Roll Call #115

I'm heading home, forget it.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I guess I'll stay

Yes stay....fight it......

Take a step back maybe? If I feel like crap I’m lucky if I do anything besides eat in the day. Think of it like the flu, it’s temporary and will resolve, but until then be gentle with yourself.

RCIA is cancelled tomorrow due to the snow. So that's one less thing I've gotta do. I do have to drag myself to my program to see my doctor though

Dinner
Laundromat [dryer broke]
Sketchbook cover

=]

As soon as I get home later tonight I'm gonna take a shower, throw on some pajamas and then chill with my cats with a cup of coffee or tea

Are those potatoes? My first thought was roasted grapes because they are so small....

Its kind of a tough one for me when I get in these states. I feel even worse if a lot of things need done and don't get done. Back last year it was really bad and sooo much had piled up. I'm trying to keep from going down that road again.

Just difficult....and I wonder if I can even do things like freelance work. I am just feeling hopeless I won't be able to handle school or work.

Sounds awesome! You know one thing I do for motivation is give myself a reward for doing something I don’t really want to do. It used to be allowing myself to play video games. For example I really should practice my driving by driving to the store tomorrow morning....I will only get flowers if I drive to the store. If I walk, no flowers. Of course I’m not sure about the snow so it might not happen or I may chicken out because I don’t normally drive during the week only very early on weekends.

This is true, called moderation sedation!

Hahaha yea... there mountain potatoes

You'll feel good later that you stayed. Hang in there

It’s quite likely ayour med adjustment will help, if not they can tweak it some more. Getting the right meds is a real pain.

Try not to worry about school/ work yet...live in the moment instead of either the future or past.

Oh that sounds cool....I think the smallest we have here are called fingerling. Mountain is soooooo much better.

Stupid autocorrect. It's moderate sedation

I had a chill day. Took a me day I guess by calling out of work ..hehe. I never do that so I think it's okay . Hung out with my roomie a bit on the porch. My mom is coming to visit tmrw

Its pouring rain

The boys are cooking so I’m taking some time to sit under my blanket with the dogs. I’m so cold. Just can’t get warm today. It’s supposed to rain so maybe that’s why it’s raw.

I'm in class. Only got about a half an hour left then I can go home. It's going well, we're on our ten minute break right now since it's an almost 3 hour class

So a guy at my work started talking about blogging and i suggested to him how it's done and in the middle of it he said he didn't want a blog like mine. Which implied that he's seen my blog which is weird... since I don't follow him on facebook. Then another one says that I've been on twitter, which is connected to my blog. I wrote a blog with two friends in mind who called philosophy a neurosis and i broke it down, i was blunt too. Maybe everyone at work read my blog and now they're taking stabs at me behind my back. It's not like i named them. I just called them "dear friends". This is not good for my paranoia. blah. Two comments in two days was too much for me.

Anyway, My day was pretty easy. Painting a gym teacher's house. He is retired so he acts like we're a class and always has eye contact on us, and if he suspects anything he comes around the corner and asks us what we're up to. It's kind of funny. He's a really nice guy.

I've been watching Altered Carbon on Netflix lately. It's hardcore science fiction. I love it. It's in the Bladerunner type universe kinda.

When i use to get bad depression it would normally hit around 5-530.

depression hits me in the morning... like when it gets light out.

I have a bad migraine

What if i have a brain anyuersym

My depression hits randomly.