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Ha, I'm the opposite... I used to be really nocturnal but as I've gotten older I've turned into a morning person. I take my meds mid afternoon so I can wake up early and enjoy the early morning hours all to myself.

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I guess I look for scientific phrases to define things as I find it comforting. Your right most people are either nosy or ignorant but they largely don't actually care.
I feel out of control when I don't know what is happening to me so I look for ways to define myself. I'm too obsessed with labels as I've had bad ones put on me before. Maybe I need to just go with how I feel and stop worrying what people think so much

I would like having an iPad and all but agreed holy overpriced mother ****er...

I used to have an unhealthy way of viewing labels also. It's something that isn't a problem for me anymore, but man it was rough when it was so I'm nothing but empathetic about your struggle with it. I used to HAVE to be able to define things, have a framework, have something concrete to point to to say "THIS is what it is because of *insert label*." But over time I've realized that while labels have their uses, human beings are complex and nobody fits neatly into any label be it good or bad or anywhere in between.

I've had bad experiences with labels too, gotten the wrong ones many times and it was damaging to me.

I think the last line in your post is right on point, just go with how you feel and try not to worry what others think so much. When I stopped caring what people think of me(and it's something I'm still working on), I felt so much more free and at peace.

Thanks for responding. Thankfully for me, the addition of Haldol is just temporary until my mood levels out, which it is thankfully so I'll be able to call my doctor and if she agrees that I am stable mood wise then I'll just be on the Latuda which doesn't sedate me nearly as much, it's the two AP's in combination that's making me sleep a lot more.

Also, Geodon totally had the same effect on me... I'd take my morning dose and then I'd conk out anywhere from one to three hours...

I understand that fear very well. I'm sorry.

Newtus you've given me a whopper craving lololol.

Up early on my end too as per usual with me. I'm usually up before 6 in the morning it's been this way for months now...

Mmmm Whopper burger. There's no BK here but I might get one on the way up to Dubland tomorrow! They're amazing in that particular garage, fresh tomatoes, onions and lettuce on a deadly flame grilled beef burger topped off with mayo and ketchup. Anyone else starving now?

You could ask to switch to zolpidem. Same class of drugs just different mode of effect. You have to very careful you only take it as you're going to sleep or else you'll end up getting up doing crazy shite like I used to do! If you take it responsibly you won't get the unusual side effects.

Thank you for the suggestion. I think my cpn is going to ask for some olanzapine for the odd night but my psych is very reluctant to give meds out for some reason. Unless he is just like that with me :/

You got me craving a BK now, either a Steakhouse Burger or XL Bacon Double Cheeseburger.

If I hadn't defrosted a piece of trout this morning, I'd be having BK for dinner tonight after reading all this for sure!

thats not a bad idea to take the meds mid afternoon. im gonna try that. thank you!

oh gosh im so hungry. but im craving chocolate right now. and a margherita pizza. im deadly hungry.

i think i was dreaming. i took a nap and dreamt i wanted chocolate and a margherita pizza.

is anyone allowe d to post here? first step in and i'm already hungry. we had stuffed crust pizza last night and the slices were like 2 inches thick each. i'm still burping garlic.

No. You need the secret Password...

Welcome anyway, this is just our thread for saying whatever is on your mind really, which it seems you already have!

Geodon knocked me out too. I was on 80 in the morning and 80 at night since Geodon is meant to be dosed twice daily. I was comatose all morning when I was working then. They had a little room for nursing mothers but no one currently nursing,so I'd sleep in there during my lunch break. It was torturous and I eventually ended up switching to Abilify (which I switched off due to weight gain).

Ended up losing that job too, due to my psychosis. They knew they couldn't fire me, so they made it impossible for me not to quit. I got pushed out.

I hope my pdoc extends my long term disability when I see her next Wednesday. IT currently expires December 31 but I am nowhere near ready to return to work, even for something like 12 hours a week. I am sure she will, but I think we all know too well about the stress of possibly losing our disability...

I can't wait till Halloween. We will be eating candy, then ordering a pizza and watching Charlie Brown and the Great Pumpkin and then some horror movies

I'm so bored with my life. I wish I could stand up for longer than 6 minutes so I could do some decluttering. Hate my place, hate everything right now.

yes, anyone can post here. welcome!!

my weekend was pretty pathetic since i cried most of it. i am going to try to make today a better day. i do not work today... a girl offered to take my 11-6 shift. i was nervous when i woke up bc i thought the store was going to call me to tell me she didnt show. she is young and flaky.

here is what i want to do today: watch the movie We Need To Talk About Kevin
work on my collage for therapy
make something with the chicken i defrosted
fold the laundry
work on one of my classes

hehe thank you !! i just get nervous i'm intruding on a group chat or something. :>

whats going on?

Nothing, because my life is a big cloud of nothingness. There's just nothing I can do. But thanks for asking.