Roll Call 96

When I use drugs, I don't smoke or vape and haven't for two weeks.

Maybe just quitting a vice is easy replaced with something healthier.

im going to quit stimulants but these multiple benzos feel muscle relaxing.

Many doctors say that the reason for so many heart attacks is because of the manufactured food we eat. It has too many preservatives and the fake food makes are arteries inflame and its a disaster from there.

I got xrays of my chest and was seen right away

Did they say anything about your big heart?

No. They said it was muscle pain.

how did you get to the hospital

I called an ambulance

I'm getting anxiety because my work week starts tomorrow. I'm going to have to work at least another 57 hours like I did last week. Two more weeks like this then I get a four day vacation.

I decided not to go to court. I don't think it's in my best interest.

It never is.

Im so embarrassed to say this but i think my chest was hurting from anxiety...

Everyone is saying its cuz i spent too much time around my mom. I spent 1 day too many over there.

Ive had a lot of people say today i always come back home distraught and messed up when i see her

Do you feel distraught and messed up?

sounds like a Xanax might have helped. Sometimes in tight situations I need one if something is particularly triggering.

I remember being there and if you guys remember seeing my posts i was very *sui* and depressed and anxious. I dont FEEL distraught. But i feel extremely stressed out. Once i got to talking to someone and laughing and having fun i felt better which confused me.

I feel so embarrassed that i even went to the hospital. I shouldnt have. But maybe it was needed. Idk.

Ive NEVER had an anxiety attack like that before. If it was, it was awful. I didnt even recognize it. But i did know that my anxiety made it worse.

I didnt even sleep there. But very little. Plus my mom got drunk yesterday and fell over. She made me eat in front of everyone. Which is why i threw up at the restaurant.

I'm still freaking out about my pnp. I hope I can get in before I'm out of refills. As it is I'm working on my back supply of Ativan. The Latuda prior auth is the biggie. I can't be without that. Why does everything have to be so difficult.

I WISH i had xanax.

Im gonna take a hot shower and goto bed soon

i get so pissed off talking to my parents about safety

they clearly think that i am stupid or something and can't keep myself safe

they say "oh kori you haven't LIVED" WELLL ****ERS YOU DONT GIVE ME A CHANCE TO

I'm being harassed by spiders; both real and not real. I am so creeped out right now. It's 3am, but how am I supposed to sleep here?! I wish I was at home in my flat where it's safe. It's not safe here at all

*Willow*

I'm sorry you didn't have a better time with your mom.
My anxiety attacks are like that. I get chest pain and have trouble breathing. It's terrible.

Thank you valley, for listening to me.

I appreciate it!

Would it be practical for you to move out?? I love(d) living on my own. I could never go back to living with my parents again. They do my head in just seeing them in the daytime sometimes!

*Willow*

I lost 2 pounds. I think that says a lot, when i have been struggling to lose any kind of weight. Stress.