Roll Call 103

Hi .......

How's your day so far?

Not bad, we are getting some equipment calibrated in the lab so I can't do my work with it, not really going to do much until 11, kinda nice...

How about you?

That's good, you get a break. I'm spending time with my kids and trying to recover from this episode I've had for like the past week. Doing ok though. Family fun.

A lot of people here are doing well. I can name off a list of people who have come a long away, including me.

I, too, am recovered, free. I dont work but i manage my own life like i do work. I get my own income. Yea from disability but i budget it. To say everyone here is so sick is not true. Yea theres many here who still need a lot of help, but theres also many here who are doing pretty well and go out of their way to make sure those who need the extra push/help are looked out for.

The schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders forum is a pretty tight knit community. So is Roll Call. Many people here have been on this specific forum here for many years. So when we see someone coming in and calling out someone individually, continuously, then yes, we will stick up for those people.

Sorry that you had an episode

Glad you're feeling a little better though

Yeah the CBT self help for me never worked as well as having a T. Is it hard to get a therapist there?

The cool thing about living in the mountains is that when ur low on gas u can just put the car in neutral and coast down the mtn

Runnin on fumes bxtch

I guess if you're used to it its cool but mountain driving scares me.....

I too would be scared to drive down a mountain on neutral

Just finished video call with the bf. He is sick and he looked so weak on video. I wish I were there with him to take care of him

https://www.grandmaschickensoup.com/

I haven't tried it but I considered it when my bf was sick and too far away to drive.......

Why does everyone STARE AT ME

I'm in a restaurant with my friend and he confirmed this guy is staring at me being a creep

Thank you SP

I go to the gym, take the dogs for a walk, and have a shower and I miss all the drama! Jeez. What is up with that. Someone needs to cool it.

Anyway it’s turkey day and I’m not having turkey lol.

I feel so shallow and cold right now. Like I feel both physically cold (have a jacket on), but also in my heart I feel cold. I feel like my soul is cold. I feel ugly. Like the expression I want to do is not going to look good on me.

I done it downhill to get a taste of what a jump start is like until you could get into gear....I was 17 it was freaky in my dad's old Honda Civic with my dad

I am so full from last nights dinner incredibly sick too my stomach. I am laying in bed with a fan on I feel hot and looks seriously cloudly outside! Compared to yesterday....

And everyone partied well into the night on my floor even when I went to bed I could hear the stereos and the screaming over them and ridiculous amount of slamming doors. I was not caring as soon as my meds kicked in I was in deep sleep!

I woke up to someone pounding on my door at 3 am though it was a bunch of police officers asking me to turn down my stereo I asked what stereo I allowed them in and they noticed everything was dark and was pissed off about that but I was half awake and I pointed to the stereo that was silent and asked if they meant the one across the way from me and down the hall I told them it was some sort of joke to wake me up from a dead sleep to turn down my radio that's not even on but I bet ya stand in here for 3 mins the jerks across the hall will turn theres up...as saying that guess what it was so loud it was shaking my apartment so they they immediately left for next door! There was like 7 of them in my apartment I watched through my peep hole as they said next door to come in they all went in and I guess they were doing something they shouldn't been because as one tried to clamour outta the door the outside police officers handcuffed them. They definitely brought the muscle turned off the wailing stereo and all I did was went back to bed...

I thought it was a dream at first but I first woke up to all my lights being on so I turned them off and went to the bathroom. I think across the ways joke that it was my stereo if that is even possible I was having nightmares as usual but no stereo I know not to have it on after 11pm!

Anyways I am sure their lil illegal activity has found themselves some place not where they want to be at all!

You can still use your brakes in neutral. Just not the gas

Just got back from seeing my pss. We made a rough guideline for a daily food plan. To lose weight.

Sorry you're not feeling well, here's a warm friendly hug

Thanks 12AM <3

A month is a long time if you're starting to si again. Any chance you could get in sooner, if you tell your pdoc you've begun to sh again?

I remember when I was doing this in my mid teens. I remember because I survived my teens, and most of my cuts were very shallow. And I have many scars from shallow cuts. All these white scars on my left arm. They're all very distinct and probably countable, but they did scar. Please reach out to someone the next time you feel like doing it. Someone's always here if no one else is around.

Why do you think or feel that way? Did anything trigger you?