Roll Call 70

There's already a couple of inches on the ground at least over here last time I went out and checked... and I looked at the radar, it's going to be snowing literally all day.

She was and is. And has been since I first met her (when I was seven months old, and she was fresh from the hospital).

I am tickled to death for you that your pdoc validated what you knew was going on! An increase in your AP medication isn't going to hurt anything and may become just one more way of confirming the reality of what's going on.

If I were you, I would do as the doc suggests: stay where you are, at present, but take the time to research other residences. I feel overwhelmingly blessed to have found my apartment It's new, having been built within the past ten years, so it has all modern cons. The ground floor is only for those in wheelchairs, and everything (except the stove and the lower cabinets) is fitted for those in chairs. In the past six months maybe (?) I've been taking my daily showers by myself instead of waiting for my caregiver to show up four times weekly. All tenants are either 55+ or handicapped. And it's very safe. It's not in the "best" part of town, but it could be much, much worse. Security is top-notch. I had my name on waiting lists all over the city but this apartment became available at the exact time that I needed it, so I grabbed it.

My caregiver keeps my apartment immaculately clean BUT for more than a year now, I've been accumulating clutter, and I haven't been able to straighten up and toss things away. I've never had this kind of problem. I feel that if I start throwing things away, I'll chuck something important. I don't know if that's a psych thing or what.

Now, you're receiving both Medicare and Medicaid services? If you don't have a case manager, just call your local Medicaid office and tell them that you need some help. This is tough – BUT, were I in your situation, I wouldn't go into detail about both your psychiatric history AND what you're experiencing NOW. You see how many of use were jumping on the psychosis bandwagon. Think of what it may sound like to a stranger!

I think that this is one of those situations where "omission" doesn't constitute an enormous sin. If the public employees ask why you're calling, tell them a truth – that you have excessively noisy neighbors, that you have asked your landlord to deal with the problem and he hasn't done a thing. Admit that you need help in finding a new residence with older, more mature tenants. That would be one way you could get a foot in the door, I would think.

I have a problem with even thinking of moving, too, but I believe that if you're able to find some help (it doesn't sound as if you have any assistance or support now?), it will allow you to look forward to the next day and beyond. And I should be looking in the mirror when I say that.

I don't know what state you're in (I live in the crappiest state that was, thankfully, sucked back into the Union – I think Mississippi or Alabama when I hear that) so I don't know any public benefits may be offered, even at the county level, but there must be something.

I'm also not certain how you've managed to slip between the slats on the state or county's fence! I don't know if I came to their attention the first time they broke down my door or after multiple times or only when my doc got a court order to have me hospitalized. But you should take advantage of services that could be of genuine benefit to you – you only need to find them first or become so pesky that the gov't starts throwing everything your way.

Just in closing - is there any particular reason that you may feel as if you need to get out of the city or state where you're living? As stressful as moving is, a move across town might be less of a stressor than a move to Limestone, Maine (unless you're already living in Aroostook County?).

Glad that you made it to the doc. I'll look at some other threads at a later time.

It seems as if a couple of weeks has made a world of difference for you and ya gotta be thankful for that.

Coming from you I now feel validated abt this snow storm... lol

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My pnp just gave me 2 months of Latuda samples until the insurance company pulls it's head out of it's ***.

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This was a screen porch, the snow collapsed it lol.

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I'm going to work out today!! I will do it! And go to the grocery store, and clean my bathroom, and do my laundry, and go on a date, and get some sleep before having to go into work at 11.

I'm gonna be productive! It will make me feel so.powerful.

While going through my moms stuff I found some of my medical papers from a year and a half ago and I weighed 127 lbs, I'm around 234 now
-___- I thought I was "fat" back then, what the hell was I thinking, I would love to be anywhere close to that weight again

I don't drink fizzy drinks very often.

The only real exceptions are the occasional ginger beer or ginger ale...

I usually just drink tap water all the time. (and tea... of course. )

Sorry I havent been around, how is everyone?

Apparently my disorganization and thought disorder has been getting worse according to my doc, although I dont really see it

I lost my scarf. I was walking back from the grocery store with like 30 lbs of groceries in bags on my arms, and I didn't even notice the wind blow it away from my neck.



I hope Walgreens sells scarves! haha

Thank you for all this excellent advice. I thought it might be more convenient for my only friend if I move a little farther west on the train route. Also, I don't want these creeps to find out where I'm moving to. If it's the same town, they might follow me. Just for recreation.

im really sick of changing therapists and doctors. im sick of having to retell my whole life story to a new person only to be changed again and again. im so sick of this.

like i really am sick and tired of my life. i cant find peace or happiness anywhere. i have no real interest in school anymore. i have no interest in getting a job. im sick of being home alone all the time. my only friends are my parents and my mom doesnt care to see me often. my dads too busy.

i reall wish i could die sometimes

What is one step you could take today to get to a better life?

....

i have no idea tbh

One of the scariest feelings is feeling the loose groundwork for delusions beginning to form...hope AP's work

im a lost cause.

Got a 97 on political science chapter 3 test!!

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i got a 54 on my biology exam

My internet cable and phone are about to get cut off

Do you study???

why???

I don't have money to pay the bill

can u call them and explain your situation?? IDK if that will work... im sorry.