Roll Call 126!

yeah I'm just worried with the current trump administration. I know they are cracking down on benefits and medicare

Good morning/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

I'm okay. Maybe a little sleepy right now. My roommate left for Oulu for a couple weeks so its just my wife and I at home now. Otherwise not much going on. Need to go to the store. May practice piano and if my voice feels up to it, vocals.


What's everyone up to today?

She's still here. Maybe there was a glitch in their plans. o.o

My clinic called back, they said I'll get assigned a clinician by Friday or Monday!

I'm going to Albany on Monday to the NY State Museum. Nervous as it's my first trip to Albany alone but very excited too!

Today well I go see my holistic practitioner. I had a friend out of the blue last night tell me that she was coming down to the coast today. Unfortunately she was dissatisfied with my schedule I mean Tuesday and Thursday during every 2 weeks is really busy back to back appointments. I wish she was coming down on Thursday I would have money i get a GST check for July and Friday I can cancel. Ugh July looks to be very busy and hot outside.

My friend is having an unpleasant time here. I wish I could make things better somehow.

My left eye is getting cloudier by the day. I hope the surgery will help.

I have that meeting tomorrow afternoon with the psychiatrist and I don’t know what to say. I can’t put feeling into words. I just don’t know.

Morning

I missed another appt

Fck

My sleep schedule is all messed up severely.

I'm hungry but don't have any change on me. I bought something from the store to eat but forgot to bring a fork and the school cafe charges for utensils if you didn't buy anything there. Guess I'll be eating it for dinner when I go home tonight

I guess I should think this out.

I’m feeling depressed last little while. I was feeling hyper aware and obsessive in previous weeks which led me to be iffy about taking my meds. Side effects made it worse. Now I feel depressed, slightly self destructive, and a bit of delusional thoughts pressing in.

I went from up up to down down. I don’t feel stable. I was feeling stable but then it all started going off I don’t know what triggered it.

Wasn't able to get my grocery shopping done today.

Going tomorrow, getting hot dogs and potato salad to celebrate 4th of July. Thursday I've got school again. Going shopping again Friday then to the cemetery to take pics. Going out to eat with my friend on Saturday for his birthday. Church on Sunday, then my Albany trip on Monday.

Taking a couple hour break from work.
I don’t have anything to do I just don’t feel like working. I’ll go back later.
Both of my kids are out *sigh*. I hate that.
I’m getting my CT scan tonight at 6. They had a cancellation. I can’t have anything to drink after 2. I could die it’s so hot.

Nevermind, the museums closed on Mondays. I'll have to plan another day

From my perspective, I would look over your past posts because you express your feelings well in them. There’s too many to read them all in an appt, but you could summarise how quickly & frequently your mood changes, the impulsive thoughts and behaviours, the time you drank hand sanitiser etc etc.

Also, it seems to me that you were doing fairly well, at least as far as I could tell from your posts, until your GP suggested dropping you from monthly appts to 3 monthly. I’m wondering if that triggered you destabilising because you were, understandably, worried about losing your major support??

Wishing you all the best with your appt. let us know how it goes

*Willow*

What an awful day...

I woke up late and missed my appt.

Then on top of that my dad is drunk and its 100 out. Now its my job to make sure he doesnt go outside cuz he will have another heat stroke. If he falls im gonna have to call 911 cuz i wont be able to pick him up.

Sorry about the heat everyone. It’s been hotter than usual here too but not as bad as you guys place.

I was half way updating my laptop then the power went out. Boo.

I'm at my apartment. My friend went out for food. Looking at some of my beautiful stuff and putting it in a huge pill bottle to bring them to the nursing home.

Luckily the rats did less damage in my bedroom. And I got up the stairs!!!!! Have some tiz and atavan, wondering if I can sneak it in. If I'm caught they might kick me out. Actually I wouldn't mind that too much.

Glad u got into your apt

I'm really comfortable here. I wish my TV was working. I actually want to get put of the nursing home even more now.

Out.....

Omg I’m so thirsty. There is no way I’m making it until 6 without a drink. It’s 95 damn degrees.

I'm struggling in a major way with obsessive thinking

it's driving me absolutely nuts

OMG!!!!!!! England won on penalties!!!!

My friend's mood plunged. He went away feeling down and overwhelmed and pissy. I always feel like it's my fault, but it probably isn't.