Roll Call 69

Yes, I do. I spend nearly all my time leaning on my bed. I don't have a chair or couch.

yea they definitely are in. i bought some before they were. ok i admit i bought some for myself . lol omg. but my sister didnt get them??? only me. from my BILs parents and a family friend.

hm. id like to think of myself as a (semi) responsible adult at the least! agh! what am i saying! im going to color tonight

why do you lean and not lay down?
just wondering. unless you meant lay down?

Because if I lie down I can't see the TV or play with my phone. I lean on the pillows, like if it were a couch.

I can't do coloring or any kind of meditation, I can't stand still

Yes, I do. I spend nearly all my time leaning on my bed. I don't have a chair or couch.

Good early morning to all.

I survived the night. Except for their music, it's been quiet, and I fell asleep around midnight and slept about 3.5 hours.

Angelique, I've just been reading to catch up on the day. I'm sorry it was such a harrowing day for you, and I'm thankful that it settled down a bit so you could get some rest.

hope everyones having a good day.

i've been out all day, it was snowing this morning and everything had a kind of powdered sugary look most of the morning that was really nice and worth walking in the cold. i went to the library and had lunch at starbucks but i suddenly just got really sad. i went to half price books and started reading anything i could find on schizophrenia since there were no books on schizoaffective, and i thought of how much i had changed in the time since i moved here. there were so many people there in pairs. couples, friends, coworkers shelving books together and giggling in the stacks. everyone seemed to have Someone. i couldnt and cant even imagine speaking to anyone unprompted. all the while id catch myself doing "crazy" things - rocking on my stepstool seat, staring, hunching into my self - and AM would tease and laugh at me for it, then tease and laugh at me for hearing him at all. i dont know. i wish i could have a real friend here, besides him. my t said that even if i move to texas where my nearest support is, though, id just bring everything im holding there and, my words not his, ruin everything there too. i guess what im stuck on is, its lonely as fuuuuuuuck being mentally ill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you, Door! How are you doing? You've sounded so busy these days.

Yeah, I have been really busy. Today I got home 2ish, but by the time I shower and pajamafy and get settled it was around 3. I dozed off until 4, and woke up to go to bed, but I've been sitting here since then because I hate not being able to interact. I may as well not go to sleep, because I have to be up at 7 and if I go to sleep, I'll not wake up in time. It's cool though.

At the restaurant tonight I found out that my coworker that I was supposed to work with is in jail. The other one I usually work with on Saturday got fired. So they had to call the girl that worked in the morning to ask her to come back. So I will be closing all weekend basically, and I have to work a double on Monday. Basically, Wednesday is my only day off.

Here are pictures of my tattoos. I love them! The swelling is going down and they look awesome. Can't wait to finish both my arms, I'm desperate to get it done in time for summer. Would be the first summer in years that I could get my arms out...*sigh* that would be just amazing

For the love of god can you please resolve this situation , you posted this some time ago. Do you live in a bed sit? Do you realise number one how psychologically unhealthy it is for you that you are bed bound both day and night. Not to talk how physically unhealthy it is. If you live in one room I would suggest getting a fold away bed , so in the morning you can get up and at least say bed time is over , now my day begins. Just get it done.

Good morning everyone, I hope you guys have a great day today

I am really glad it's morning already at your place guys, today was a rough day for me and it got worse when there was no one talking in Roll Call, I felt so lost and lonely. I just wanna thank you guys for accepting me here Reading all of your posts always make me feel better

Here are pictures of my tattoos. I love them! The swelling is going down and they look awesome. Can't wait to finish both my arms, I'm desperate to get it done in time for summer. Would be the first summer in years that I could get my arms out...*sigh* that would be just amazing

Good morning/evening, 12pm

I'm sorry to hear that it was rough for you today. I know we can all identify with feeling that way. We can be lost and lonely together, and hopefully not be as much! Even though I will be out most of the day again, my thoughts will be here.