Roll Call 145

I'm getting frustrated with only being able to sleep 3 to 4 hours the past few nights

Omg i went to this cbd store in town and the lady kept asking if i wanted to try some and i ended up trying like a gummy and 2 tinctures. And then i got nervous and walked out stumbling like i was high.

Im never going back. I embarrassed myself. Lol.

Omg im so embarrassed!!!

yeah i get ssi

Yea i have ssdi under disabled adult child. $1092

Omg that lady gave me cbd and i feel so slow right now. Lol. Idk if its me being nervous or what.

I know its weird but i dont like to try cbd in public for this reason. Its more of a sleep aid for me.

Woohoo. It’s 60 and I’m eating my first sundae of the season. Yum
Did the dreaded grocery shopping already too. Drove my son 30 minutes away to ride and 2 hrs later he text me begging to be picked up. He’s not feeling very well again. So I had just gotten home and turned around and went back to get him.
Now I’m in for the day. Everyone is home hanging out. It’s weird. Usually everyone is off on the weekends.

Wow, that is crazy.

No, you really shouldn't. I was nocturnal half of my life and it was sheer luck that I survived walking around deserted streets at 2 or 3 am. Don't tempt fate.

As we get closer to the summer solstice the sun begins to rise before 5am and that is so cool.

I want to go to sleep but I'm waiting for a delivery

I talked to the postman about the delivery of my package. He doesnt know. He opened up all the parcel lockers. It was hard to talk to him because he is deaf. Idk what to do. So i emailed the company. I really hope i dont have to pay again. It was 80 dollars for all those vitamins.

Wow. I just got hit upside the head with the sleepy stick lol. Don’t really have anything to do so a nap wouldn’t be bad.
My tax refund is in! Time for kid spring/summer shopping.
My son is getting his wisdom teeth out on the 11th. Even with insurance it’s going to cost just over $650. Ugh. So sick of medical bills.
Then in May it’ll be time to pony up for his license and car insurance. I feel queasy already
Freaking hate money.

I just psych myself out far too much. I was so nervous about going back to my apartment and being alone but I'm fine now that I'm actually here and getting back into my routine.

Here’s mine

Holy ****.

Got my SSI early, paid all my bills and it looks like I'm gonna have over one hundred dollars leftover!

This never happens, I'm very happy

Waiting for my pizza. Hope they hurry. I’m hungry.

I never feel hungry I just eat when I'm bored

I feel super good today. Been feeling really good since last night. No panic attack either so didnt take any benzo. I have a lot of benzos..

I've been taking my vyvanse as prescribed for weeks! How is that possible? It is possible to not be addicted after stim abuse. I am proof of it.

Angelica.. I was craving tobacco and drinking coffee so I bought tobacco and coffee flavoured nicotine e-juice =] One e-juice is 25mg nicotine. I'm going to use that for when I need a quick hit while resting at the restaurant on the ski hill.

I cant drink ANY alcohol or I get a panic attack.. so I've been dry for a while now..

I feel good and sane zero paranoia less numb

I'm starting to kinda feel bad again. All afternoon I was good but now im kinda spiraling.

I always do it at night for some reason

I feel better as the day goes on. I usually feel numb and irritated in the morning. Emotionless.

I was on my lunch break when I wrote my last post. Now I kinda feel like crap. But w/e. I keep going.

today in the UK it's mothers day.

I don't have a mother, (or a mother that wants anything to do with me), so today's hard

made slightly easier though by the fact that comercials for it arn't everywhere like most years. just sucks that in sted of going out with my mother like most individuals, I'm staying in doing **** all.

yesterday I had a panic attack because I only had 5 peaces of chicken for dinner (all that was in the house), and I can't cope with odd numbers

I also really dislike my new body spray, the smell of it does not apeal (does not smell that womanlike)

I used to get like that by the evenings and at night. I would do good all day then start getting very agitated and anxious, upset.

Started drawing an animal crossing character. And working on a coloring sheet of a deer