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Yeah it did. They’re cool. Just makes me nervous talking about these things. I always feel people will judge me.

I feel the same way. I'm afraid to even tell my therapist sometimes because I feel like they're gonna judge and hate me. Of course, they end up being understanding and helpful but I still get that fear every time.

@unsure123 How did your assessment go? I hope well!

Erti,

I hope everyone feels better. The thanks button still won't work.

Angelique Hi Hi Hi! How are you doing?

Just got off the phone with my sister. She wants me to start going to church again and to be more social. I'm going this Sunday

I've wanted to for awhile I just end up isolating because of anxiety

Did yoga tonight, from my stress relief yoga DVD

This will be a good Sunday to go, Blue_Bird as it is Palm Sunday. You're Catholic right? I was thinking of going to Disneyland this weekend and then I was like, wait, it's Palm Sunday. Have to go to Church!

My assessment is tomorrow

Yes I am, I went through RCIA last Easter

I'm ok, thanks. Actually I've been feeling weird the past couple of days, like I'm getting sick, agitated, etc. I'm hoping it won't get worse. I hope you are feeling better too.

Oh, ok. Wishing you the best of luck.

hey angelique how're you?

I'm just feeling so weird. It still freaks me out everyday, being here. There are some people here that I don't like, which I guess is par for the course. But the intensity of my feeling might not be.

If I was like this as a child (and I don't know if I was) it would explain my early lack of friends.

Dying for some pizzas. Loaded with mozzarella. Once in a blue moon they have had pizza here and wherever they got it from, it was piled with thick mozzarella. They still have me down as lactose intolerant so that reduces my luck of getting pizza further, although maybe I could order one in.

I think Seroquel numbs me emotionally a bit. Before Seroquel I would go through each roll call page and comment on everything. Now I just read them but I have nothing to really add. Also, I'm having writers block. I can't seem to get passed it.

Ok. Wishing more for my freedom lately. Everything seems hopeless though.

Are you ok? Are you having intrusive thoughts about the abuse you survived? That's such a lot to carry.

been having orgasms in my dreams that are nonsexual in nature... i just had one right now. not sure how or why. oh my god i think it's because they took me off the paxil... i am in love right now... i need to orgasm more... it's my reason to exist.

I'm ok today. i've been sleeping a lot more. however when i'm really tired i get a sudden decrease of energy and memories pop up like no other.

Oh, then I hope you will be able to rest well.

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thanks angelique i might be up for a while tho because of the naps i've been taking today.

I think my thoughts are just numbed in general. My emotions are numbed because of environment. At the end of the injection, I usually feel positive symptoms but my injection is tomorrow and I feel zero positive symptoms even on Adderall.

I'm trying to write an essay on religion but I don't even know where to begin. I haven't written anything yet because my mind is blank.

I hate when they said that. Cuz they dont really do anything. They just say that.