Roll Call #115

Good morning. Hope everyone is having a good day. Working today. Have to train the new girl we tried yesterday but one of her programs wasn’t working.
Have a good day.

They found signs of an infection in my lab work so I’m on some antibiotics now hopefully start feeling better soon.

I hit a vape for the first time yesterday . I'm sold. I want one. Prob buy one with my tax return

What infection ,do they know?

Working 2 to close today.

My roommate is moved in . I love how it is. We basically just co-habitate the home. We're not chatty, don't hang out . Not in each others business. It's my ideal situation if I'm forced to have a roommate. I made sure to pick someone who would be comfortable with this. So far, so good

Saw my pdoc today. Agreed to stay on the amisulpride. Was really nervous about seeing him. Went okay though. Don’t think I was honest with him about how weird I feel though. Or maybe I’m just not sure how I feel.
Guna take the pup to the park later. Need some fresh air. I thought about taking him to MY park but I dunno. I’ve been having thoughts about it that I didn’t mention. I’m too worried he would say I wasn’t fit to work. Definitely dumbed it down

Hope you get through work okay. How are you feeling after losing your pets? hope you’re okay

Yay!!!!!

I lost one of my really small pills. It fell out of my hand. I've looked for it but can't find it. The last thing I need is worse paranoia.

Hope everyone has a good day. @Findingreason, I hope the clinic will help.

Good morning/afternoon everyone, how are things going?

I'm...okay. Tired. Saw my counselor and pdoc. The pdoc didn't think the olanzapine was causing my issues with the rapid mood shift. But he did increase my Lamictal dose from 100mg to 200mg. The only concern I presented with him was the fast increase to 200mg could cause problems with rash and what not?

We also agreed that if I enter the state I was in the last few days I would go to the hospital.

Morning

Wow i drank coffee at 3am and fell right back asleep

Im so sleepy

I’m struggling to be honest. My cat isn’t greeting me at the top of my stairs and my dog isn’t warming my chair. I miss them so much

Yeah a UTI apparently hopefully hasn’t gone to my kidneys lol.

My kidneys are bad

Having coffee & vaping.

Had fun with the bf yesterday.

He’s buying me a promise ring for valentines day i think

I should him one i like. It was 14 dollars and he said “thats cheap as hell. I wanna buy you a lot better one.” And he showed me one that was almost 100 dollars but idk if hes getting me it or gonna choose another similar one.

I read that a promise ring is basically a pre-engagement ring

Oh God, Tapatalk is crashing. I just lost my post. Basically I have to make it look like I don't have coils in my pocket. Got in there by accident. Hope my coils aren't duds.

I’m so tired today...

I don’t know what is up recently. All I want to do is sleep.

I’m done with my work but I have to call my boss. I’m hoping he doesn’t have much because I could use the time off. I’m so cold and . I just want to cuddle up under my blanket. I took a shower at 7 so I would have enough time to nap this afternoon.

Took the pup out for a walk and the crows were really bothering me. There were ****ing loads of them don’t think I’m doing as well as I made out

Morning all.

I woke up early.

Frig it. I’m done working for the day. Just not into it. Hopefully my boss isn’t too mad. I just can’t do it.

I’m sorry. It’s so hard to tell how we are feeling with the pdoc. I know for me if I’m not doing well I feel like a failure. Whenever I had to increase meds it made me feel bad. Now that I’m stable I can see and am grateful that I did share.

Don’t beat yourself up, you’ve had a lot to deal with. Does your boss know about it? Hopefully they will understand

Yeah I feel like a failure too when I’m not doing well. I’m also scared that he will use it against me since I work for the nhs. I’m scared he will say I’m not fit to work. Just makes me very wary about telling him anything