Roll Call 145

Oh no, I thought you were eating well.

I hope the anxiety goes away soon!

I just find myself looking more forward to bed every day. My life is just boring

I hope it clears up soon, Kit!

How have you been doing Angelique?

Watching The Lion, the witch and the Wardrobe (Chronicles of Narnia). It's so great. I finished all the books recently so I'm watching the movies now

I don't know. I think I'm in a low level depression. I'm sleeping so late lately. I am tired of the cold days, but I'm not looking forward to the hot summer. Just feeling defeated mainly. Thanks for asking.

I hope you feel better

I'm not looking forward to the hot summer either

Think I may have mold or at least some stains in my carpet. Scrubbed it with dish soap and now im leaving it to dry and then I'll scrub it

Im so sorry falcon

I went to sleep at 10:30pm and woke up at 1:30pm!

It's ok, the stains came up with dish soap and some water so I think I'll be fine.

I slept 14 hours last night and thought that was impressive lol

You must have really been tired!

Well ive been sleeping that long for a long time now

For this past month or two ive slept like 12/13 hours at night. I know that's not healthy but im not sure how to stop it.

Having a lot of anxiety

I'm gonna take a shower then color and see if that helps

I feel sick through my whole body. I took Valium. It helped a little. I think it's panic. I can't kick it and it won't stop. Thankfully only one flashback today. I was angry earlier at my father for reasons I'll explain later. Bad stuff. I can't distract myself easily. Dissociation keeps happening. I thought it was Friday and 5 days since I talked to my partner. It was only 2. I couldn't get the disorientation to stop. The day has passed by in both a split second and an eternity. I almost don't believe the clock or know if the time is accurate. It's a deception.

I keep sleeping only 5-6 hours a night. This is significantly less than my usual. I'm either tired midday or hyperaroused and alert and overwhelmed. It's distressing. Dissociating part of the time too.

I slept 3 hours in the afternoon cuz I needed to sleep. I already slept 11 hours last night. I took a 20mg Adderall but it didn't help. I was supposed to study and hand in an assignment but had to hand it in unfinished. I only did a few questions and the questions suck. They are barely even related to what I'm studying about.

I'm pissed off. I feel like giving up on school but then what will I do? I can't focus and have zero motivation. I feel depressed about this.

Everything is going downhill for me in relation to what the universe is doing to me. I'm nothing. I can't escape this hell because I don't know how.

Today's the best ive felt in a long time. I've been going on lots of walks and enjoying the pretty weather.

I think the haldol finally kicked in because I have no hallucinations or delusional thinking!

Cleaned up the apartment. Have a wax caramel vanilla scented wax tart melting,

I'm a wax tart

Hey! Another 8 hr work day. I’m so tired of being on my computer. C’mon Friday.
I’m just hanging out before bed. Very tired. I didn’t get much sleep in today. Still not feeling great.
Going to go raid the cabinets for junk food. I think I’m out of cookies though. Bummer.