Roll call 94?

Sounds like a good day. I'm hoping tomorrow will be ok. My friend is going to visit.

That sounds cool. I hope tomorrow is better for you.

Thank you. I usually get a little depressed when my friend leaves. Do you have anything planned for tomorrow?

I wonder if I'm going back into depression. I feel horrible physically.

No. Welllllll....my ex said he'd come over. But idk. He may not. Plus i may not want him too. But i always say that too, so idk.

Friday through monday for me is the hardest. Basically any day my dad works! Lol.

It's so boring here! I wish I could use a virtual reality helmet and go on a adventure.

There are cheap VRs to buy for smartphones. But I dont understand why not for tablets...

Just a place we all chat. Welcome

You can be just as creative, you just don't feel creative. I notice that since I have less negative feelings in my life I can focus more and get more done creatively. Negative thoughts aren't pining away at my heart strings. I use to ruminate a lot and now its rare when I do. I do not know if I would have been able to write a book if I had all those negative emotions swirling in my head... Who knows. All I know is that I can't risk another psychotic break from reality so I stick with my antipsychotic.

I hope not.
Are you still using the pt room?

We went to see Planet of the Apes. It was surprisingly good for what it is. It was a nice family night.

Glad you had a good time, valley!

I'm so glad you'll be able to see your friend.

Thank you DT.

I ruminate a lot. I have a lot of time to. I cant stop thinking about EVERYTHING.

I loved the original Planet of the Apes. The ending to Spaceballs was brilliant too. "****, there goes the planet." lol I love Mel Brooks.

My effing pss just asked me if i have a level of autism....

Wow. Mind blown. I seriously doubt that.

I live in my own world since childhood, so there is a possibility I am slightly autistic...

I seriously doubt i do. But this isnt the first time shes asked me. She said cuz i get confused a lot and prob why i dont have full insight into my all my mental health. Ugh...

I told someone (not a doctor) today that I thought I was depressed. It just slipped out. And I was okay. They understand.

Now to mention the other stuff try to figure that out...

Hows it going?

My last confused episode was when receptionist asked me for a ID and I offered her waiting-paper. I dont know how to call these cards in English so sorry for that...

I'm doing okay. Not so crazy today. More focused and not as paranoid.

I was going to talk more today to the person I mentioned but I think I'll wait until tomorrow. I don't want to do it today but I don't want to just spit it out after I see the doctor I'll look like an asshole.

I see the doctor on Thursday. I'll be honest with the doctor and ask for an antidepressant and an antipsychotic. And accept the rec for a shrink. Hopefully that'll set me straight.

I'm surprised to hear a PSS asked you that Newtus. They are certainly not doctors.

Otherwise I have been drinking tonight (never a good idea I know) but I'll keep myself away from self harming.