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Old Oct 19, 2015, 03:41 PM
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heres mine in my music room. i just took this pic just now so mind the clutteryness please.

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Old Oct 19, 2015, 03:42 PM
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its actually a 7 peice kit but i took off the highest pitch drum and added a second snare. you can see the small drum is under a desk there. i also play guitar. not that well. but i mess around with it. my dad plays guitar. is 68. been playing since he was 11 and has played in a few venues.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 03:44 PM
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Ah mines only a babby compared to that, nice job being able to play such a large set up.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 03:49 PM
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Ah mines only a babby compared to that, nice job being able to play such a large set up.

thanks! yea i dont play every single day. i used to then i had my major episode a few years ago and i started reading more and stopped listening to music. yea i know. but im back. i play couple times a week right now.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 03:53 PM
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thanks! yea i dont play every single day. i used to then i had my major episode a few years ago and i started reading more and stopped listening to music. yea i know. but im back. i play couple times a week right now.
I know your pain. Guitar was always my muse but ever since my episode I haven't been able to get back into it the same as I used to. Maybe, just maybe... playing more and enjoying it is a sign you're getting your old life back, I wish I could say the same.
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So apparently a leaked document from the United Nations says there's plan to push decriminalization of drug use across countries in the UN, treating it as a health issue as opposed to a Criminal issue. This would be fantastic, finally moving towards the end of the ever losing war on drugs.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:06 PM
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CRAP. i totally forgot about my pdoc appt today...

****!!!! i missed it!!!
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:08 PM
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The art thread has inspired me. Made me think that drawing is something I enjoyed doing so maybe I could try to use it to distract myself and something to enjoy.
Thanks newtus for creating the thread it's great for ideas
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:13 PM
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i just called in to the clinic. i feel so horrible. i slept right through my appt and it was in my calender too. ugh. i feel so bad. they said i have to go on standby and see if anyone doesnt come and have to wait in the waiting room for forever.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:14 PM
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The art thread has inspired me. Made me think that drawing is something I enjoyed doing so maybe I could try to use it to distract myself and something to enjoy.
Thanks newtus for creating the thread it's great for ideas

youre so welcome! i love art and music and i know a lot of people other than me here do to!
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:18 PM
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i just called in to the clinic. i feel so horrible. i slept right through my appt and it was in my calender too. ugh. i feel so bad. they said i have to go on standby and see if anyone doesnt come and have to wait in the waiting room for forever.

Don't worry newtus I'm sure they will understand. They probably get people who just don't turn up all the time. You've at least rang them and have a valid reason for forgetting.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:26 PM
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Don't worry newtus I'm sure they will understand. They probably get people who just don't turn up all the time. You've at least rang them and have a valid reason for forgetting.

i never missed an appt in the 3 years ive been going to that clinic i believe. never. i just completely forgot. all i could think about was sleeping and getting over my cold. they seemed to understand as they always seen me but i feel completely horrible because that shows im not responsible and i try so hard to be. with these meds and being sick its just getting harder and then im dropping out of one of my classes and everything is just a mess right now.

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This has turned into a nasty type of day.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 04:51 PM
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This has turned into a nasty type of day.
whats wrong?
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whats wrong?
Nothing I want to talk about. I got flamed on another web site.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 05:02 PM
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Nothing I want to talk about. I got flamed on another web site.

im so sorry. you can PM me of you want. or you dont have to.
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I've got a girls phone number. sweet girl. Same interests. absolutely beautiful. The big elephant in the room though is that I live in my mom's place. I usually get depressed at about this time but this time I feel like... what can I offer, what do I have? If it weren't for my project and all the reading and research that goes into that I would feel like a complete loser. This will be the first date I've had since December, because of my situation.

I'm really depressed because I feel trapped in a life that constitutes failure after failure. I'm not going to give up but the odds aren't that good.

So I show up to fight each day and each night.

When I go on a date with this woman I'll feel the butterflies and then the date will be over and I'll then recognize all that's wrong and what I have to do to make it right but I don't know how to get out of this cycle of poverty. I don't make much money.
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 05:49 PM
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I've got a girls phone number. sweet girl. Same interests. absolutely beautiful. The big elephant in the room though is that I live in my mom's place. I usually get depressed at about this time but this time I feel like... what can I offer, what do I have? If it weren't for my project and all the reading and research that goes into that I would feel like a complete loser. This will be the first date I've had since December, because of my situation.

I'm really depressed because I feel trapped in a life that constitutes failure after failure. I'm not going to give up but the odds aren't that good.

So I show up to fight each day and each night.

When I go on a date with this woman I'll feel the butterflies and then the date will be over and I'll then recognize all that's wrong and what I have to do to make it right but I don't know how to get out of this cycle of poverty. I don't make much money.

ody

howd you meet her? does she like philosophy? does she have a good job?
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I feel really down today. I took my prn klonopin but I don't feel much better. I'm too keyed up about how my disability paperwork is going to go at my pdoc appt next Wednesday.
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howd you meet her? does she like philosophy? does she have a good job?
I met her online. She lives very close to me. I know she has a yoga studio. She does like philosophy, especially metaphysics and what it is to be human. Right down my ally.

She said she liked this place called the Library Pub. I was thinking that, since she is comfortable there, we could get a booth and get to know each other there. Personally, the way she gave me her phone number was aggressive. All it took was a thoughtful few paragraphs. She replied, and then gave me her number.
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I feel really down today. I took my prn klonopin but I don't feel much better. I'm too keyed up about how my disability paperwork is going to go at my pdoc appt next Wednesday.
I hope it all goes smoothly in your favor. Try to distract yourself in the meantime.
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Watching The Walking Dead. I can't wait for Amazon Prime to get Philip K. Dicks The Man in The High Castle. It was a really good novel.

I think what I need to do is start brining my messenger bag with my books and laptop and a change of clothes, that way I could go directly to the library afterwards. As soon as I get home I just get in a depressive mood. I will feel better if I instead do something with my book, than just getting home. As soon as I open the door BAM! depressive mode turns on. And I ca't write at home. I need to be somewhere else like a bar, or a library, any place besides home.
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im having paranoia and anxiety about my dad dying. i took 10mg of haldol at 4pm. its like i have the body of a 25 yr old but the mind of a 60 year old. he tells me a lot of very wise and philosophical things. i love him so much. i dont want him to leave me.
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I've got a girls phone number. sweet girl. Same interests. absolutely beautiful. The big elephant in the room though is that I live in my mom's place. I usually get depressed at about this time but this time I feel like... what can I offer, what do I have? If it weren't for my project and all the reading and research that goes into that I would feel like a complete loser. This will be the first date I've had since December, because of my situation.

I'm really depressed because I feel trapped in a life that constitutes failure after failure. I'm not going to give up but the odds aren't that good.

So I show up to fight each day and each night.

When I go on a date with this woman I'll feel the butterflies and then the date will be over and I'll then recognize all that's wrong and what I have to do to make it right but I don't know how to get out of this cycle of poverty. I don't make much money.
The guy I'm dating live with his parents...not a big deal we just hang out at my place instead....
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Old Oct 19, 2015, 07:52 PM
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i saw a helicopter flying low twice and i looked to my dad for comfort and he said "they are just prob looking for a fugitive". we live near a jail and in the past years people have escaped. that didnt help.
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