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I'm surprised you haven't especially after cutting out drinking...

I know. I thought i would. This upcoming saturday will have been a month i stopped drinking. Maybe its not that fast idk. But my eyes cleared up, which means my liver must have gotten better.

I lost barely a pound. Not even from stopping drinking.

I know im not exercising but that cant be it at all. Exercise is only 20 or so percent of weight loss. I almost feel like i was fluctuating weight to a lower number when i did drink because i was barely eating but only drinking. But thats still carbs going in? So idk.

My mom is not a good person to be coaching me on weight loss. Her moods are too up and down and she calls me fat too much. I dont like it. And then when i do bad part or all of a day she will tell me how im not taking it seriously. Omg she barely eats. She eats 1 meal a day and exercises for 3-4 hours everyday. Shes cut out most foods and takes dozens of supplements. Do you guys think thats a problem? I feel like it is.

Yeah your mom sounds excessive....I'm going to try this meal service called freshly, I'll let you know if it helps.....

Thank you. What is it exactly?

https://www.freshly.com

It's not exactly a diet service but it's healthy and high protein....I thought I'd try it.....

It sounds cool. Only thing is, is almost everything cant be delivered out here. I seem to be out of range for anything cool or interesting. I can get pizza out here, but thats it and that only started like a few years ago or so when they put up a dominos a few towns over.

I so badly wish i could get UberEATS out here!

It's been cloudy or raining for a couple days and it's supposed to be yucky for the next couple days. I'm not looking forward to it.

Doing more cardio really helps with weight loss. Even walking, running, bike riding all can help. You can find all sorts of resources online for exercises you can do without going to the gym.

That's a good thought.

I totally forgot about cardio. It keeps sticking in my mind that if I exercise ill become bulky. Not like a guy but like too much muscle. But then again im sure i aspire to some stupid celebrity body or worse. I try to stay away from that. But i do remember how i used to look in my early even mid twenties. Wish i still looked like that, you know.

Kinda worried about my mom tho. She says she workouts to stay healthy. But what shes doing cant be healthy at all. I think shes afraid of getting old and prob dying. Also getting overweight too im sure.

And she drinks behind everyones back. I found two cases of beer in a garage fridge at her house. Her husband is under the impression she doesnt drink. So is my sister. Everytime im over there shes hiding a beer in her robe or something...i once found a whole bunch of bottles of beer in a closet where she would sneak off every once and while to drink it.

I wouldn't underestimate the age thing I know since I turned 40 age has really hit me. It just adds to the depression.

Is there something i can do to ease your mind? Hope your day or maybe tomorrow turns around.

Oh no even lifting weights won't make you bulky. Eating tons of protein lifting super heavy weights and having supplements to build muscle might make you bulky. But lifting weights when done right can be really good for weight loss. Because building some muscle helps prevent loose skin when losing weight.

They send it FedEx so maybe you could get this one? I saw an uber eats delivery girl at this middle eastern place we stopped at on the weekend....I had no idea they even had it here yet.

Yes when I'm sad and don't know why it's often the weather at least partially....

I realized I forgot to take my pill this morning. If I take it now I won't sleep. I'll take it tomorrow.

Very sunny outside warm day nice sunset right now.

Felt really depressed half an hour before I took the injection then went to sleep and had a dream that I was manic and laughing.

Now my mood has lifted..

Goodnight all. Brand new day tomorrow even though life is moments and not days, everything can be good.

Whatttttt? Fedex? Wtf!!!! Yea i can get fedex.
Ubereats is all over dfw. Even in the next town. But not here sadly.

Morning. Having my usual coffee and 2-4 slices of bacon.

Thank you Newtus I'm feeling a little bit better today.

Hey guys, good morning, hope everyone has a good day today. So I might be able to see my psychiatrist on Friday, finally, thankfully, after 6 months. May I ask you guys what meds are you on and what your last diagnosis is? I know meds are different for everyone but I just want to be able to give some suggestions and discuss about what meds I should be on with my Pdoc. I have issues with many APs due to some of them make it harder for me to breathe or too sedating and got me chronically tired.

Additional unimportant question, I forget how to use the word "either" in a sentence

Either is like, either or...

So in your post it would be, "Most APs make me either happy or sad." For example,

You could also say, "I don't like noodles, either."

Oh okay I remember how to use it again. Thank you