Roll Call 111

My cat looks bored. I am too.

Cant go anywhere today cuz i have to wait for the package all day. Or else it really will be rescheduled to Tuesday. Ugh.

Did your beta leaf come?

The rain is really coming down today. It got warmer, and the patio is flooded. I'm smelling a dirty kitty litter box. They're doing something to the new roommate.

Im depressed. There's no Coke in the machine. That machine should be residents only. Staff can come and go and can get their own Coke from stores! The machine gets sold out of Coke by the 3rd day.

No. Its coming on the 28th.

Not sure what the point of prime is if its only available for certain items. Im paying like 100 or something dollars a year for it.

Yeah I used to have prime, you know you can just get it monthly if you aren’t constantly shipping....I actually got it to watch 24, shipped a bunch of stuff realized how much I was spending and cancelled.

Took Haldol the first time tonight, I hope it doesn’t make me stop or late having period or else I’d get paranoid. Decided not to take the Seroquel, I’m too scared of the hard to breathe part.

Well i am actually constantly buying. Plus i use amazon music for my echo.

If it screws with your period you can add metformin or Abilify...
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Probably worth it for you then....can you get student prime?

I get this bad too even when I'm watching netflix or something I move them like crazy

Ive looked into that. Id have to use my student email address. And then they have to verify it. Havent had a student email since 2010 i think since ive been an online student. Or at least i dont have a valid one. Thinking about getting a ASU id card tho for student discounts.

And it also really wouldnt be worth it tho because student prime is limited compared to regular prime.

Thanks SP, do you need prescription for Metformin?

How is it limited?

I havent looked into it in a few years but at the time that i did they didnt offer some features that regular prime had. And the added features were already available on regular prime.

In the US yes you need a script it’s a diabetes med which can also help with any AP associated weight gain, you should be able to get it from your regular doc. However it’s not a perfect med a lot of people get GI issues.

Wow, so my mom comes in and **** talks my grandma, and then my grandma comes in here and **** talks my mom. When i say "in here", i mean the club house, where i come to be alone... sigh... They just don't understand the concept of solitude being necessary to write. I'm not as social as them, i need alone time. Plus, they wake up at 630am. I'm not normal. I don't fit in here.

I don't think i fit in anywhere. I didn't quite fit in in college because i wasn't as rigid as the academics were. I had a sense of wonder and flexibility of thought that didn't settle in just philosophy or psychology. I settled with pragmatism and common sense as my foundations for epistemology, where everyone else was either analytic or continental. At work, everyone is anti intellectual. Nobody, except the boss, wants to have a profound thought, unless it comes from AA or their own mind. They don't want "what if" questions, their rigid in their beliefs that come down to them through tradition. My family is all great to talk with but i just am not a social butterfly, especially since I've lost my emotions. They love to just sit and talk about religion, and family affairs, and money, but I'm just an eccentric hermit i guess now. lol

Just got into an argument with my mom.

She was saying a bunch of crap about me. So i went off. I completely went off and started talking about the past. Just get sick and tired of holding all this shyt in around her. I need to say it so bad. If i dont, this is what happens. Shell say something judgemental and ill go off.

Not even trying to include her in my future marriage and kids lives if she wants to be that way. Dont care one godda*n bit about her being in my kids lives if shes gonna be that way. Just want my kids to have MY dad in THEIR lives. Could care less about her.

And honestly, while this sounds like a bunch of emotion, it isnt. Ive been thinking about this for years.

Id rather struggle than have her in my life

Yea ill tell her i love her on her deathbed. But fvck everything else

Driving to the Canadian Rocky Mountains.

Skiii

I’m sorry things couldn’t be better between you two.

Hmm, I’ve been reading that the Gorilla Glass 5 on my Pixel is quite easy to scratch. Simple solution is a screen protector but by god are they hard to find with good reviews. Most on Amazon have poor reviews.

Eventually found one to try. Who knows if it’ll be ok, only had 2 reviews. I hope so. I want my phone to last a 2-3 years without having to worry about scratches...

Thank you. I have gone out of my way to try for years upon years. I told her that a few months ago, that i was trying to mend our relationship. She said something along the lines of “what is the point in trying?”. That shouldve been a red flag.

I’m going to see a ice sculpture exhibit tomorrow. Already seen photos from my sister who went. Looked amazing. I’ll try get some photos to share!