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Jan 07, 2018, 07:13 PM

I would put the key under your pillow from now on and not on your night stand. Or get a necklace and put it on that.

ofthevalley · Jan 07, 2018, 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

You mean just to the therapist, or to the social worker? I think I should tell the social worker except that then they will likely discover all my contraband.

Thanks.

I don’t know which. Isn’t there somewhere else you can hide it until they look? I would just move it to my pillowcase or something. Clothes drawers anything.

Angelique67 · Jan 07, 2018, 07:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

I would put the key under your pillow from now on and not on your night stand. Or get a necklace and put it on that.

Yes, that's what I was thinking. It's on a stretchy wrist band but I don't want to sleep with my circulation cut off. I'll put it under my pillow. Thanks.

Angelique67 · Jan 07, 2018, 07:33 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

I don’t know which. Isn’t there somewhere else you can hide it until they look? I would just move it to my pillowcase or something. Clothes drawers anything.

Yes, I'm trying to think. I actually don't have my contraband in the locked drawers, it's in the unlocked ones. I'm just afraid they'd open all my drawers.

Angelique67 · Jan 07, 2018, 07:44 PM

I only had things of value in the locked drawers. Soda money, fake money, jewelry. The cigar. The stuff I think they'd object to is the extra tanks, nail polish and remover. And cigar.

Angelique67 · Jan 07, 2018, 07:56 PM

They didn't give me the third pill!!!!!!! She brought the page in like I know how to use - ok she came back with it. I think it's the Cogentin.

Angelique67 · Jan 07, 2018, 07:57 PM

I'm losing my mind here. I am very skeptical it's going to warm up tomorrow and I want my vape!!!! I can't keep waiting for my vape!!!!!!!!

ofthevalley · Jan 07, 2018, 07:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I only had things of value in the locked drawers. Soda money, fake money, jewelry. The cigar. The stuff I think they'd object to is the extra tanks, nail polish and remover. And cigar.

Yeah I’d just hide it until it’s over.

Angelique67 · Jan 07, 2018, 08:07 PM

Sorry I'm losing my mind. I think I may just go to sleep now. There's nothing much else to do. And there's only been football on Fox since this afternoon. I hope I can calm down. I have a headache.

Erti · Jan 08, 2018, 05:45 AM

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Someone please help me from my self. I can't do this anymore. I can't take this mental pain. I want to die. I don't want feel this feeling anymore.

Loial · Jan 08, 2018, 06:06 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

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Someone please help me from my self. I can't do this anymore. I can't take this mental pain. I want to die. I don't want feel this feeling anymore.

I'm sorry you are suffering Erti.

The pain is temporary. You can get past this. You seemed to be doing well not too long ago.

We would all miss you a lot of you did something reckless so please don't.

Maybe you should call a crisis line?

Erti · Jan 08, 2018, 06:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

I'm sorry you are suffering Erti.

The pain is temporary. You can get past this. You seemed to be doing well not too long ago.

We would all miss you a lot of you did something reckless so please don't.

Maybe you should call a crisis line?

My mom wont let me out of her sight... I can't privately do that. She caught me crying upstairs and wont let me out of her sight.

Loial · Jan 08, 2018, 06:33 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

My mom wont let me out of her sight... I can't privately do that. She caught me crying upstairs and wont let me out of her sight.

She must be worried about you. Could you talk to her about what’s going on?

Erti · Jan 08, 2018, 06:38 AM

No I can't. She'll get mad. I really want to go to the hospital. I really NEED to go to the hospital.

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I've been considering suicide for a while now. If it hadn't been for specific events here lately I would of done it already. I'm not afraid to die. I've talked myself into not fearing of pain or death. I really want to overdose on my haldol and die. I want to find a place where no one can find me and kill myself there. No one can find me and save me. I don't want to exists anymore. I want people to forget about me like I never happened. Not sure why I exists anymore. Not sure if I want to anymore. I wish my mom aborted me like she did twice with my rapist kids. This isn't a suicide letter... I have no date on doing this

ofthevalley · Jan 08, 2018, 06:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

No I can't. She'll get mad. I really want to go to the hospital. I really NEED to go to the hospital.

