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Old Apr 10, 2019, 08:10 PM
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I think Seroquel numbs me emotionally a bit. Before Seroquel I would go through each roll call page and comment on everything. Now I just read them but I have nothing to really add. Also, I'm having writers block. I can't seem to get passed it.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 08:14 PM
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Hope everyone that’s struggling is feeling better soo.
I’m doing okay. I’m good mentally. Physically I’m a disaster. Sinuses, head, stomach...blah.
Also weirded out by my wrist. My hand is okay but the wrist itself is so weak and strange. I don’t have to anymore but I’m really only comfortable when it’s in the brace...it’s like I’m afraid of it. It doesn’t hurt but I’m hesitant to use it. It’s really strange. I’ve had a couple relatively big surgeries compared to this and god know I’ve felt my fair share of pain...I don’t get it.
Must be getting wimpy with age.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 08:30 PM
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I feel like my life could turn for the best or for the worst. I'm stuck in the middle right now where everything is just a potential good or bad place.

It's cold and raining. I love rain.

Right now I feel like doing this essay is a chore. I don't want to do it. I'm not taking any courses this summer. I'm going to work for 4 months for an extra 3600 dollars. Then do courses in September and in the winter.

So yeah that's where my summer is going. I want to work 2 days a week so I'll have 5 days a week to heal because I'm really in need of spiritual healing. My mind feels like it is complete trash and so is my life. I'll have the summer to use free time to my advantage to grow as a person stress free. Because I'm in a lot of stress and everything feels disturbing to me, screwed up and weird.

Well at least I wrote this about my thoughts but it was hard..

Edit: I feel like I'm in a dark place that only I can overcome with my mind
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 08:43 PM
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I feel like my life could turn for the best or for the worst. I'm stuck in the middle right now where everything is just a potential good or bad place.

It's cold and raining. I love rain.

Right now I feel like doing this essay is a chore. I don't want to do it. I'm not taking any courses this summer. I'm going to work for 4 months for an extra 3600 dollars. Then do courses in September and in the winter.

So yeah that's where my summer is going. I want to work 2 days a week so I'll have 5 days a week to heal because I'm really in need of spiritual healing. My mind feels like it is complete trash and so is my life. I'll have the summer to use free time to my advantage to grow as a person stress free. Because I'm in a lot of stress and everything feels disturbing to me, screwed up and weird.

Well at least I wrote this about my thoughts but it was hard..

Edit: I feel like I'm in a dark place that only I can overcome with my mind
You're a really smart guy... hopefully you can get back into the ride of things after a summer break. you can do many things. you're a good person too. don't let your mind tell you otherwise.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 09:27 PM
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I'm gonna take my seroquel now at 8:30pm and sleep. This is the earliest that I'm going to sleep in over a year.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 09:32 PM
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 10:40 PM
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I'm pissed... my mom comes home turns tv to supernatural shows knowing full well that it triggers **** for me... this his ********.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 11:10 PM
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thanks angelique i might be up for a while tho because of the naps i've been taking today.
Me too, I slept until afternoon today. Hope you get plenty of sleep.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 11:13 PM
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I hate when they said that. Cuz they dont really do anything. They just say that.
Yes, we shall see whether they do or not. I wish I could have my computer here.
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Old Apr 10, 2019, 11:26 PM
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Me too, I slept until afternoon today. Hope you get plenty of sleep.
I got an appointment with the regular doctor at 10:15 am this morning. hopefully i wake up in time before my case manager picks me up and calls me.
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 03:07 AM
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there is a difference between anorexia and anorexia nervosa, anorexia is literally translated to loss of appetite and is usually attributed to medical conditions or side effects from medications while anorexia nervosa is more of a fear of gaining weight
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here's the thing... i feel like i have to defend my mother some. shes always kept a roof over my head, food on the table, and clothes to wear. however, my education and physical, mental, hygienic needs weren't always met. i flunked a grade because of lice and kept getting kicked out and staying out of school weeks and sometimes a month after the fact i got "caught" with having head lice. I had it real bad and was told to avoid scratching my head at school and letting people near me to notice lice in my head. I didn't start going to the dentist until i was 18 after a tooth crumbled in my mouth and i needed to have a root canal. I mean i have good teeth don't get me wrong but it took a lot of fillings and a root canal to get them that way. as for mental health my mom tried to hide the fact my sexual abuse and rape happened after i told my grandmother what happen when i didn't want to go home with my mom's ex boyfriend that night. i wish they wouldn't of locked his *** up but all my mom did was kick him out and told no one. she told my dad's best friend but not my dad himself. my dad's bestfriend never told my dad because he said it wasn't his place to tell him and according to my dad he once delivered pizza to my moms ex's house after she kicked him out. my mom's ex asked my dad how i was doing... my dad said i was fine and my moms ex smiled and laughed oddly in an unsettling way. my dad didn't know about it until i told him a few years ago...


