Roll Call 103

Just bought a couple books by a modern philosopher by the name of Thomas Reid. The father of common sense philosophy. I read his first book, all but the final chapter on vision. I found that chapter tough to crack for now. I wish I had help in decoding his stuff. I should have ample time though to read him over the winter.

Thanks SP!
too many things going on tomorrow I wish I could live in slow motion!

No. You dont. My mom is extremely emotionally abusive towards me. She does random stuff like this and then i have to hear about how i dont appreciate anything she does for me and how she basically owns me cuz she gave me money. I never asked for this money. I dont want her money.

Everyone on this forum knows how abusive my mom is. Stuff like this money, im gonna hear about it for forever.

Maybe you should talk with her less frequently. Sometime the more you talk to a person the more they throw around their emotional baggage more liberally. If you only talk to her once a week then the talks can be more about what's happening and less about feelings.

@newtus then send the money back to her with a thanks but no thanks attached to her

Thats what i do already. I only talk to her once a week.

F no. Thats just how our relationship works. She wants to give me money, fine. But im not buying into her degrading me. F yea im taking that money. She doesnt need it. Shes a rich b****h.

I dont want to talk about my mom. It puts me in an extremely bad mood. Ive said enough about her here over the past 6 years.

Sorry Newt! (hugs)

Its fine. I prob shouldnt have said anything.

Anyone watching the cubs?

Anxiety

Need benzo

But benzos are bad..

Must be from quitting smoking.

Usually I just go out for a smoke but now I have to sit around my coworkers and it makes me anxious.

Drank an energy drink after being anxious because I was also tired.

Tweak tweak

Edit: I'm so confused with life.

Go outside and get some fresh air. Get away from people.

I ate more food. Without thinking about the calories... took my meds again. Hoping for a good day tomorrow.

Im hoping things are slowing down now from everything that has happened from july til now.

I dont remember having to experience stress like what has happened in the past few months, since idk...its been a few years.

If my chest pain is actually costochondritis, then it was probably brought on by stress. I still dont believe it is tho.

I mean things with the bf is going well so far, im talking to my mom less, things at the clinic are better seems like, if i can pay for this new phone in installments ill be able to afford Christmas gifts and have enough money for next years insurance deductible etc.

AND i found out my high school transcript was processed at the school i applied to and my application is being reviewed now!!! Lets hope i get accepted!!!

I added more to my posts. Sorry.

No they're not. They work perfectly unless you get into the habit of taking them everyday, or taking whole bottles of them.

Speak of the devil, I have an event coming up that I hope I can take one for.

I was prescribed .5mg xanax 4 times a day. I was prescribed to take it everyday. It wasnt as needed.

This day went by fast. Now i only have to deal with tomorrow. Then my weeks starts all over monday. Back to the clinic monday.

Well, I was fed up with my mod earlier. Ever since getting a poor quality coil on the other day. So tonight, I supposed it was going to be more failure heaped on the top of my failures the past many days. So, I cleaned the connectors with a Qtip, pried off the old coil, and put on the new one (from inside the box of a new tank so of course it had to work), twisted on with a pliers, got the bottom back onto the tank, and lo and behold, my vape worked, just right! So I got to vape for around 10 minutes! Now, whether I am up to go vape in the morning, it will work,hahaha! I don't have to fill it until maybe 4pm or 7pm. I love doing these things in the dark, too.

Anyone else’s memory really bad?

The past weeks or so i cant remember crap about details. Idk if its the meds, or stress, or lack of sleep or something. My bf tells me things ive said and i dont remmeber saying that stuff until he jogs my memory. Someone today asked me if im ok since the last time i talked to them but...i dont remmeber what i told them? Plus other people have said stuff too to me.

I usually remember interactions with people but stuff I read, it's bad....still important stuff at work I make notes........