Roll Call 142!

They’re saying 8 here but the grocery store is packed like the world is ending.

I hope your appointment goes well JunkDNA

Donut Friday at work today! Always starts the day off fun. Bought tickets to the MET Opera event at Cinemark for Feb. 2nd. They are playing Carmen. Kit

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Coloring page

I want these limited edition oreos so much, they look amazing!

Oreo The Most Stuf Cookies Are Here And Full Of Cream Filling

Looks pretty!

They do indeed look amazing!

Oh wow. That could derail my new diet lol.

I’m looking for these

I'm proud of myself. Voices were bothering me earlier and I was able to disengage from them and get myself to sit down and focus on something else (playing Animal Crossing )

The invega has numbed my brain

Sick of this

I will stop it and be fine!

I'm going to ask my psychiatrist to lower the injection to 100mg

Hmmm...interesting.
Made banana oat muffins with nut flour. It’s umm...interesting.

I’m considering making banana bread tomorrow I’ve got two overripe bananas 🍌🍌

I phoned my therapist to make an appointment with my psychiatrist to lower the injection but she said to ask my doctor first.

I just want to focus and not be numb braineddd

Stressed out cuz I'm sedated

But maybe I'm fine although I'm paranoid about not doing the right thing

Unfair things

After work I'm going to go buy lottery tickets.

So much pain

Well I did my good deed for today. I can't brag about it though. Private matter. Work was easy. This week I demolished a basement, stripping everything down from it, taking walls down, taking lenolium floor off, and sprayed the ceiling black so the wires, wood, and pipes kind of disappear. Im glad my boss found something for us to do. that was really nice of him to have us work on his house even though he couldn't find work for us. Also, I got a compliment from a builder about my mud job. I tapped and mudded to rooms that were just freshly drywalled. He has high standards so that felt really good. Even my coworker gave me a pat on the back.

Going to hang out with a friend tomorrow

I did it. I finally posted about the mechanisms in a schizophrenic delusion. That was the hardest post I've done to date. It took me a month of editing to finally say it's good enough.

Is all the editing you do normal? It just seems like a lot. Everytime u post youre editing *

This is by no means an insult. Im just confused on how much i shouldve edited my book.

Also what doesn't help is that I can only do deep reading instead of fluid reading, so it takes me a long time to read most of the time.

Two phones. No sim cards. One phone on airplane mode. Go around the city, google still knows when you're getting out of your car. Airplane mode phone leaks more data.. a few 100kb more.. few hundred kb is all they need..

Paranoia doesn't exist anymoar!

I just cried big time

Im so scared i will lose my dad and then the bf one day, and have to live with my mom for the rest of my life.

My wife has been having a cascade of medical problems. I've had a huge increase in voices and hallucinations, but i think its still manageable because no one has commented on it. And i can still generally figure out that on one else heard/saw that.
She is having a hard time recovering from gastric pacemaker surgery, and now scheduled for an eye surgery on 2/5, while she does more laser treatments on her "good" eye. I also struggled to get her medical supplies set up with insurance changes as of 1/1, but i think they are finally sorted If there's a delivery on our porch Mon morning.

I don't often feel i have anything useful to say, so i don't post, but i do read, and I'm always hoping the best for everyone here.