Roll Call 75

It really sounds like you're in crisis, could you go to a hospital? I don't mean a state one or anything. Or just call your pdoc and explain how bad the situation is and see what they can do

I just saw him yesterday. No, this is happening. In reality. But thank you.

Mantis, how are you?

what did he say about all of whats happening? what does your treatment team say?

I have RLS in my back, arms, and legs

oh my god you did not just heart and hug me after going after people like me lmao are you for real. nah you already confirmed i was an idiot for thinking id be welcome here bye

you are very much welcome here mantis

I only have him, and a T which I see next week. They don't know, because they've been wonderful.

He believed there was some truth to the abuse here, but thought my paranoia was filling in too many blanks. He increased my Abilify to 20 mg. I'll get that on Monday I guess.

Maybe he does know. I don't know.

I'm not some biggot. I'm more pro moral than most people that are. How was I going after you?

I welcome you

do you think your paranoia is exacerbating the issue? if youve been dealing with this for so many years maybe you should really tell someone about it. like maybe not all the details if you dont want to but maybe how its affecting you?

There is no love in 2016 because of the past.

No love.

I told my pdoc about all the abuse here. Actually, it's only been truly effed up here, since new years. But it's more effed up than the things that happened even in Chicago. Much more. It was very effed up in the place I lived before here though.

But I never put it all together until a couple of hours ago. I never thought that was real, but it is. It really is.

It was a joke , a joke , just a laugh. Don't know whats going on in your head , anyways, we were talking on a completely different thread of thought. Nothing related to anything going on with you..

the curse of the new roll call

There are lots of kinds of jokes and this one was at the expense of a group of people---it's not unlike making racist jokes etc.

I know right?

I'm not sexist

racist jokes are at a group of people though?

He was making a joke about the futility of making an objective poll , he was being ironic.. jeez ,

Well, for the record, I am not comfortable around kids at all. I have no idea how to relate to them. Probably has something to do with never having any.

I used a double negative, so I meant they are like that------

You're more than welcome in my book.

The last kid I ever spoke to was a friend's daughter, at a party in front of all my friends. I was so awkward, everyone laughed. That was in about 1993 or something.

i see.

yea this thread is probably doomed