Roll Call 73

sorry u had a nightmare. nightmares are the worst. the other night i had one where i was holding toby in my moms house and he kept peeing and bleeding all over me and i thought he was dying so i was running around the house with him..it was really weird and sad...cuz i dont want toby to die

i literally feel like i could be falling into a psychotic episode very slowly. my life feels unmanagable right now. it feels dark and deluded.

thanks Dna.
im sorry about your nightmare.

this is exactly like....like everything thats been happening is like a flashback to my major episodes. i reallllly hope im not relapsing.

i kinda relapsed but it was just voices...well i also thought my roommate could hear my thoughts. it only lasted 3 days though. i hope you can manage to get yourself away from that path...maybe there are some proactive things u can do? not sure what that might be but just a suggestion...i kinda started isolating and then it escalated into voices. if i would have gotten out of my room and actually been around people i think maybe things wouldnt have turned out so bad. im struggling with depression after the voices episode which seems to always happen. i think psychotic episodes are traumatic.

they are very traumatic.
i think with the stress from school and trying to work with people in my life like friendships/relationships is doing me in.

idk school was always my positive thing to turn to now it feels like a burden. like i said i love school but im perhaps too stressed out right now.

this year is turning out horribly

right now i have a lot of paranoid thoughts and some voices but not much. i felt like that guy was gonna kill me. and something was gonna happen to my dad that i cant say really.

im really disturbed right now

sorry...hope i didnt disturb u

Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day.

its not you.
for some reason i cant pull myself together as i usually am able to.

i took some xanax.

i feel like my brain is melting

almost time for a new roll call

Just took my night meds, will be sleeping soon (I hope). I hope everyone will have a good day today.

should i cancel my psychiatrist appointment

Why would you cancel?

i dont want it

May I ask what your reason is?

theyll kill me

Good morning! Going out to breakfast with some friends...kinda forcing myself out, you know. Took my meds last night and this morning. I slept well so should be a good day! Hope everyone's day starts looking up.

Oh okay. I am the type of person who don't see my Psychiatrist when I don't feel like I need it (because no insurance for mental health here so why wasting money when I am okay). But this might not be a good thing to suggest though, I think you should meet them if it's the time to meet them. Just my opinion though Mantis

That was the film that gave me a lot of respect for Isao Takahata. Very moving film.

I've actually still got to finish watching The Tale of Princess Kaguya. I was just in one of those moods where I wasn't paying attention so just stopped watching it.

Will perhaps watch it from the beginning again & finish it sometime this weekend.

PS - Glad to see you back again.

I feel like I'm slipping too. This time of year is tough for me in general. Two years ago I was hospitalized most of February. I'm afraid of ending up back in that place. My psychosis was so bad I don't know if I'll survive another bout of it.
Are you still delusional if you know something isn't possible yet you still believe it? I know it's not possible for someone to read my mind but I believe it's happening.
I don't even know what I'm saying now. I'm going to take a prn and nap. Maybe I'll feel better when I wake up.
to everyone that needs it.

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I've felt this way when I'm not fully into a psychotic state but possibly heading that way

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How do we start a new roll call?

junkDNA knows how.

lolz, hint taken

New thread is here http://forums.psychcentral.com/schiz...call-74-a.html