Roll Call 101

sorry about your arm. I hope it turns out to be nothing.

You are killing me

He is average size. He couldnt keep it up long enough. So we felt each other up til...BOOM!

At least til i went KABOOM if you know what i mean

I had to bring a toy out. For me.

He feels really bad and embarrassed.

I give him a 7 out of 10

It started out as a 4 out of 10 but he made it up to me

Aww poor guy. I'm sure he feels terrible. That's why it's easier to be a woman in the sex department. We can fake our way through.

Was it his first time?

Yea he said he was nervous and he thinks the anxiety got the best of him

First time with me. But he has had a previous relationship. Hes not a virgin.

I'm hearing voices constantly right now...

Yeah I can't imagine the stress of having to perform. Worrying about size, keeping it up, satisfying the woman, trying not to finish too soon. Ugh I don't know that i'd bother if I were a guy lol. Okay maybe

Yea hes like “am i too small for you?” I said no. Hes a good size.

He was also really focused on satisfying me.

He also had hangnails on his fingers and put it in me. I was like “honey, look, the skin in the vagina is kinda thin. You cant have those on your fingers”. Thats EXACTLY how i talked to him. Plus he was a bit too rough. He tried to just stick it in me without slowly easing it in. As the night went on tho he became gentler.

I kinda expected the first time together to be not all that good

Well that's a good thing. Some guys just don't care. Sounds like you got a good one.

Yea
My ex didnt care. Not one bit. It was always about his pleasure.

I kinda feel bad because i was imagining i was doing some of these things tonight with my ex. I miss him right now.

The voices were telling me I was a killer and to kill...and a friend's grandfather just passed away. Maybe I am a murderer and my mind is capable of it...how much more will happen before this is done?

Are they like on the edge of sound? Or coming through like on white noise? (ie a fan or a refrigerator?)

Like on the edge of sound, its like there is constant chatter in my hearing, making it hard to concentrate or focus on anything.

Oh. I had this type of voices when I'd be near my refrigerator in my apartment. It would be many voices but I can't remember what they'd say. Also, the noise would change and I'd get very strange sounds from it. I thought they were in control of my earbuds or something. But it was totally different from the male voice that would torture me, incredibly loudly.

My horrible roommate is snoring but she sounds like a goat (the gal across the hall called her a goat), or like a pig, it's terrible sounding. My earplugs are not blocking anything and they were new from the jar today.

Please don't think I'm cruel, this woman chronically craps all over the toilet seat, the toilet lid, and on the outside of the toilet bowl, and I'm the one who always happens to see it. She never self reports. So I'm the one who has to run around trying to find the right person to tell and come clean it up. Because they don't let residents have bottles of bleach. And then since I reported it today the woman that came in to see it or clean it shouted at me about my lunch tray that hadn't been picked up. Plus all the other crap that happened. I'll be so glad to get out of here. Especially if I can find a different apartment.

Im so sorry angelique

Anyone up? I cant sleep at all.