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I've been considering suicide for a while now. If it hadn't been for specific events here lately I would of done it already. I'm not afraid to die. I've talked myself into not fearing of pain or death. I really want to overdose on my haldol and die. I want to find a place where no one can find me and kill myself there. No one can find me and save me. I don't want to exists anymore. I want people to forget about me like I never happened. Not sure why I exists anymore. Not sure if I want to anymore. I wish my mom aborted me like she did twice with my rapist kids. This isn't a suicide letter... I have no date on doing this

Oh erti

I’m so glad your mom won’t let you out of her sight. Sounds like you are in a scary place. Can you talk to your bf?
Please don’t follow through with this. You have a lot to offer.

ofthevalley · Jan 08, 2018, 07:05 AM

Morning. Slept great until my alarm went off. Ugh 6 am. Kids are back to school after 2 snow days. It was nice to sleep in while it lasted.
Working today. It’s going to be busy. I checked in and I have 36 emails. That’s a lot for what’s involved.
Hoping my check comes in today. I need to buy my daughter some stuff. It’s going to be a cold year. She needs more hoodies. I could use some tops too. All of my clothes are too cool for this weather.
Hope everyone has a good day.

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 08, 2018, 08:45 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

No I can't. She'll get mad. I really want to go to the hospital. I really NEED to go to the hospital.

Possible trigger:

I've been considering suicide for a while now. If it hadn't been for specific events here lately I would of done it already. I'm not afraid to die. I've talked myself into not fearing of pain or death. I really want to overdose on my haldol and die. I want to find a place where no one can find me and kill myself there. No one can find me and save me. I don't want to exists anymore. I want people to forget about me like I never happened. Not sure why I exists anymore. Not sure if I want to anymore. I wish my mom aborted me like she did twice with my rapist kids. This isn't a suicide letter... I have no date on doing this

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But you just found a great new boyfriend? Just FYI if you OD on haldol it will probably cause muscle spasms that are really nasty, like you won’t have control of your body.

Who would introduce us to baby metal if you weren’t here?

Do you have any goals? If not set some short term and long term goals it will help you have purpose. Are you seeing a therapist? If not you really should be they can help walk you through this.

Let us know how you’re doing....

newtus · Jan 08, 2018, 10:19 AM

Morning

Having coffee

Seeing my therapist and pss today

Also put on another tattoo last night

Angelique67 · Jan 08, 2018, 10:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

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Someone please help me from my self. I can't do this anymore. I can't take this mental pain. I want to die. I don't want feel this feeling anymore.

Erti I'm so sorry you're in this much pain. I wish I could help.

Angelique67 · Jan 08, 2018, 11:03 AM

We finally had a smoke break this morning. There's slippery ice all over the patio, I'm surprised they didn't put sand over it.

My friend is getting me a drawer alarm, so I guess that's good. Hopefully I won't have to worry about Miss Universe and her sticky fingers anymore.

I hope everyone's ok. Erti, can you take a cab to the hospital?

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 08, 2018, 11:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

We finally had a smoke break this morning. There's slippery ice all over the patio, I'm surprised they didn't put sand over it.

My friend is getting me a drawer alarm, so I guess that's good. Hopefully I won't have to worry about Miss Universe and her sticky fingers anymore.

I hope everyone's ok. Erti, can you take a cab to the hospital?

I wouldn't assume its miss universe, a lot of times its actually the staff....

Angelique67 · Jan 08, 2018, 11:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I wouldn't assume its miss universe, a lot of times its actually the staff....

Yes, but why would the staff take my funny money? In the middle of the night. They can't use it. I don't know who dislikes me that much.

newtus · Jan 08, 2018, 11:17 AM

Damn damn damn...

I slept on my arm last night. So the tattoo on my arm transferred to my face... itll take almost a month to come off.

Loial · Jan 08, 2018, 12:14 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Damn damn damn...

I slept on my arm last night. So the tattoo on my arm transferred to my face... itll take almost a month to come off.

Whoops.

I don’t know how those temporary tattoos work but will not a very good scrubbing with hot water and soap work?

Loial · Jan 08, 2018, 12:19 PM

Evening,

I’ve had a pretty good day so far. I slept in a bit for some reason though.

Not really done much. Been playing Rise of the Tomb Raider all afternoon.

However that did bring up a peculiarity with my desktop PC. I discovered the fans on my graphics card weren’t turning and it was getting hot. I managed to get them spinning after finding a method online but they still don’t always start after stopping again.

I’m going to keep a close eye on it... hopefully I won’t have to return my graphics card under warranty but it might come down to that.

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