Roll Call 127

The bf is watching the dvrd version of this now...he is soooo ticked and thinks Brazil played better, maybe they did but Belgium still won.....

How are you sp? Youve been really wrapped up in the world cup stuff.

20 min til med time

Yeah well the bf told me like sometime within the first month of meeting me that World Cup was his thing, but luckily it’s only every four years, still it lasts a month. It’s not too bad though...but still it’s not like he watches one team, it’s all.

First q......I’m ok the bf has been having ibs issues and I was at his place because he didn’t feel well enough to drive me home all week. So it was actually pretty nice, saw some fireworks but dashed before the finale to miss the traffic....it’s an old people thing.....we went out to the arboretum which was really nice until he got dizzy due to the heat and his sickness and I had to get the car for him. I ve never driven his car before and the steering was totally different like my car steering wheel I don’t think moves more than half way when I’m backing out of a space and his car I swear went around like three times. So weird and I’m just not much of a driver. Luckily he was safe to drive home....so we decided I’ll have to try driving his car in case there is an emergency or anything....fun right? I remember when driving used to be great but Chicago, even the burbs are just so busy.

So yeah we rented a bunch of movies and stayed in the ac for the most part. We saw game night, tomb raider and paddington 2 But we never got to see jurrasic world in the theatre which was the original plan.

Sounds like yall had fun. Thats good.

Its always good to learn to drive someones car. Just in case they need you to drive. My dad doesnt like driving my car but i make him. Likewise he has taught me to drive stick and drive his truck and we also have a second automatic too. So thats important!

I get what u mean by going home early to miss traffic. I must be old cuz im home by 4 most days, if i drive far like to my moms house, to miss traffic.

Im gaining more weight despite walking. Its upsetting to me. But i guess im not working hard enough. Im a few pounds away from 200.

A mix of it can be your age... Now that you are getting older it's much harder to lose weight.

I use to love playing video games so much. I remember the few days I took off every once in awhile just so I could play a new game so I could totally immerse myself. Games were so magical when I was in my twenties. Maybe you two could play a game together? Or maybe even play a game over the internet together. Something like a deathmatch with Farcry 5 or something. I only know of that game because a coworker talked about it today, but I played farcry 1 and two so it's probably a solid game.

I really think you'd like The Longest Journey. The graphics are piss poor but the world is amazing. Has a strong female lead character. It's very epic in that its about balancing a world of magic with a world of science and industry. I started to describe it more but I don't want to give away the entire story. I will say that its in my top 3 games I ever played. Lead character is a strong female artistic type like you!

Yes, i thought about that too. Im sure that definitely factors into it. Im almost 30.

It just sucks. Im afraid to tell my mom cuz my mom always tells me im gonna get diabetes and die. And shes pretty thin. She works out 3 hours a day. But shes not exactly healthy.

I cant help but think my meds are the worst culprit tho. Despite me being on haldol which is a tranquilizer i still get up most mornings and walk til im sore and exhausted. But im still tired from my meds.

The other bad culprit is my dad. He constantly buys junk. We have corn dogs, cookies, ice cream, popcorn, etc etc etc. He tells me just to not eat them but we dont have many other healthy food or ingredients and i dont have much money to buy food every week. Im the type of person if its in the house ill most likely eat it. I need to away from that stuff.

Im almost 200 pounds and the gynecologist told me my cholesterol is bad. I could NEVER tell my mom. She will never let me hear the end of it. Ever. The fact that im fat now she doesnt let me hear the end of it.

The bf doesnt want me to call myself fat. But i have no self esteem looking like this.

Im done eating for the night. I didnt eat healthy but i ate far less than usual.

If i have anything else its gonna be an apple or banana.

Heat records have been breaking here in michigan. 7 highways buckled due to the 90f temp. That plus the humidity of living near the great lakes. (we have great lakes because of traveling glaciers that plotted and formed them.) Next week is going to suuuuuuuuuuuuuck. Ill be working at least 32 hours outside.

HAHAHAHA Sounds like a date! Man if one of my girls told me that hahaha it would be reason to celebrate. I dated one curious girl who I met in an ethics class. She was a mathematician. She would bring beer (new castle) and her playstation over to my apartment and we'd rock out to games and drinking a little (I didn't need to drink in the old days because you drink to feel, and I naturally felt everything then), and we'd …

She just liked an event bc she's interested in it. It was salsa dancing. I was thinking of asking her to be her date. I can't salsa technically, but I can nail any dance in a couple minutes. I think it's because soccer has helped my footwork.

I would start bringing a charger at least in your car.

Im starting to feel anxiety

I had bibimbap for lunch today at a Korean place that also has sushi. We went there all week and the waitress looked at my co worker and I and introduced herself to us and asked our names. She said hi to my coworker first which made me smile. It is so funny to here my coworker talk about how lonely he is only to have two dates in a single weekend. lol

He started to talk about our female coworker who is new and I told him we shouldn't talk about her like that, that me and the older guys have an unsaid rule to never go down that road even chatting about her like that. He kind of looked at me like, "ease up man" but she's married and our co worker.

I want to **** someone

When I wake up it's just a battle talking to myself wether how many times should I hit the snooze button.

Meh, just think, now you don't have to watch an elephant ****.

Meh elephants get more than I do lol.

Hope everyone had a good day!

Took all my meds. Ready to sleep. But im gonna have to wait til my meds kick in.

My bf helped de-escalate my anxiety.

Damn gurl you go to bed early.

Not really anymore lately. I lay in bed at 10. And toss and turn for an hour.

I normally sleep when my body tells me to which I am up at all hours despite being on 30mg of Haldol.

Damn. For the longest time 30mg haldol knocked me out for 18 hours a day

Call me crazy but i feel like something is gonna happen tomorrow bad

What i mean is, if my mom brings up my weight at the restaurant tomorrow i know my bf is gonna tell her to stop and its only gonna escalate.