ParRoll Call 97

Im not taking my haldol tonight

I don't know how I'm doing. I thought I was okay paranoia and delusion wise. Maybe I'm not? Is any of this real? It feels real but there's a hint of doubt.

Mood wise I'm not as depressed. I was feeling up earlier I felt kind of crazy impulsive but my mood dropped again and now I don't know.

I just don't know what to tell my doctor when I see him this week.

On my AMC network it says it doesn't come back to until October 22nd!

I feel like "I wanna fly!" the psych meds and antibiotics combined is making me feel this way or just this darn bladder infection by itself?

100 days until The Last Jedi arrives!

9 more days until Apple announces the iPhone 8!

I cant sleep. Who is up?

I fell asleep but wanted ice cream real bad so woke up and went to get some haha

Morning

Had my coffee and everything.

My clinic is closed today.

Happy Labor Day!

Morning..

I hate work I have no future and feel like I don't care if I am alive or dead. Like what am I even doing with my life..

I had zero sleep last night.

I'll smoke a cigarette and see if it helps.

I'll take the Wellbutrin again too because I forgot to take it.

Good morning everyone,

I slept good, a little too good lol. I think I may of done something to my back. I'm taking some Tylenol and taking it easy so hopefully it all heals up. I can't get a break this week lol.

Any who I'm at work now, gotta work today the tomorrow I see the new T for the second time and Wednesday I see the pdoc, and then Thursday my vendor shows up so we can begin our project. Busy week it is!

Good morning.
Slept okay until this morning. I hate when I can't sleep when I can sleep late. Oh well. It's beautiful out this morning. It's supposed to be 75.
Hope everyone has a good day.

Its coldddd

Right now I'm sitting outside its 39 degrees F but the sun is warm.

Just came across some code from 9 months ago for a game I was writing in Python. How cool!

I started trying to code on code academy.....it's so not for me....do you want to be a developer someday? I think it pays super well....

Good morning...

Took a shower, brushed my teeth, cleaned the litter box, took out the trash and dropped off my rent check then took my morning meds.

I guess that's something lol

I need to clean my closet, its a huge mess in there but I don't feel up to it today. Maybe next weekend.

I'm just trying to enjoy today. I am probably gonna spend a lot of the day reading and playing videogames.

I feel good mentally, I'm doing great. Sometimes I have urges to get off my meds but that makes no sense as I'm doing really well and I don't have any side effects. I plan on staying on them for the rest of my life, I kind of accept them now. Its no big deal taking meds, its like any other thing you'd have to take meds for like diabetes or high blood pressure or something. I'm just lucky I've got a combo that works so good, some people don't have that.

I have RCIA starting this Wednesday to become Catholic. Its Wednesday nights every week until April.

Im sorry i dont make decent posts anymore. I kinda just post random things now

What's a "decent post"? Your posts are fine, don't we post whatever in here, it doesn't matter if its random

I'm glad you are doing so well blue_bird.
You're right about the meds. Sometimes I want to come off but I know the reason I'm doing so well is because of the meds.

Like long, meaningful posts.

But thank you!

Supposed to get here later in the week.....in the 80s here today though.....

Why do you want to become a Catholic. I am one and would not recommend it to anyone with a mental illness. They really have no place in the church for us. Maybe you will have a more supportive community. Good luck.

My mom was raised catholic. You're basically guilty for everything lol.

Honestly long posts I have trouble remembering and replying thoughtfully these days......short is good.