Roll Call 126!

No, i've been taking copious ammounts of Benadryl to force myself to sleep and the tremors stay. Hell, maybe the tremors are due to the toxicity of the level of Benadryl I needed to sedate me enough to sleep.

Just wondering.

Benadryl knocks out a lot for me but it makes me sleep. When i say alot i mean anxiety and my head going in circles.

Can't you take some Sudafed or nytquil for symptoms and to help you fall asleep?

I use to help me sleep, also with anxiety, but not tremors. The tremors im guessing is from the Seroquel. I've taken 120mgs of Geodon before and felt fine before. That's how much im on again, only difference is that im taking the benzo Restoril and 50mgs of Seroquel.

**** sleep. I'll never have a regular sleeping pattern.

It’s 11:30pm at night another long day I been up since 6am...gotta sleep peace yo!

Oh man on Canada day they had a big fireworks show at 11pm not far away it was so loud it woke me up and car alarms kept going off. I mean it’s pretty and all but damn, some of us are trying to sleep.

Good morning. Happy 4th!
Got up at 6 after going to bed at midnight. I’m sleepy. Drinking coffee and hanging with my dog.
Having a cook out today. Just us this year. Burgers, hot dogs, linguicia, chicken wings, salad and potato salad.
Nothing else going on today. We’ll go see fireworks tonight.
Hope you all have a great day.

Morning

Had coffee. Cant have too much.

Might set some fireworks off all day. Some baby fireworks they sell at the grocery store. Maybe ill find some fireworks stands to get some more small stuff.

Fireworks are illegal here but everyone still sets them off.
My neighbors are terrible. Every holiday at midnight they set off fireworks.

I’m so excited to go away. It’s been years. Too bad it’s at the end of summer. I don’t want to wish my summer away.
I’m also very excited to get a week off from work.
I just wish my husband was coming with us but someone needs to take care of the dogs.

Hmmm. If I cancel the condo and rent a hotel instead I can stay an extra night.

Got my meeting soon...(final absence review). My union rep rang me today and said it's highly likely that my employment will be terminated. If it does I'll get 13 weeks pay plus left over holiday pay which is better than nothing I suppose.

Good luck. I have my fingers crossed you don’t lose your job.

Went early morning shopping

Your union rep doesn’t sound encouraging at all. Is this the union rep where ya work or this the guy that over sees them? Union reps are suppose to be in meetings with you and your bosses to mediate and also be a witnesses to whatever they may say or do. Like they are suppose to advocate on your behalf instead of having your bosses belittle you about something that maybe is mental health related.

Do you have a charter of human rights where you are? Because that could be a form of discrimination because you have a disability such as mental illness. and if your mental illness requires certain things like hospital stays or mental health days or sleeping through the horns in your alarm clock, until after you sleep through your whole shift. None of this would be your fault of course. You would need a doctors letter stating your condition and you can do it after the meeting or file it for human rights charter for discrimination.

Of course I don’t know the whole story but it sounds like it was out of your control before you realized what happened.

What did ya get anything good?

I hope it goes your way. Rooting for you.

We’re having a BBQ too later on.

We are having burgers, sausages and lamb kebabs.

Perfect weather for it too. Lovely and hot out. Shall do my best to avoid getting sunburnt today.

The sun is out in full force already, I woke up 13mins ago. I am still tired maybe I will be able to go back to sleep and get more rest, who knows.

The food bank is open this week I am afraid of going there truly is going to be lots of people it’s a new month which means a hamper.

I have started to plan my 3 year cake. For the Wednesday 11 instead of my actual day which is the 12. Because my keyworker is on then and there are more staff around then. Who should I invite?

My sister isn’t even going to be around that day which is good, well I am still pissed about that southern Alberta trip.

I wish I had 20$ more I want to get 15x the points at shoppers drug mart for PCO points i could really use them to be honest I think I would just go in there a buy a tonne load of paper products, chips and drinks(like pop or juice). It would be a honest 40$ I bet ya.

I'm super tired this morning. Falling asleep in my chair and such. Haven't heard from my friend.

I’m already bored. I’m out of weed and I can’t call for at least an hour. I borrowed money off my husband because I’m broke. Payday can’t come fast enough. Friday I hope but with the holiday it may be Monday.
Well we’ve reached that age. My son is going to an all day party and skipping fireworks with us . He’ll have a great view since the house it right on the harbor. I just hope there’s no drinking.
I could go for a margarita. I should have bought the supplies.

A margarita sounds so good, Valley! Wish I could have one too.

So I did get a fitness tracker in the end. I got the Garmin Forerunner 35. Much cheaper than the Fitbit Versa.

So far I’m loving it.

Tracks my steps, HR, any exercise in more detail, calories and sleep. Can connect the app to MyFitnessPal if I want too but I don’t currently use that. Also has notifications from my phone... so far I’ve got ones for phone calls, texts, emails and messenger.

Finally went grocery shopping. Waiting for the bus now.

Got to do laundry today. Have the whole day to myself.

4 more English classes then I'm off from July 17th till September 4th when the fall semester starts!