i didn't see anyone make a new one yet?

[newtus]

Thank you kori

[Gr3tta_0]

Originally Posted by Kori Anders

i didn't see anyone make a new one yet?

You've done it !

[Angelique67]

Subscribing

[newtus]

Do i think my illness has lost my creativity in me, vs it being psychosis? Im not sure. Probably. Could be negative symptoms.

[bearguardian]

what is roll call?

[newtus]

I was just reading my old psych hospital notes. It says chronic paranoid schizophrenia, rule out schizoaffective.

Im just saying. THATS when i was at my worst. My pss says ill always be mentally ill.

So i must have some sort of mental illness.

[newtus]

Idk why its so hard for me to believe. Its not that i dont believe it. Its partly like, it doesnt come off to me as severe or chronic or whatever, as its been told to me, so that makes it hard to believe.

Idk

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by newtus

Idk why its so hard for me to believe. Its not that i dont believe it. Its partly like, it doesnt come off to me as severe or chronic or whatever, as its been told to me, so that makes it hard to believe.

Idk

Unfortunately lack of insight into the fact you have an illness can be part of the illness.....

[Sometimes psychotic]

Thanks Kori

[Desoxyn]

I might need to go back to the psych ward again.

I bought too many drugs with all my money but I'm not allowed to say them on here. It's as bad as it can get. All the worst ones.

My life is at a complete stand still and I'm going no where but it seems like I'm not compatible with the independent living program even when I was there because I have no goals and they didn't even know what to do with me there.

Possible trigger:

That's why I get suicidal

I can't live like this it's absolutely horrible.

I haven't smoked in about a week because of the new vape though.

I just hate this I'm horribly stuck and unmotivated.

I feel so alone and scared.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Unfortunately lack of insight into the fact you have an illness can be part of the illness.....

Doesnt that suck? Is it possible i have lack of insight sometimes but not all the time? Or perhaps lack of insight into how severe it is? Or? Idk...

[bearguardian]

Lots of things can cause the lack of insight I guess...

I dunno what's wrong with me today. The smallest of things has been pissing me off.

[newtus]

I just read about lack of insight and partial lack of insight by googling.

But it seems like all these articles just have an agenda to make people take more meds.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by unsure123

I dunno what's wrong with me today. The smallest of things has been pissing me off.

Whats wrong?

Originally Posted by newtus

Whats wrong?

I dunno. Just one of them days I think.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by unsure123

I dunno. Just one of them days I think.

Hope things get better by tomorrow unsure. Every once and while ill have days like that. Not too often tho.

[Angelique67]

Time passes so slowly here. At the rehab.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Time passes so slowly here. At the rehab.

What have you been up to all day?

[newtus]

You should come chat with me on here, my friend. Im a lonely individual z

[bearguardian]

Originally Posted by newtus

I just read about lack of insight and partial lack of insight by googling.

But it seems like all these articles just have an agenda to make people take more meds.

Generally, its desires I think that most cloud the judgement. The desire to be normal, to appear normal, to have better self esteem, to have life imagined to be...

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by newtus

What have you been up to all day?

Waiting for every smoke break and feeling really gross. How did your day mostly go?

[newtus]

Originally Posted by bearguardian

Generally, its desires I think that most cloud the judgement. The desire to be normal, to appear normal, to have better self esteem, to have life imagined to be...

Yea. I can understand that. Ive tried my hardest to be normal this past year. Been comparing myself to "normal" people.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Waiting for every smoke break and feeling really gross. How did your day mostly go?

It actually went alright.

Went to see my pss for a couple of hours. Went to the bookstore. Got home and it was raining so i had some tea and took a shower.