Roll Call 151

Still up. Watching public access tv, something about landing on the moon.

Me too 100% BB . Prefer winter over summer any day all day

Everyone here loves summer too. I hate it. The humidity makes it so much worse

I'm not equipped to be in the sun. I overheat easily and sweat a lot. The sun is so bright and hot it gives me sensory overload. Sometimes when I'm driving all I can think abt is getting inside away from this evil sun. I dont have AC in my car and the sun visor broke off on my driver's side so sometimes its sheer torture!!!!!!

I'm sure it's been getting over 100 degrees F inside my car. When I have to sit at long af redlights sometimes I'm scared i might pass out

Anyway yea ... brutal cold and snow is way easier to deal w for me

I meant to tell u this before Desoxyn but be careful with that Phenibut .

There are many horror stories online about withdrawal.

My voices usually hone in on my meds . Like they dont let me take them. Sometimes I fall into the trap of believing them .

Truth is, they want me to be ill and stuck w them

They are liars

My therapist agreed I should get a tattoo ...

"They lie"

It's because of the demons...



I don't want to believe them but it's so hard not to...

I ended up on a high dose AP injection every 3 weeks for years bc of flushing my meds so much

So just b careful

I'm worried about PHP on Monday. He asks about if we've taken our meds every day... I suck at lying and I don't really want to lie to him anyway.

I used to lie to my therapist all the time but he always knows I'm lying. It's not really something I can hide at all

I cant sleep

I just read a whole article and comments about why peer support specialists are slaves to the mental health system. It kinda saddened me but I do understand why they said that.

I can't hide it either, that's why I'm probably not even going to try

They do it because they love the work tho

Yea I mean the people told me it would be very intensive, hard, and a lot times sad. So we will see.

That is true, but also really rewarding. I have friends that are peer support specialists. They love the job, but it is hard.

That's good. I would think I know what to expect but I know I don't. What do they do at their job? What do they like and not like about it?

I might have to stop drinking coffee for awhile because my one cup, now, makes me anxious. Idk why.

They like the helping. That's the best part. They say the hardest part is seeing people struggle. And sometimes coworkers.

That sucks. Coffee is life.

I've thought about becoming a peer support specialist. I just don't think I'm stable enough at the moment.

Ended up getting a few more hours of sleep

That's great!

Maybe try switching g to decaf for a bit?

Morning! Omg what a difference. Yesterday when I turned on the A/Cs it was 88 degrees in here. It’s now 70 and I’m wearing a hoodie . Feels so good!
Idk what I’ll do today. I’m already bored and I just got up.

Yea I think I need to. But doesn't decaf have some amount of caffeine too?

I only drank half my coffee. I cannot finish it. I feel anxious.