Roll Call 145

My dad says, sleep is the cousin of death!

I'm going to go take a walk and listen to alex jones.. probably isn't the best thing for me.. but he's entertaining..

It might make me go insane lol

Hypomanic.. light headed from a cigarette while seroquel kicking in.. time to sleep

welp my sister called me. she's pregnant with my dad's bestfriends baby.

Uhhh...
That doesn’t sound good.
My dad would have kicked some serious *** if I slept with one of his friends.
How old is she?

she's 27 and my dad's friend is in his 50's so old enough to be her dad. we grew up calling him uncle jeff.

Oh man...that is so wrong.
No offense but he’s got the makings of a predator.

yeah... my dad knows but he'll do nothing about it and my stepmom knows but she basically said "she's an adult there's not much i can do.'

I told my mom about it and she said "at least she know's that they'll be taken care of"

so it's pretty much being downplayed but i kinda see it as ****ed up...

i'm talking to Findingreason about the severe abuse i went through. open up to her about my ****ed up mind and she didn't judge me... i love you Findingreason... i really do. <3

You’re welcome that’s what I’m here for. <3

yeah i straight up ask my sister if he was a pedophile... she was like "oh no no not at all"... she has an 8 year old daughter so i worry.

I'm here for you too!

Thank you, Erti.

yeah my sisters told me she's been sexually abuse before because my dad and stepmom let random men stay at their house in her room with her. i would think she'd have some sense in her head about that. but who knows.

I only took 50mg seroquel last night instead of 100mg because I wanted to be less drowsy. I’m less drowsy but my mind is wandering like there’s delusional thoughts almost on the horizon. Almost getting messages in music! Can’t win.

Good morning, happy Spring!

i wanna open up more about my past...

Morning/afternoon. Found these in the mail today

the tornado sirens are going off and i don't know why.

Anything going on in the weather? Or are they testing them since it's spring now/tornado season

no it's nice out... i looked it up and they're having a statewide tornado drill... instead of 12pm they're going off at 9:50am

Happy Spring!
One of my work programs is down so I can’t work and I have a lot to do before tomorrow. Blah. So irritating.
Guess I will take this opportunity to nap lol. I feel awful today. My stomachs been off a couple days and I have been having some pretty serious back pain. It’s weird. Not like the ruptured disks I have. More like “back labor”. Dunno
Waiting for the hospital to call with my surgery time.
I had to change all my bedding, then I have to shower with special soap tonight and again tomorrow morning. For my friggin wrist! Seems over the top. But I’d like to avoid MRSA so I’ll be a good patient.
Yeah...going to try to sleep. I feel terrible all of a sudden.

I took the 100mg. Killed my manias lol..

I should get a pill cutter to split my seroquel sometimes idk

I brought ativan and atenolol in my pocket with me to the ski hill in case of a panic attack. I took 200mg caffeine cuz the vyvanse barely woke me up. I was dead tired this morning and didnt want to go but I'm happy my mom forced me to wake up.

It's a sunny day today again =] I think this will be a good summer.. I'm afraid though because I dont have friends anymore so I'll be kinda of alone in the summer

Probably not the best idea if it’s an XR. And against doctor’s orders! I’m just reckless. Originally I was on only 50mg but doc put me on 100mg until spring because SAD.

So don’t do as I do lmao.

Hi everybody! What's everyone up to today? HUGS Kit