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#276
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no but i do see a counselor on tuesday. not sure when i see the pdoc.
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
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#277
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Okay, told him he pisses me off, he’s going there now.
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![]() Erti, Findingreason, Loial, SlumberKitty
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#278
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hahaha that's hilarious. sometimes you gotta push the issue.
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#279
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Awww poor kitty! Glad you noticed the signs and brought her in. FWIW if she won’t eat that food I’d try talking to the vet about a RAW diet. I am admittedly a fan of RAW but I won’t bore you with that. Look it up and if you feel comfortable talk to the vet.
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#280
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Well I survived and my nerve is intact.
![]() She said it was really wrapped up and around the nerve which is why it was bothering me. Then she said I’d it just kept going...and would likely be one of the 20% that grow back. Of course that is my luck ![]() I didn’t get sick! They gave me propofol, some sort of block, and fentanyl. But I told them how sick I get so they gave me a Scop patch and ran anti nausea meds in my iv. Woke up feeling great! Just in desperate need of coffee which the lovely nurse brewed for me. So I’m good. Splinted for the next 2 weeks then just tightly wrapped for a few weeks. ![]()
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![]() Anonymous40796, Erti, falcon09, Findingreason, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Erti, falcon09, Findingreason, Loial, Sometimes psychotic
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#281
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Thanks ofthevalley!
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#282
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I’m sorry to hear that
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#283
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I got a pell grant for school but i still had to take out a loan. Sucks.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Anonymous40796, Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#284
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spirits are wanting to see blood.
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![]() 12AM, Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
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#285
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I want to go to sleep. 2 and a half hours and I can take my meds and go to bed
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() 12AM, Sometimes psychotic
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#286
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Saw my doctor. I was honest. Told him about my obsessive thoughts I was having. Was honest. I told him I was embarrassed but glad I didn’t do anything crazy. He says it sounds like I was kind of delusional with it.
I also opened up more. I admitted I’ve been giving into eating disorder thoughts. I’m trying to get better. Most of all I opened up about my OCD patterns. Intrusive thoughts, rituals. He says that it does sound like I have OCD. But there’s not much by way of treatment options with being psychotic and bipolar. He was going to mention it to the psychiatrist though see what she says. Might mix up my meds. Don’t know yet we’ll see. It doesn’t hugely impede my life. It’s not too out of control. But for now he was worried about my obsessive thinking. Delusional and tied into OCD as well probably. He upped my seroquel to 150mg. Said if I get too sleepy on it to lower it back to 100mg. If I get obsessive and that again to come back sooner than a month. So hopefully I don’t have to cave and come back sooner than a month. I need a ride there so it’s embarrassing to have to explain why I would need an extra appointment. I’m not 100% honest with everyone. |
![]() 12AM, Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#287
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I slept in and missed an assignment. Lost marks on my course. I think it was because of the seroquel because I felt good last night. I don't know what is making me so tired. My mom and dad tried to wake me up but I got mad at them.
Took my injection today. I told the pharmacist to call my psychiatrist about me being so tired because my therapist won't contact my psychiatrist because I wanted to lower my injection. The drunk soldiers are still stuck in my head like how I'm obsessive about my heart. I talked with my dad last night at the bar about things that happened in the past. I believe my schizophrenia is purely environmental and not genetic.. although I'll see what my 23andme says in a few weeks.. A person who thinks too much and obsessively, has nothing to think about except thoughts, so, he loses touch with reality.. and lives in a world of illusions.. What is reality? Reality is.. *Chinese gong sound* |
![]() 12AM, Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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#288
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Ahh my poor kid.
He went riding and then stopped at the school to play basketball. Apparently a couple drunk guys pulled up and ****ing RAN OVER his bike. Then tried taking off. Of course being an invincible 16 yr old he chased them and the cops happened by and saw. Police chase ensued...2 drunks under arrest. But my kids still out a bike. This isn’t your average bike either. It’s semi custom and my son machined most of his own parts. It’s like upwards of a grand to replace. ****ing sucks. Poor kid ![]()
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![]() 12AM, Blue_Bird, Findingreason, Loial, SlumberKitty
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#289
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![]() 12AM, Blue_Bird, Findingreason, SlumberKitty
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#290
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Omg...he was ON the bike and jumped off just as they hit.
**** my kid could have been killed.
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![]() 12AM, Anonymous40796, Blue_Bird, Findingreason, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#291
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Yikes! Glad she wasn’t hurt. Yeah like we told my son if the guy has insurance he might get $$ back but don’t count on it. People are assholes anyway
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#292
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Spend your days full of emptiness
Spend your years full of loneliness Wasting love, in a desperate caress Rolling shadows of nights That was the song my step dad always played in the truck.
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The soldiers said good things. They are fighting for people like me. A zombie with a bunk bed and I sleep on the bottom. Nothing makes sense. It's all in my world. My world is pictures of the past, emptiness, loneliness. Not caring about me but wanting to make me a killing machine for the government. What's wrong with me? Everything that has happened. Everything that I let happen. I didn't stand up for myself. I didn't talk to anyone in high school because I was too ****ed up and depressed at what has happened. Now I try to piece myself together again. The soldiers don't understand that it can't happen overnight. |
#293
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Omg I feel so depressed. I went to sleep again. I don't want to do anything. It's going to get dark.
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#294
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How do I get rid of this depression immediately? Ketamine? It's killing me. But what? I have to feel it? What will I learn from being sad when I can't do the things I want? Demons..
This feeling is so painful I want to cry |
![]() 12AM, Findingreason, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#295
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I wonder if being admitted to the hospital will help
But I can get help here where I live I guess. Because I don't want to give up so easily. I'm in a good place. But I'm scared of things that are happening. I have no confidence in my words or myself. |
#296
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I'm fine. I just don't know what to do currently and I'm scared.
I could meditate. Something.. I just don't like to be put down.. because I get sucked into it like I'm being helped. The only people that want to lift me up have either been where I am or they want something from me. |
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#297
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Good morning
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#298
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good morning to you
good morning to you good morning goood morning good morning to you |
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
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#299
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Morning. Got up at midnight. Waited around until 1:30 and woke my hubby up to open my meds. Took a pill and fell asleep on the couch a couple hours. Thank god I have the day off so I can go back to sleep. I’m exhausted and in a good deal of pain. It’s nerve pain from her messing with it. Shoots up my arm. Another hour and a half and I can dose myself up and sleep again.
Other than that I have nothing to do. Don’t even plan on getting dressed
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#300
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I’m gonna have to take a rain check on all that gang ****, I can’t find my heelys.
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