my dad isn't any better either with the severe neglect when i was over at his house when he did come and picked me up. i did tell my mom about being locked in a bedroom all the time. eventually my dad stopped coming around and i didn't see him 4 years later where he "tried" coming into my life but my stepmom was jealous of me and treated me like **** when i was over at their house. it wasn't until she ended up getting breast cancer she started treated me like a human being... my dad knew how my stepmom was towards me but did nothing and took her side. he continued to stay with her and seeing me less and less. I always got the brunt of her ******** and if my sister did something "wrong" i got my *** busted for it too. if I cried because they didn't let me call my mom or grandmother in order to let me go home I got my *** busted for it. at one point at 8 years old my dad picked me up took me to his place and refused to let me call home.. locked me and my siblings in a bedroom from days on end... lack of food as usual... and didn't let me have contact with my grandmother or my mom... they basically kidnapped me. my grandmother called my dads bff and he told her where my dad lived and eventually picked me up after arriving unexpectinly at the door. i was filthy, natted hair, missing clothes, and the one bedroom apartment that lived me my two brothers my sister and my dad and stepmom smelled of diapers. I came home and that was the end of that part of my life.
I too feel that I have to defend my mother and remain loyal. it's complicated for sure. we went thru some same things, neglect and CSA. my mom also ignored everything until it was too late. shes even finally admitted she just was not there when I was growing up. it's nice to have that validation that it wasn't just in my head that mom was never around to protect me, but it's too little too late now to apologize for it. I suffer the consequences of her inaction every day
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 05:23 AM
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 05:24 AM
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Im so sorry FR.

Please make sure you seek support as well. Does your band leader have support for everyone?
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Fiance had to goto work at 4am this morning. He was extremely grumpy. It scared me because he got mad at the dog and busted his hand on the bed rail because the dog wasnt listening. He was trying to grab her from under the bed.
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 07:13 AM
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Im so sorry FR.

Please make sure you seek support as well. Does your band leader have support for everyone?

Thank you Newtus.


I will do my best to do so. I think he does. He's usually very good about this stuff.
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 07:48 AM
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Did the dishes, made my bed, took the trash out, read for awhile then played a game. About to take a shower then go to the library
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 07:52 AM
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I too feel that I have to defend my mother and remain loyal. it's complicated for sure. we went thru some same things, neglect and CSA. my mom also ignored everything until it was too late. shes even finally admitted she just was not there when I was growing up. it's nice to have that validation that it wasn't just in my head that mom was never around to protect me, but it's too little too late now to apologize for it. I suffer the consequences of her inaction every day
My mom has made comments like, "you had a good life after i met Frank (stepdad), right?" and said "you didn't always have it so bad." then made comments saying, "i'm a bad mother." I'm not quite sure how much denial she's in. i've told her what happened when i was little about what was happening at my dads house after he had kidnapped me. Then I told her what was happening at my dads house here recently and she basically said, " why didn't you tell me this?!?!"... i'm like "uh ***** i did... how come you never listened?"... of course not in those words.
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 09:25 AM
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 09:32 AM
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Pdoc won't let me do mmj and wants me on disability, gave me more resources today. Probbaly the best appt I've had since I started seeing him
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 10:09 AM
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Already got 7,000 steps in today and it's only 11am
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Already got 7,000 steps in today and it's only 11am
I've been walking a lot too, mostly because I woke up anxious and walks help me take my mind off the anxiety.
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 10:25 AM
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Old Apr 11, 2019, 10:58 AM
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Last day of class.........
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