Roll Call 125

Yes, some symptoms are overlapping between bipolar and C-PTSD like the difficulty in managing emotions and the hypersensitivity, also the negative self-concept (in bipolar during the depressive episode). My Pdoc didn’t diagnose me with C-PTSD before because I was ashamed to tell them about what happened to me, especially the sexual abuses because sex before marriage is a taboo topic here.

“C-PTSD results more from chronic repetitive stress from which there is little chance of escape. PTSD can result from single events, or short term exposure to extreme stress or trauma.

Therefore a soldier returning from intense battle may be likely to show PTSD symptoms, but a kidnapped prisoner of war who was held for several years may show additional symptoms of C-PTSD.

Similarly, a child who witnesses a friend's death in an accident may exhibit some symptoms of PTSD but a child who grows up in an abusive home may exhibit the additional C-PTSD characteristics.”

Taken from Out of the FOG website.

Sorry im a mess today.

Im stressed out. I probably shouldnt be. The bf says we flat out dont have the money. Yet im so desperate to get out of here. My mom, my dad, and all my friends are stressed out.

Ive been drinking too to ease the stress and anxiety or i would absolutely drive myself mad to no end. I just had a beer. Just one. I might have another one tho. Good thing i havent been getting into liquor.

I owe the bf his sanity back.

Should I even bother taking my meds if they’re not working

I was raped and sexually abused from probably 3 years old up until I was 7 years old. You shouldn't feel shame. I was lucky. I come from a colture that's a little more understanding and my family that I do keep contact with are sympathetic for the most part. You're not alone.

Thank you, Erti. Means a lot to me. Sorry for what you had been through

Yes, you don’t want to suffer from withdrawals. If they stopped working then I’d talk to the Pdoc and ask them to taper them while changing to something new. Have you been taking them regularly? I used to be on and off them, and after missed even only one dose it would take a while til they started working again for me.

Never apologize for feeling unwell, that’s what we’re here for

Ive been taking them regularly. I just saw my doctor last week I was doing great it’s just now I’m weird. If this keeps up I’ll have to go back to the doctor for sure.

Tempted not to take my meds but I know I should...

Thanks

I'm sorry for your situation too. Nothing will make it better but I hope you can find ways to cope and whenever you get to the us you can find support groups since it sounds like you can't find anything like that there.

Yes you should, hope you feel better soon

I think I have a form of PTSD from my bad trip.

I know.. I shouldn't have taken the shroom.. This is what I drew after ..

Hey looks like my notes before meds!

I took my meds. Washed them down with wine but they’re in me!

Hi all,

Just got back from work. I actually woke up early enough today to take a shower before work, a big achievement for me!

Good job for showering!

We should make a thread

Did you shower today?

Make it for us erti

I feel like a failure for starting drinking again.

I just told my sister.

No ones happy. But only 2 people didnt get angry with me. Im afraid the bf will threaten to leave me.

Took my lip piercings out. I have to since im gonna start my job soon. I didnt want to take them out the day before i started. It wouldve made me really sad. So im starting early so i can get over it and go through the stages of grief.

Good thing i did anyway. Theres holes in my lip.

I wonder if theres some way to hide my septum. Thats the one im really gonna be upset over.

My sis had some kind of retainer for that one....

No offense but he’s a drug user....I don’t think he has any place saying anything about your alcohol use....

He told me as long as it doesnt get out of hand he doesnt care. He said his ex drank all the time and it was out of hand and he doesnt want to date someone like that again.

But your right.

I drank the past week for different reasons. Each to soothe pain. As usual. Today it was because i was looking for apartments for us. I felt upset and played because in January he told me to wait til april, when he got his car. When i brought it up in april he told me his bff was moving in with us. I was upset. Because the decision was made without me. We had a long argument and he decided he was gonna change a bunch of stuff. Like slowing down on pot and calling me more often. He only does one thing right now. Its been 2 months.

I brought up moving again 2 days ago. Long story short, we had another argument today. He said he had second thoughts about moving in with me becUse i smother him he says. I felt like shyt about that. But he says the moving thing is the only thing we fight about. Besides me being negative all the time.

So i drank a beer.

Idk what im doing wrong anymore.

moving in is a big step, it can be very difficult to move back out....is it possible his family wouldn’t take him back once he moved out? That would make it a harder more permanent decision for him. I know you’ve decided he is your one but it’s possible he’s not there yet? How long have you guys been together now?

I honestly don't think AA works.