Roll Call 101

That's wonderful, a week is a big accomplishment. Did you vomit since you started feeling sick?

No I haven't vomited. I'm mostly past the acute physical withdrawal . Now I'm in the PAWS part which is the worst

They do...this isn't the first time they've told me horrible things like this or to do bad things. Maybe it's related to me being afraid of doing bad things or causing other people harm...maybe they are connected. The dark side of my mind manifesting in voices to torture me. Thank you for pointing that out, like it made me think today that there could be a connection.

Good evening/afternoon everyone. How is everyone?

I hope junkDNA and valley feel better soon.

I'm doing a little better today. At least the voices aren't tormenting me at the moment. I'm just gonna try to focus on getting my laptop ready to use with MacOS so I can record stuff.

I'm sorry. I hope it will pass as soon as possible. I hate stomach/bowel issues. Want you to feel well.

(wait, what is PAWS?)

Yes I felt like this too like its almost an extreme anxiety like just want to make sure not to do that......like sometimes when I'm driving or whatever I'll picture veering into traffic and then the negative outcome. It's not really an intentional line of thought but sometimes happens when I'm tired...it seems to be protective.

Well I got my period yesterday at 6:40pm but it woke me up to say surprise I'm here like 2hours ago I heated up my magic bag took Advil 600mg climbed back into bed and fell back asleep until now.

My head & ears are throbbing in pain. My lower back feels like someone did acupuncture on it and left the needles in.

I can sense Someone talking about me to someone I'm not sure it's in all good standings though

Oh, wow, you too? About half the people posting are sick today. (((((Hugs)))))

Hmm, I have those flash images of bad things happening as well. But yeah, last night was definitely audible voices. I checked with my wife and things were silent...but to me there was a lot going on, chatter, voices, etc.

I picked up the high school transcript.

Now to mail it off

https://www.discoveryplace.info/post...-syndrome-paws found it, JDNA! I'm sending good vibes and thoughts to you!

Post acute withdrawal syndrome. Can last months.

That sounds like hell. But you'll get through it. You only have to do it once, I hope.

feel better.

... ummm, the feeling outweights all of that. Testosterone just takes over. lol God, it would be awful to premature ejaculate though... Unlike lesbian sex, guys are good for one big bang and then the chemicals that rush to the head just make us tired and relaxed, and we're too sensitive down there.

Do you lift weights? I love when women do lunges and squats. Those will wear a person out quickly because it's a compound exercise. Great exercise!

Dude, when I was kinda manicy, I could read from open to close at the library, Plato, Homer, Faust, really tough reads. The amount of notes in my Plato's Republic Edition and Homer's Iliad and Odyssey would make for a great annotated edition. I'd love to annotate classic works for a living... I wonder how I could make that happen. Anyone know???

I'm not a fast, fluid reader at all, but I deep read very well, which helps with philosophy. It really helps with comprehension. Fact: I was held back in the first grade because my reading level was so low. My mother was ashamed and then would take me to the library and barnes and nobles to buy books galore.

Nearly every morning I wake up I have this excruciating anxiety. It's mostly because I never sleep well and am forced to get up early, regardless of how I slept, to get to work on time. I take sleep aids every so often but I have a lot of trouble closing my eyes to sleep and falling asleep. I'll literally lay in my bed for hours with no stimulation and kind of be in a zen mode where my mind isn't busy until I get restless and then I take a sleep aid.

High school transcript successfully picked up and mailed off.

Should get there monday.

My dog is outside and won't stop barking. What you ask. Because he's afraid of the rain. He's on my porch avoiding it. Damn dogs he has to pee.

Ugh i need to get laid. Properly.

Give him another chance? Maybe now that nerves are out of the way it'll be better.

I am.

He kinda made me upset today talking about it.

He was like “when you said ouch, it made me nervous and i got soft”
I was like “you rammed it in the wrong part! Of course i said ouch!”
Hes like “i cant see down there with all the hair sorry”

Then i got really self conscious. And got upset with him.

I really hope this works out on all levels because my vagina practically owns me right now. Been frustrated for TOO long. And masturbation has lost its fun. Its boring!