Roll Call 151

Me too. 7 to 10 pm. Had a bad nightmare and kept me up...

Scratch that.

Daughters sick

Yuck....

Idk why but I'm nauseous

I feel like it's the geodon interacting with the coffee. Ever since I started geodon I can barely drink any coffee or alcohol.

I'm so sorry your mom has this to battle now. I'm wishing her and your family strength and luck.

I cant find anything about geodon and caffeine or alcohol but I swear I cant drink much of both of those while on it. Caffeine makes me sick on it and alcohol, well I can barely drink a sip while on it.

I feel bad, there's a beautiful black cat that hangs out around the apartment complex. I don't know if it's stray or not but I see it often walking around, I sad hi to him/her this morning and they meowed at me and tried to follow me. I wish I could have 3 cats, but I can only have 2 and can only afford to the one's I have. I pray that somebody feeds it, I have seen some friskies cans and a water bowl outside one apartment now that I think about it.

I was on a med at one point that made soda taste really weird for some reason. A long time ago I was crazy about soda, drank tons of it all the time but I hardly ever drink it anymore, maybe on special occasions like birthdays, out for dinner etc

You might want to try changing over to decaf newtus

Yea, valley told me that too, but I havent had the money yet to buy any.

Idk if yall know this about me...

But I have a HUGEEEE fear of uncleanliness. Like a lot of the reason why I dont take showers is because i feel like the whole bathroom is just one big germ pit. It causes me so much anxiety to take a shower. Every. Freaking. Time. Every time! I even hate going to actually use the toilet. I absolutely HATE filthy bathrooms.

I hate drying off after the shower next to the toilet. I fckn hate that the toilet is so close to my legs when I shower. And god forbid if it touches any part of my body while I'm trying off, I'll have a fit. Maybe throw up. I change my bathroom mats regularly. Like buy new ones.

When I clean the bathroom I douse it in lysol. The whole toilet, sink, shower. I cleaned the toilet recently and I scrubbed the whole thing. Even the sides. It caused me so much anxiety.

This has been going on for a very long time. Even since I was a teen. I even stopped taking baths when I was about 9 or 10. I felt like sitting in the tub was extremely filthy and that shyt from the drain was gonna come up. I would freak out if shyt from the tub got on my feet or legs. I'd gag.

And being in my dads house was a nightmare for me.

Idk why I'm like this. I feel weird being like this.

I am having a **** day.
Woke up uber early cuz I drank too much coffee b4 bed and had to pee.
Daughter got up sick so the plans we had are wasted. And she feels double bad cuz of that.
My new computer is great but the keyboard and mouse are terrible. The keyboard sticks constantly so it takes me twice the time to do anything cuz I have to delete 10 zillion letters.
It has done this since I got it. I contacted HP support twice and they jerked me off. Today I contact them and they tell me I have to go thru the retailer cuz they only support the tower. WTF???
Contact Staples...they tell me it’s past 14 days.
I signed up for everything. I have like tech support/warranty until I f’ing die. But I gave my husband the paperwork so I didn’t lose it and now idk where tf he put it.
I call him at work and the whole mf’ing maintenance dept is out of the office. They work for the state. They do NOTHING so where tf are they when I need them??!
GaaaaaaAaaah...I’m ready to explode and it’s not even noon yet.

Also...where the **** is @Erti???

I know she’s been struggling and I haven’t seen her in days.

I’m worried.

Hope you’re okay @Erti.

I've been wondering about her as well

I drove today to get my prescription even though it’s walking distance.....I really needed to rotate the car plus my foot has been sore, idk why so that was all I needed to have the motivation....anyway this is rare for me to go drive past 10 and not to the store.

I hate to tell you this but studies actually rank the bathroom as the cleanest when compared to the kitchen because of the strength of cleaner used In the bathroom are much stronger. Also poop isn’t as bad as you think, it’ll only make you sick if the other person is sick, normal gut microbiota are pretty benign. Fecal transplants save lives....

Have a bad headache, just took something for it. Hope I can sleep tonight

Yea I heard that. Idk if this is OCD or what.

I'm gonna nap or rest maybe. I walked in my room and the sunshine hitting the tapestry and changing the color of the room is so dam inviting.

I have been having some hallucinations and paranoia today but I think it's from not really sleeping , I think I'm going to relax and watch stuff on Netflix and just ignore it, try to get some good sleep tonight

If I get that job I want to move into maybe a 2 bedroom apt. And get a couch that turns into a bed for guests and stuff. But the second gameroom would mainly be the office/gaming room.

Getting this specific job means SO much to me.

. We are gonna have more money

. I'm gonna be able to have a sense of accomplishment and contribution.

. I'll have a routine

. I'll have amazing opportunities like to get certified and goto austin

Etc

Hi everyone. I'm anxious today but at least I'm not nauseated. Yesterday I had a bad migraine. I even left work early. I usually just work through it but sometimes you just can't. One of the owners of the business skyped me today to check on me and see how I was doing. That made me feel good. Work is going by slowly today but hopefully it will speed up this afternoon. HUGS Kit

Hi! Cant remember if I already have posted before once or not.
Anyway hello
Im having a horrible week. Thats all i know to say. So sad. Cant eat. Making my mother sad too

I am so completely embarrassed...

I went to the grocery. Had to return most of my items to the front clerk because I couldn't afford them. I'm embarrassed.