Roll call 94?

Good morning/afternoon everyone.

I got released from the hospital today. I'll be following up with a nurse on Friday, then my regular therapist next Wednesday.

In other news, I got my 4-year residence permit card renewal today, it came into the post office. That's a worry off my plate, as my previous residence permit was due to expire on Wednesday. I had a right to stay in Finland while my permit application was pending, but I was concerned it'd have affected my healthcare here. But now that is no longer an issue.

Yeah probably from sleeping too much. I used to feel that way when I napped a lot.

Great news all the way around. It must feel good to be home.

I had some coffee and forced myself to get up.

Morning thoughts:

I just want to be done with men/boys. Its a crappy feeling tho when everyone from high school has a s/o or kids and you are just here playing the singles dating game, with no kids. Its an awful feeling to not have anyone. Not even a close companion. Or maybe im overlooking it but i dont think so.

Sure people say "focus on yourself" or "the right person will come". But when it comes down to it, finding someone is a crapshoot. Especially the older you get. And the older you get the harder it is!

I haven't dated in 7 years.

I'm struggling with symptoms lately

There are a lot of stressors for me right now

New job. Exam coming up this weekend. I have to find somewhere else to live.

I feel anxiety pretty much constantly. I had a couple hallucinations yesterday. And I'm having really bad paranoia

Why do you have to find somewhere else to live?

Sorry about how you are feeling.

My landlady informed me she is going to renovate this house and put it on the market to sell. So I have to be out soon. My roommates have already left. I'm looking for places but nothing's working out so far

I'm sorry, DNA

Good morning! Feeling good. At my day treatment program.

Getting my shot tomorrow since its every 3 weeks now. Got groups Monday through Thursday. Also an appointment with my therapist Thursday, dentist Friday morning then meeting with my case manager later that afternoon

Had a really good dinner last night. It was a spinach salad with dried cherries, almonds, and blue cheese. Plus I had some carrot sticks since the salad wasn't that filling.

I'm re reading the harry potter series just for fun. Getting back into my hobbies, violin, art, Italian. Etc.

Hope everyone is doing well

I can't even remember when I had my last date. It's been a while. Probably because I was still not over with my ex. Right now I don't feel upset he has a new girlfriend.

I have never dated anyone, i am 21 and not really ugly.

You can date me if you want Lol (just kidding, never mind)

I've never dated either. I don't know how to meet people and I'm too awkward.

Yesterday was my moms birthday, miss her so much.

Lol, I don't want to get into an internet relationship. :P Of course I know you're just kidding xD

Maybe do something special for your mom's birthday. It's better to remember her being alive instead of remembering her death. maybe buy a small cake in honor of your mom?

I would never make it in the dating world. My sister and brother in law (the one that died) introduced me to my husband when we were 18. I've never been much of a dater and I'd never make it now. I'm much too shy and awkward.

I've not dated anyone in 7 years now. Just sort of the norm now.

I used to date a lot but don't anymore. Haven't since I was like 18, am 23 now. Just haven't met anyone and don't want to bother with a relationship while I'm trying to get stable. I'm sure I will again eventually, now is just not the time. I do want to get married someday.

Thanks, I actually made one of her recipes I love the other day, linguine and clams

Nice... I like when my mom makes peanut butter fudge. It's something my grandmother made. brings good memories.

The molar with the bad cavity just broke on a milk dud

Now I'm more depressed

I'm just garbage. I don't want to exist anymore

Yeah. I'm just sitting back and enjoying some music.

I am still confused though. The pdoc was unable to really give a diagnosis to my psychotic symptoms, both past and present. Yes, they got worse when I tried to go down on my medication. But she said that she couldn't tell me what I'm experiencing because they aren't the typical profile, but that it was clear that the APs are having an effect on them. **shrugs** Maybe I just won't know.

AP can cause psychosis while reducing the dosage even if you take them fir abxuety and not for psychosis, or it can be the psychosis gettibg worse