Roll Call 63...

Hi newtus, have you been cutting down on your meds?

No. Ive been taking 10mg haldol and about to take 5mg more as prn.

I've gained a lot of weight lately. Geodon lowered it, Lexapro/Prozac gained me a couple of pounds. Now, after BipolarII came rearing around and that I was on Lithium for that and now Lamictal without the lithium. Also, Effexor is new too, its an SNRI.

My question to all of you is, what is the cause of this extreme weight gain. I've gained 40lbs. What the heck. Lamictal is suppose to be weight neutral, Geodon kept me on the same weight before schizophrenia. Is it the Effexor or Lamictal?

Anybody have a clue?

I don't mean to sound like a policeman, but you sounded a little out there.

youre fine!

i just...i dont feel well right now. im scared. trying to distract myself and...idk how. its not working

I bite my nails and bit my thumb nail down too low. its burning!

Newtus: what kind of storage and RAM do you have on your macbook air?

I like them but my brother got one with only something like 4GB RAM and 500GB HDD space. That's not very much for the price of them, kind of turned me off. This was a couple of years ago.

it has 4gb ram and 250gb hard drive space.
its not much but it does the job for school. it doesnt have a cd drive.

A major wrench is in the works for my appointment on Monday. I'm so angry I could scream and holding it in is making it worse but I'm afraid of letting it loose. My anxiety is through the roof. I'm exhausted, I got less than two hours sleep. I don't think I can cope anymore. It's seriously time to think about options to this misery of a life. I can't take it anymore and I don't see wtf is holding me back.

I know how you feel, I've been on a downward spiral lately.

A major wrench is in the works for my appointment on Monday. I'm so angry I could scream and holding it in is making it worse but I'm afraid of letting it loose. My anxiety is through the roof. I'm exhausted, I got less than two hours sleep. I don't think I can cope anymore. It's seriously time to think about options to this misery of a life. I can't take it anymore and I don't see wtf is holding me back.

youre fine!

i just...i dont feel well right now. im scared. trying to distract myself and...idk how. its not working

its hard for me to cope with pretty much everything right now. i am expecting my period soon, its 2 days late. it comes monthly but changes dates a lot. i suspect this is why i am so emotional, anxious, and depressed... i think my pms has gotten worse. every little thing seems so overwhelming and impossible. i still do them, well most of them. its just like climbing mountains all day.

the news is so negative. it makes me cry. i just dont understand why it has to be so negative.

It's horrible, I've been avoiding any news that isn't National, there's not much going on in this country of late and any murders in the past while have been gangland killings which I don't give too much sympathy to. But International news is just hard to watch at the moment.

national news is horrible here in the usa. even local. children being abducted locally. people being killed nationally. i just cant.

We have some national US news stations available here, like FOX and CNN etc etc. And I just can't watch it. So much gun violence, when the solution is just so damn simple, but no one listens.