Roll Call 125

Had a good hangout sesh with new friends. We walked up a hill looking over the town with guitars and a bong lol.. Nice day.

I want to be an artist and amateur anthropologist and start spray painting buildings at night.

I want people to see and feel my thoughts. I want them to react to it and talk amongst themselves about it while buying donuts at the coffee shop. They can be controlled and to better the world.

But to not know my name.

We all do this though. We change the world in our small ways. The butterfly effect. Karma.

Good morning. Slept well. Woke up at 5:30. Drinking coffee now.
Nothing going on today. Just some work. Shouldn’t be much. I don’t know what I’ll do after that. I’m kind of tired of taking naps. Guess we’ll see how I feel.
My husband came through for me so I have smoke to get me through. He also got me 2 bottles pf soda, 2 giant bags of m&ms, and cigarettes. I’m a lucky girl

Morning,

Just getting ready for my run today! 🏃

Hope everyone is ok!

Good morning/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

I am...okay. Last night after I posted here I decided to ask my wife if we could go to Sale so I could get some driving in as that calms me. But also to try and get some ideas and work things out logically. It took a lot of effort just to ask this. She wasn't feeling well herself (weaning off a medication under pdoc guidance), and said good luck trying to get anything useful out of her...

So yeah after that I want back to bed and crying my eyes out. She came in shortly later and managed to calm me down and apologised for how she acted. I just...I feel like I'm not getting what I need at the moment from my wife and partner and its just hurting a lot. I need to figure this out.

I slept all day yesterday

idk what I'm gonna do today

been up since 2am

ugh.

Feeling better. I asked my son if he still needed me and he said “absolutely I’d be sad, lost, and lonely without my partner in crime. I need you very very much”. Then he hugged me and told me he loved me.

I felt terrible last night when I went to bed. Like how I did in the morning. What the hell, meds, I thought we were cool. Hopefully it doesn’t happen again this morning.

just sum flowers....
hydrangea

Morning

Having coffee

Update: Feeling fine this morning. Don’t feel sick or erratic so I think we’re good. Here’s to that weird **** not happening again.

Thank you, Gretta. I did feel more agitated but the exhaustion is so bad. Maybe it's a result of this allergic reaction, which isn't going away. The doctor is supposed to see me today again.

Well, if I don't get myself out of here, I'll be here the rest of my life. I decided to wait another year to take care of my eyes etc. But at some point I want to try getting out of here.

Still itching as bad as Tuesday. I have huge welts all over from scratching. I wish they would do more for me here.

My friend said he'd come here tomorrow with another charger. I broke my headphones and now I need glue or tape. I was trying to plug them in under the AC and couldn't and then I couldn't get up. Two nurses got me up.

I hope we all will have a better day today.

I feel so out of it today. Like I’m in a dream world. Very strange. I don’t know if I’m tired or just weirded out.
I’m sitting here with both dogs on me. Cant do anything and can hardly breathe but they are so comfy I can’t disturb them.

So, I’ve applied for that supermarket job I mentioned a few days ago. Feels good to have applied for something. Hopefully I’ll hear back and at least get an interview.

Good luck, Loial 🍀

Hey guys. Just finished grocery shopping, waiting for the bus now. 98% of the stuff I got is fruits and vegetables and everything is healthy. I resisted all the cakes, pastries, candy bars, etc.

I'm feeling better today. I started using a self help guide PDF I found online. Thanks for your support everyone. I ended up leaving early and not going to class yesterday. I really needed some time to distress.

Its a self help guide for bulimia

I think they’ll always need you, you’re a wonderful mom. Though as they get older they might need you in a different way than when they were kids

Just got back from seeing my vocational counselor.

Turns out im not gonna goto the social skills training cuz its too far to drive there daily. But he is putting me in individual counseling once a week, outside of my clinic!!! Excited about that. As well as job coaching possibly. And other things related to employment.

And ill have to take out my piercings.

Sorry you didn’t feel well, glad you feel better today though. You did a really good job with eating healthy and stuff for quite a long time, I know you can do it again

My dad was supposed to come home at 3. Now he isnt til 5. Sucks.

good luck. interviews can be nerve wracking but every one is practice

I bombed a few but learned from it and I think I've gotten pretty good at interviews now

it used to be like my worst nightmare

role playing as practice helps too

Oh man I hate interviews. I’ve bombed a couple. This last time around though I was lucky because my old job laid me off they set me up with this job assistant place and they gave me good tips for interviewing which were super helpful.