out.

Good morning, just relaxing today and reading my book. Going out tomorrow shopping and to get Chinese food

Glad your date went well SometimesP!

Oh that movie stuff sounds awful to go through

The T that you're talking about with pulling out hair is trichotillomania. It's related to OCD. If it was skin picking it would be dermatillomania. But my spelling could be off lol.

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I have trichotillomania. thats why i have no eyebrows and eyelashes. thats the right spelling. i was diagnosed when i was 9 years old. i pull when i have anxiety and stress.

feel so apathetic and depressed but i gotta write this stupid paper..but i have no motivation at all

whats the paper about?

Very bored today, what's everyone up to?

stereotypes of native americans in school sport names/mascots

Just got home from spending the night at my friend and her boyfriend's apartment. We baked a pizza, drank moscato, played Uno, got breakfast...it was really fun.

My friend got into a big fight with her boyfriend, though. I went and stood out on their balcony while they were working things out. My friend came out onto the balcony, and we just talked. It turns out that she is really having a hard time with her boyfriend (he can be really angry and bitter), her family takes advantage of her...and she has been really depressed. She told me that she has felt suicidal. It broke my heart to know that she felt so bad. She is such a nice girl, and she deserves to be happy. I asked her if she felt like she might act on the thoughts and she said that she wouldn't, that they're just there, so I'm glad for that at least. But I wish she didn't have to deal with this, because I know firsthand how much it sucks.

There is so much pain in the world, and we humans just can't stop hurting each other.

I feel wired. Can't focus.

I've never been diagnosed because of stupid doctors but I got trichotillomania and a bit of dermatillomania. Like ever since I was a kid I would pick scabs and rip skin off my fingers. I just cannot stop. I tried but it's just so frustrating.

With trich I don't always pull but in the past I've pulled out all my eyelashes and eyebrows and had some little missing spots on my head lol.

Ah, fun times...

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