Roll Call 145

lol my dogs are hyper as **** when i'm home and no one else is. i'll be sitting on the chair and they'd be under my legs and ****. hell my pitbull even climbs up on the ottoman. here he is lol...

I seem to be on imaginary vacations again (urg)

first thought this morning was one of sadness and a lot of emotion- not to mention hurrying around trying to get ready for a flight

(you know, the flight I didn't even need to catch in the first place)

I don't know why I do this

that aside I just feel blah

not like today's especially good for anything, well that's how I see it

Good morning. Class, vyvanse, energy drink

morning Desoxyn

hope you have a good day

Thanks. I woke up late today but managed to get myself to class. I'll have to focus for the next hour and a half but I feel tired..

Then my day will be studying to get an assignment done so I can maybe go skiing on wednesday. It's snowing here but wet when hits the ground so new snow will be on the mountain =]

I feel yucky today.

Trying to study and stay calm. The usual. Thankful my experimental psych test isn't till late April... gives me ample time to study for it, and I know I'll need to study a lot.

Woke up at noon today, I really need to get my sleeping schedule in order

Just took a nap, it felt wonderful!

I’m in the same position. I’ve been getting sleep around 3-4am and getting up at midday or later.

I went to bed at 1am last night but didn’t fall asleep until 4am. My body is fighting me on this one...

I see my PDoc tomorrow. I have to decide if increasing the AP was enough or if I need to add another AD. Sigh. Kit

Tried the orange dream. It tastes musty. Maybe it will be better in a week or two. We ordered/were sent a 30ml of Pinkle Twinkle, which I'll have to look up. I never heard of it.

So that bas-turd cleaner didn't just shake up my bedside locked drawer, but managed to steal my quarters too. I had about 9 or 10 or more. In the locked drawer. I'm going to have to take my list to the social worker. I can't live like this, with some POS scaring me and wondering what I'll 'lose' next. This place has trouble hanging on to good employees, but that is a bad employee. And he's probably doing the same thing to other people here. It would be great to get some video of him actually in the act of stealing/tampering. I hate the POS.

Sorry @Angelique67 I would definitely talk to your social worker. You shouldn't have to be scared where you live and having stuff stolen from you. HUGS Kit

Thanks, Kit. I am so afraid of having to talk to the social worker. She's incredibly nice but I'm embarrassed to have this problem.

I feel slightly better but lacking motivation. I just want to sleep.

Counselor is pretty cool

Lol she did say hermes saying I can fly was weird for her but not for me.

lol she was like maybe hermes met that when he said i can fly that he means emotion some **** like that.

This is a really good little book. It has a lot of science and is written in a fun way.

I learned something new, that going over your schedule in your head step by step (even if it has nothing to do with your anxiety) for example in your head is a way to detach from negative emotions. I do this all the time. I didn't know it was actually a thing, when I'm taking walks for example I go over what I'm doing for the day or the week in my head to keep my mind from wandering to things that cause anxiety

i still want to jump out my window and fly tho

That’s terrible Angelique.
Definitely report him. He probably steals and intimidated anyone he thinks he can get away with it towards.

Dustin never really spends time with me.

He goes to work, gets home, and almost immediately smokes and plays video games. Theres times when he will lay down and talk to me, but theres never any quality time spent together. He never wants to do anything. Ever. Last night i asked him to take a pic with me and he said lets do it when im sober. But hes never sober?

Cleaned the apartment and made some cookies

I’m going to lower myself back to only 100mg of seroquel. 150mg is just making me too sleepy. Doc said it was okay if I got too sleepy to go back down.

My mind is busy but also tired.

I take 300mgs of Seroquel and 160mgs of Geodon and it doesn't come close to knocking me out to sleep. I've had to take Benadryl once again to help me sleep. I can't up the Geodon or Seroquel either because im already getting heart palpitations when I lay down to sleep.

When is your book being released on amazon? And how much?

I've heard that lower doses are more sedating

I take 400mg, it definitely makes me tired and I sleep well most of the time

When I was on 200mg though it made me feel drunk