Roll Call 101

Morning. Hope everyone is having a good day.
I don't have anything planned. My daughter is going camping with her friend. She's excited and I'm stressed .

I came into work on the wrong day so I don't work until Friday yay. I am greatful for that..

Gonna make myself a pot of coffee when I get home.

Simple simple life.

Took an extra dose of my meds last cuz cuz the episode and feeling anxiety and didnt wake up til now: 11am

Im very tired and weak feeling

Im most likely gonna be in bed all day

My motivation is dead

Angelique67
Thank you for the response. I am sorry I did not give you a feeling of support. I think the questions was to try to have you think how you personally could get out of your situation not interrogation. That was not my intent. At one point I was getting scared about how easy it was for them to do that to you and that is what drove the other contents. Your situation just seemed so hopeless and I felt you were feel feeling helpless. I think now that you have a therapist that seems to be on your side and you like this may be the avenue to get you out of the dreaded home. I just want better for you so I was trying whatever I thought would help obviously I was off base and I apologize. Good luck thinking about you.

One more hour at work then my mom is coming to stay with me for a few dayssssss

Ugh I'm so bored. There is nothing to do. Well I guess I could go grocery shopping but I don't feel like it.
What's everyone else doing?

I need to figure out something to do. I dont feel well tho. Very weak and tired. Plus my upper chest is hurting. I thought i had pulled a deep muscle. Not sure how. Its been hurting for a few days.

Went to see my favorite flamenco guitar group sitting under the trees at the arboretum...it was still hot........

Took some aspirin for my chest. I hope its not my lungs. I get real paranoid about my lungs.

I hate taking a lot of otc meds. Especially aspirin and ibuprofen. Its not good for you.

I feel down today. Don’t want to do anything but want to do everything at the same time. I hate this feeling. I want to go around aimlessly and look at stores but at the same time bleh.

I'm at the library sitting adjacent to a guy looking at porn on a public computer. Trying to mind my own business... lol

I'm hungry but I'm too lazy to go get some food

Seems like everyone is either down or just not feeling up to anything today

I'm watching the TV series Shooter. I enjoyed the film so thought I'd try it and see if it was good. Liking it so far.

Its kinda interesting to see the different stuff ive been ordering off amazon. Kinda like its a progression of my mental state.

That's what takeouts are for. Get delivery!

Its like a progression of my mental state. Looking at my amazon orders its like i can tell i was ok for a month or two. Then ordering the Ego book i started to get sad i could tell. Thats when my ex and i were about to break up. Then the loneliness books. Thats when we broke up. And then the Zen book. Thats when i got a little hopeful again

Geeze I just did the same like 2 days ago it's night and day pre and post illness...

Also how is the fidget cube......

I feel a bit under the weather today.

Besides the physical stuff, i actually feel kinda sad. See i have no clue why im even diagnosed with the bipolar subtype of schizoaffective. Im too sad too much.

My mom left out of town today to see my sister. Then when she gets back shes going straight to cali. Shes going on like 5 vacations between today and end of december. She claims she has a job. Well she claims her job is taking care of her rental property. But ive told her before. Thats not a real job, a real job you cant take 5 really long vacations in 3 months. I mean for godsakes my dead works a job and he hasnt vacationed in 2 years. He cant he has to freaking work.

What gets me is she taking 2 or 3 of those vacations for my sister. This is exactly why i dont think she loves me as much as she loves my sister. I can barely get her to come see ME, ever, and i live 45 min from her. Or just spend time with me. Shes always yelling at me and telling me how i mess up all the time and rushes our time together, IF we can even see each other

how do you take a screen shot with your laptop???

Man...i only used that thing like 2 times.

I put it in my self care box. Havent opened that thing in a very long time. Last time i did it was to cuddle with the stuffed bear i had.

Doesn't your sister have a kid now.....trust me grandbabies are a priority....

Sometimes I just bust into th selfcare box when I'm bored but now I need to restock I think....but I'm not sure what to put in there anymore my tastes have changed and stuff is just kind of meh....except chocolate but I would randomly eat that......