Roll call 81

Yes, everything is expensive. I am grateful we have family that cares about us. We wouldn't be able to make it without them.
Canned dog food, yuck! So sorry you went through that.

It's good to see you btw

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i just killed THE. BIGGEST. SPIDER. EVERRRRRRRRRRRRR. in my bedroom

now i keep thinking what im eating is spiders

i am traumatized

Oh my G, i wouldn't be able to sleep there. I'd be searching for the cheapest motel within 100 miles lol!

For the past two days I've been more awake than I've ever been with normal sleep.

I'm not even using stimulants just taking the Concerta as prescribed.

Maybe it's the medical marijuana idk

I still haven't been to sleep tonight. I only just took my sleep cocktail. The RLS is bad tonight. Im surprised it's already Saturday. :/

There goes your karma. I'm only kiddin, you can probably fry it and eat it as a snack, full of protein filled crunchy goodness. I just remember this documentary from south asian region somewhere, kids love to catch and eat tarantula over there, they love that stuff as snack meal.

I have this one spider nesting outside my window right next to this A/C unit, it's shed a few times, producing offsprings, I think guessing from how long he's been living there, he's been fed good, meaning I'm having less chance of bugs flying around near my window.

I understand it though, if I find some bugs inside, either for flying or crawling kind, my first instinct is to kill it. Sometimes it leaves more mess than to catch and release them into the wild, not to scare you or anything, but I fear a bit about revenge from insect kind, it's not phobia but I wouldn't want anything to lay eggs inside of my ear, so I try my best to be nice.

Was it fast moving kind? That would scare me good. It was unavoidable property dispute, it could've bitten you so, a self-defense claim stands, you may continue to live there peacefully, court adjourned. *gravel down*

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Hmm...you won't be eating what you don't want to eat, what I eat is kept safe, I wouldn't worry about it. And here's one more thing. I usually think that if I kill/release one intruder at my place like that, unless I see uninvited guest all the time, I'd be better off probability-wise. It's not too late to think about the sacrifice, so the current occupant of the property can sleep as sound as possible. This's just my 2 cents.

Morning all. Saw the pdoc 2 nights ago. I told her that the people in my head seem more real recently so she said she could up my Geodon. I decided I think I have a lot of time on my hands since I'm on summer break from college and that the people don't really come that often or for that long (this was before Bill showed up) so I decided to keep my meds the same for now. I'm also afraid of side effects upping the Geodon. If things don't improve or get worse I'll go back to her and get an increase in Geodon. I'm happy she was at least open to the idea of upping Geodon because she hadn't been in the past.

Good morning. I hope everyone has a good day.

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Good afternoon! Went to get glasses for my daughter today and passing out the neighborhood paper with my son. Hope everyone is doing great!

I don't know when I finally fell asleep this morning but I just got up at 5:00pm. So tonight I have to go to sleep earlier. I have my retina appointment on Tuesday and my friend is coming here on Monday night to help me get there.

God aint done with me yet.

Waiting on my dinner. I love Saturdays.

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My mom's best friend died. I sobbed all day. I can't stand to see my mom hurting. I feel so incredibly sad

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Sorry for your loss! My thoughts are with you!

Me too! Wedding anniversary weekend so went to see Bourne with our last movie passes. Luckily we saved them.

Everyone's upstairs talking and drinking and I'm in the basement because they're probably like oh we know what's wrong with him now and that's the way it will be

**** that

I NEED SOMETHING TO SEDATE ME

I Wanna Be Sedated - The Ramones

My mom said I can continue stopping the oral Abilify because the injection blood concentration increased but I have to tell my psychiatrist.

I want to stop the injection but at least I can stop the oral.

I had some wine.. I'm still really really hyper but it's something..

hearing voices at work is nothing new to me, when tired or stressed, i seem to hear the voices, i just ignore them. they seem like to talk about what ever i have on my mind, the best days are when its quiet around the camp grounds. the voices seem to need a host to attach to, well no ones around, no paranoid voices, right.. yes quiet days are nice...

I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

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I'm sorry for your family's loss of a close friend. I have been there when my own best friend died. I'm not over it and its been a very long time.

ETA I think the emotional pain will let up, as long as you can feel everything; it won't be as raw, especially if you give yourself permission to grieve.

thanks zeus, valley, angelique

im sorry about your best friend. i am sad that this person died . i knew her since i was little. she used to baby sit us. i am more sad that my mom is sad though. my mom knew her since kindergarten. they talked every day. they were supports for each other. i cant imagine my moms pain. it hurts me so much to see her hurting. its intolerable to me. plus all this added with my sister being ill and not getting help. its just a slew of bad thing after another it seems.

It's very unfair. I can only repeat Elisabeth Kubler Ross, that the hardest lessons are given to the best students. It's true in school, and in real life. So give yourself and your mom a lot of credit for having such a sad and terrible event to go through.

ETA in addition to the uncertainty and sadness about your sister.