roll call 89

Everyone is eating clams. Gross. I had steak and it was delicious.
I'm bored and the only thing to do is dishes. I don't feel like doing dishes.

I've been given leave to go to my brother's final uni show in Brighton tomorrow until Thursday. My Mum will be with me the whole time so I won't be 'unescorted'. It's nice of my Dr to let me go because, if I was still on the ward, it would've been an automatic 'no'. And my brother's really excited I can go to see his final collection (he's a fashion design student)... But I'm kind of dreading it. I'm worrying about changing trains in London, and about all of the people there and in Brighton and at the show. And I'm not looking forward to being around people 24/7 for 3 days. I need a lot of alone time to decompress from being around people. That's why I'm so glad I don't have to share a room in rehab/hospital like you guys were talking about because I would not cope with a roommate AT ALL. So having my mum and brother around 24/7 is going to be hard. I find being around people requires a lot of mental energy and I get exhausted, and having no break from that is going to be really challenging. So I don't really want to go. But my Mum and brother are really excited about it, and I'm lucky that the pdoc is letting me go at all, so I shouldn't complain. And I will get to see the sea whilst I'm there and I really miss the sea living where I currently live. Hopefully it will be ok.

Hope everyone is doing well

*Willow*

I just came back from meeting my friend. Wow! Shes super nice. She brought her young daughter. I had a really good time. But i didnt goto my meeting. Perhaps another day or tomorrow.

Im so glad i got out today!!!

Oh yea and after drinking 2 bottles of water and coffee i feel much better.

This morning opened my eyes. Im gonna goto the grocery store tomorrow because i have no money (i have to get some).

All this processed food is probably whats making me so tired and depressed because its sorta weird how people get on meds and say after so long the symptoms wear off. But apparently i thought i was lethargic from haldol all these years? Idk.

It was almost like i had this bad allergic reaction.

I notice when i eat pasta sometimes my stomach itches on the outside.

Heres me today:

Wow, newtus, you look gorgeous! I think this is my favorite look on you!

Thanks angelique!

Now i have the same hairstyle as my avatar

Bad day. Work stuff. At least I'm not paranoid today...!

Hope you have a better night.

Had a good day. Family was happy so that helps. Now I'm just relaxing waiting to watch some tv with my husband.

I got chewed out by a nurse during the last smoking break because I had lifted my Walker in the air to avoid it getting locked with the wheels of the wheel chairs. She was right, and I've been feeling embarrassed and ashamed ever since. I want to go back to my isolated life and never be around anyone again.

I went drinking actually. Only a few though. I've sobered up already and now I'm just tired. Stupid day. Thanks.

The voices. Are loud tonight
They keep saying "go away" or some ****

I am not going to go away this is my room!

I am completely off Depakote now and entirely switched over to Trileptal. Feeling really good. A few days ago I really wanted to because of stress and some stuff that's going on. anyway I have felt very good the past two days.

Today is the first day of my summer semester. I am taking Statistics and also a Intro to Drawing class.

My birthday is this Sunday, I turn 23. Not doing much, might have some cupcakes and a nice dinner. Gonna go to the movies the following week and see Allegiant pt. 2

Hope everyone is doing good.

it was a mistake. It happens especially if you aren't used to using a walker.

Good morning. Hope everyone is having a good day. I just have some cleaning to do. My BFF is coming over tonight. I'm excited to see her but I'm also worried about breaking my isolation.
What have you got planned?

Morning. Might goto the grocery today.

Im dying to get my check in dude. 2 and half weeks without much money. 4 dollars in my checking account.

Hopefully work is better today! It was bad news all around but it's sunk in and not much to do about it just keep trudging until the end lol.

Neil_w wants me to film myself smakin my little butt

Thoughts? Is he being creepy

I'm in withdrawal and I asked for ibuprofen twice already and they say it's coming but it isn't! I don't even know if they gave me my meds yesterday. I need the flucking meds. Why are they so slow and incompetent.

They finally came with my meds. My tooth is killing me. They didn't bring me ibuprofen last night. I hate it here. If I were at home, minus the rats, I'd have taken my pills as soon as I got up.

Happy morning everyone

I'm so tired from 20mg Vyvanse sigh. I wont bother asking the psychiatrist for an increase again because she said no. But I might. I don't want to be tired in Mexico. But I might have to..