ParRoll Call 97

I'm sorry your fb is like that....you select your friends which shapes the environment....I know there's family too which complicates things and that's where I get into trouble but I just try to stay neutral and remind myself I'm not in a walled garden......

I dont know how to talk about religion philosophically. But i can talk about it in laymans terms.

I subscribe to both major news networks and underground networks both liberal and conservative. Im not talking about my friends list.

It kinda is true. And i base that solely on the many comments i see on facebook articles or news sites. Anyone, ANYONE can post about jesus/god and they will be automatically struck down by many people. Sure there will be people that agree but there will be hundreds that wont. Or will laugh at that person. Its considered unintelligent and uncool and the person is called a bible thumper or something equivalent.

The interesting aspect to me (as im sure for other people) is i can see so much through social media. People say dont pay attention to online trolls or what you read online BUT facebook is very different from any other online social media. Its the largest and most used. And people use their real names, with the exception of a few.

So when someone posts something on there, they arent hidden and since its still behind a screen they feel safe to say stuff openly.

My point is, from what i learned from reading facebook, people think its uncool and unintelligent. And from what ive said, idk why people wouldnt take whats said on facebook at face value, so to speak.

Oh I see......well you may be asking for trouble then.....people have a way of commenting on what they don't like rather than simply continuing the conversation....

Its not my comments. Im reading the people who do comment.

I understand...what I'm saying is most people only comment when they are passionate about something which is typically when they disagree....

Meanwhile, back in hell, I went to the last smoke break without earplugs in. When we were going back in, the monitor told me to wait in like sign language. They think I'm Helen Keller here! It's funny and sad. My manipulative 3rd roommate didn't go out. I don't know what her deal is right now.

If I could get them to let me use my vape in my room I wouldn't have to.see much of the assholes here. I'm still not sure what's wrong with me. Why doesn't it just fade? I really have to get gone from this place.

I am sad. Not gonna take my meds tonight

I'm sorry you are sad. What does taking your meds have to do with it? The meds help you.

Can you use an alternative form of nicotine? Patch gum spray whatever?

Interesting idea, but I don't think so. Even though I went without my vape for 3 months in the hospital, the cravings only got stronger. Plus, vaping is like the only bit of happiness I get anymore.

Angel, what's the main reason they are keeping you there? Is it that they are trying to find the right med cocktail and waiting for results?

I don't think so. I was just thinking that the Risperdal is not helping as much as Invega did. I'm having break through paranoia and akathisia, and snapping turtle jaws. The morons at the hospital should have let me stay on Invega. I want the meds I have at home.

Did you still have symptoms with the Invega? The reason he tried Risperdal is because it's like a hammer for psychosis, it's one of the most effective drugs because it's soooo fawking strong. How often do you see a psychiatrist in there?