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I think I remember watching that show lol

Oh cool! And they all did artwork on their faces and hair. Lol. I loved that show.

I was on 40mg of haldol a day and i can understand wanting to get off it. Have you tried Geodon... it had suppressed my hunger and even made me lose 15 pounds in a month. however... spirits and demons and gods have been coming more recently and i've been manic for a month now because of the paxil... i hate meds. but i take them because my family will get on me about it. so will my friends.

I can see why you don't want to stay a night with your mom... can your sister come to you? maybe that's a better option? It's hard to say but honestly i think your mom is a total ***** but i know you love her though and i understand you when it comes to dysfunctional family... not so much dysfunctional for you but kinda is with your mom...

lol being drunk on haldol can make your get drunk faster.. maybe avoid alcohol while you're on anti psychotics. idk it's your life... do what you want. i stopped drinking and smoking pot because of my meds but honestly pot helps me but my mom told me to not smoke it because of my meds and interactions with my meds. i rather just stop my meds and smoke pot... but i'd probably lose my disability. haha..

Thank you for replying.

My sister cant come to me. I wish she could. Shes actually in town for business and her and my mom invited me to goto my moms to see her but her schedule is so packed. So i would have to go around my SISTERS schedule and it just wouldnt work with all i have going on and need to do. Itd probably work if i lived closer. They are basically wanting me to come around 5pm. So i would only see her a few hours before i need to take my meds and would eventually sleep. They have to be somewhere at 7 in the morning tomorrow. It makes no sense to drive almost 4 hours or less roundtrip for a few hours to see her.

I think i tried geodon and it didnt do anything but that was years ago. Im considering try that again or something equivalent because i dont deal with psychosis that much anymore. At least i think i dont. I havent been under huge pressure lately until recently.

I need to cut back my drinking to two 12ounce beers. I been drinking two 24 and 32 ounces.

that's lame... i know how family can be and if they really wanted to see you they would work around your schedule but i can understand not having time... i can understand not wanting to drive 4 hours there... my dad use to live 1 1/2 away too out in the boonies... it was hard seeing him and would rarely go there. now he lives in grove city ohio like me and he never sees me. i went over there a couple weeks ago and i had to leave early because my stepmom was mad at my sister and was being a smart *** to me. I've sent her a message on facebook but she's ignoring me... when my mom came to pick me up she acted nicer to me because i know she is worried my mom would kick her *** if she was going to be a smart *** towards her too. haha

Geodon doesn't give me many symptoms... that's why i like it... plus it suppresses my hunger and making me lose weight. i would probably go back to my high school weight here shortly if i continue to lose weight. who knows maybe even less?

Maybe you should talk to Loial about your alcohol problem because i know he's going through addiction at the moment... maybe he can give you some pointers and can talk more about it... i'm sure he doesn't mind. he's good to talk to about stuff... trust me... it's something to consider. I don't recommend AA because there's a lot of creeps in AA and they allow just anyone there. even those with felonies for rape and ****... They have better programs in the UK. I know you can't just go to the UK but maybe take some pointer from Loial and what he's doing? It may not seem like a big problem now but it can get worse.

Ya know Newt. I’ll be completely honest with you.
I am 100% clear of meds as of right now. I get about 10 hours sleep per night. I do not drink. I smoke a lot but it doesn’t alter me...no grogginess etc. I am not depressed or suffering from any symptoms.
I have ZERO energy. I am dragging my *** from place to place. I collapse after workibg and taking care of the family. Literally collapse. Last night after a 10 hr work day, an hour of dinner prep, and homework, chatting, etc I was completely done. I was dead to the world by 10.
I honestly and truly believe that some people just do not ever feel rested or energized.
The only time I have ever felt “energized” is when I was lifting. It was a weird type of “high”.
I don’t think it’s the meds.
The only other thing you and I have in common is the Vit D deficiency. Mine is like 4 I’m basically a vampire.

Thank you erti! I will talk to loial. Maybe he will see this. I havent seen him in awhile.

Thanks for replying valley! I really hope im not someone who is never rested/energized but that could be me. My dad is the same way. he sleeps a lot. Plus he works a full time job. I now understand why he never really spent time with me. Im not mad at him. Used to be for that.

Im trying to get more vitamins. Stupid a$$e$ dont know where my vitamins are. Im D and B deficient.

Go us!

Don't you get vitamin D from sunlight?

It could be the meds too you don't know. i thought i was that way when i was on zyprexa and I would sleep 16 hour days on 15mg... when they put me on Invega I stopped sleeping altogether... so it couldn't been that... same with vraylar but i was on haldol as well as vraylar... it just didn't work out... then i was on haldol and was sleeping 12 hour days... sometimes more but i was on a high dose of haldol.

As long as you’re telling yourself you can’t because of x,y,z you won’t....Make sure in your mind you’re saying...I can, it’ll be easy, etc.

Haha! Yeah. We are the winners!

I do always make it a point to spend time with the kids no matter how exhausted I am.
My mom worked like 14 - 16 hour says as a store manager (Cumberland farms...worst employers ever). She would stop for food on the way home, crawl to the shower, and go to bed.
I knew she HAD to work those hours to keep her job...the one that supported her, her bf, 2 kids and 2 grandkids at the time. But it broke my heart that she just didn’t have time for me. It wasn’t her fault. She did what she had to do to survive. But it still sucked.
I am blessed that I dont have to work like that just to survive. I don’t take that for granted. So when I find myself worn out aching for quiet I remind myself my mom probably would have given her life for the chance to sit with us for just a few more minutes...
I’m sure it hurts your dad’s heart too. I’m sure he’d much rather hang out with you

Yes or so they say.
I was a sun worshipper...hours at the beach tanning in the sun. Still deficient.

I can't sleep well lately. I get a few hours of tossing and turning each night and that's about it. I'm so exhausted, really hoping I can sleep tonight

This too.
I kick my own *** everyday. I have to get up at 6. There is no other option. Then I have responsibilities. Things that must be done.
Keep swimming.

i tend to eat a lot of oranges and stuff that gives me a lot of vitamin D. Fatty fish, like tuna, mackerel, and salmon. Foods fortified with vitamin D, like some dairy products, orange juice, soy milk, and cereals. Beef liver.

I’m not on any. Been off 4 months. I’m guessing my system is clear of them by now.
Still little more than a lump on a log. Lol

I can give you my extra paxil and give you energy and make you manic

That's okay lol I already have 60mg of that

Yeah. I eat a good deal of fruit.
I do not eat fish or dairy so those are out. And I can’t do liver.

I’m tired a lot too. Wake up around 430am, work, home, bed by 9pm. Sometimes it’s hard to get up and do it all but gotta do it no one else is going to do it for me.

That’s how I look at it too.
I haven’t “called in sick” in 16 years lol
Even when I take a day off I still have damn responsibilities.

haha i have enough for 40 twice a day for over a month... are you sure

I'm a lazy *****... i don't work or anything... yet i have so much energy right now. i just don't feel like cleaning.

Thanks everyone!!!

I need motivation too

But i dont think i wanna be on this haldol anymore. It served me well enough when i needed it. I will talk to my doctor about it on the 8th. I need to talk to my therapist about motivation.