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Anyone else freezing? I put my little heater on 89 and its not doing it

I see the psychiatrist today. This afternoon. Apparently I have to fill out papers beforehand and then I see the psychiatrist. Maybe fill out forms describing my symptoms? Who knows. Appointment is supposed to be an hour and a half long. I don’t know if they’ll want to see me again in a month or what I’m just nervous about it all.

I’m also trying to figure out how I feel. I’m eating better for sure but I’m still not 100% in that regard. I feel this lingering paranoia and delusional thinking in the background waiting to come forward. Listening to music is just making me go closer. Like I can almost hear messages in the music but they’re kind of blocked.

Do I feel depressed do I feel stable do I feel hypomanic I don’t know I’m so confused. So confused.

Yes I think it's just a case of it's not the right time with college. It's just too much for me right now. I think my mood has been a bit off since I went to hospital. The summer was supposed to be time for me to get on top of things but it never worked out that way. I'm hoping maybe I could go back next year but I seriously hope I don't have to pay the full tuition fees because that'll mean this year was a complete disaster.

It's not really feasible for me to move closer to family. It does help but I think it puts my problems on hold short term... things would creep back eventually anyway.

It's not a certification I'm studying for at college but a qualification, so no other way to do it. I really think I'd need a higher qualification than what I have to get into tech support. I don't really know though, maybe the A+ would be enough.

My pants don't fit anymore. They fall down when I'm walking around, Its so annoying. I still have a few weeks before my sister helps me get some new clothes.

My pants don't fit anymore. They fall down when I'm walking around, Its so annoying. I still have a few weeks before my sister helps me get some new clothes.

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My pants don't fit anymore. They fall down when I'm walking around, Its so annoying. I still have a few weeks before my sister helps me get some new clothes.

It's chilly but very nice in the sunshine today. Last night it was so cold out at the vape break, I didn't stay outside very long.

I've been getting really dizzy though again.

I keep having to ask for supplies here, like Kleenex, toilet paper, etc, and I hate asking for stuff. Everyone is always really busy.

It's beautiful here too. Just cold!
What is the dizziness from?

I'm not sure. My glasses need cleaning, and I seem to have catatonic symptoms where I'll sit in one place, with my head not moving for very long periods of time, like an hour or so. Then, when I start moving my head, I feel dizzy and like I'm going to fall down. It was really bad coming back from the dining room earlier. Not even my walker was helping and I felt a terrible panic attack coming on. I had to use one hand on the walker and one hand on the wall.

Omgoodness that must have been scary. you should mention it to the nurse.

Yes, I will. They don't make it easy for residents to self report here about meds and symptoms, though.

You did better yesterday!

So Newtus. The preview for this thread is a picture of you. It looks like a modeling pic