[Blue_Bird]

Welcome!

[Sometimes psychotic]

Thanks bluebird!

[newtus]

Thanks bb!!!

Thanks BB

I saw my old boss last week. That handsome guy hasn't change a bit. He's built like a giant or a football player. He felt uncomfortable around me, but warmed up after I shook his hand. For years he was like a father figure for me, when I didn't have a real one. It's crazy how many of his sayings I adopted from him. lol I didn't leave with class, it was my fault. Plus I was still wrestling with sleep, losing every day. Seeing him made me self reflect a lot that day...

[falcon09]

Thanks BB!

Really loving my switch. Been playing Zelda: BOTW mainly, it's very open world and that's overwhelming in a way but kicks *** in other ways.

[Sometimes psychotic]

I feel we need a starter pic for roll call...

[Blue_Bird]

aww, I didn't know you had a cat SP

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Welcome!

Thanks @Blue_Bird !!!

[Angelique67]

So, my eye is ok. There's no explanation of why I have a blind patch though. I met my friend's friend and I liked her very much. I can't say more because I've already posted too many details. I wish I could go home. Anyway, it was a good day.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

aww, I didn't know you had a cat SP

I don’t I’m allergic, this was at the bfs brothers house....

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

So, my eye is ok. There's no explanation of why I have a blind patch though. I met my friend's friend and I liked her very much. I can't say more because I've already posted too many details. I wish I could go home. Anyway, it was a good day.

So it’s not like macular degeneration or something?

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

So it’s not like macular degeneration or something?

No, and I was really worried about that. So, hopefully everything's ok with the eye. The doc said I have a lot of scar tissue from the surgeries long ago. That might have something to do with it, I guess.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by falcon09

Thanks BB!


Really loving my switch. Been playing Zelda: BOTW mainly, it's very open world and that's overwhelming in a way but kicks *** in other ways.

Bout to send you my friend code!

[newtus]

I sent u my friend code on snap, falcon!

[SlumberKitty]

Thanks Blue_Bird

[SlumberKitty]

Cute kitty even if it’s not yours SP

[Desoxyn]

I'm very hard on myself. Ofthevalley made me realize that. Like what I do, I can do better. Like things I do aren't good enough. The best people are like that tho..

But I need to find balance. I feel so tired right now. I want to learn about buddhism and philosophy.

I wish I had more energy so I could do more. Like being more curious about information. But I'm at peace knowing the truth to reality. I don't want to be at peace. I need to try new things and deal with my emotions and thoughts in healthy ways, learn, grow, rebuild myself.

I can't talk but I can write. I'd like to update my blog to recovery from negative symptoms of schizophrenia. Like.. If I can beat it.. Overcome one of the hardest struggles of lack of motivation from a real illness related to that that no one seems to understand or even cares enough about to treat or research.

To become more creative and just a better person in general. Comparing myself to who I was yesterday instead of other people. That type of thing..

[Desoxyn]

I might go to bed right now at 10pm instead of 12am.

Then I can wake up at 6am, take my meds, have breakfast, etc.. Then go mountain biking in the trails. I hope it's not rainy tomorrow.

The problem is that I slept this evening for a few hours. I was exhausted and everyone was partying.

I just don't want to sleep. I have so much to do but I'm exhausted. I'll take 50mg of Seroquel and maybe it will help. I took 5mg olanzepine an hour ago cuz I was gonna smoke some weed and didn't want to get solipsistic psychosis like Jesus or Muhammad.

[Blue_Bird]

Tried the death wish coffee. It's so good. Bold flavor, not acidic at all, completely smooth!

[childofchaos831]

I'm going to be going to the hospital in a few hours. Gonna go to my meeting this morning and then head over to the hospital. I don't want to just disappear without letting the people at the meeting know... I don't have many numbers for them. Just 2 people... And I'd rather say it in person... I don't know how long I'll be inpatient this time. Usually it's around 10 days. Give or take a few days... I won't have my phone so I'll be incommunicado for the time being...

[ofthevalley]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

I'm going to be going to the hospital in a few hours. Gonna go to my meeting this morning and then head over to the hospital. I don't want to just disappear without letting the people at the meeting know... I don't have many numbers for them. Just 2 people... And I'd rather say it in person... I don't know how long I'll be inpatient this time. Usually it's around 10 days. Give or take a few days... I won't have my phone so I'll be incommunicado for the time being...

Good luck to you my friend

[newtus]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

I'm going to be going to the hospital in a few hours. Gonna go to my meeting this morning and then head over to the hospital. I don't want to just disappear without letting the people at the meeting know... I don't have many numbers for them. Just 2 people... And I'd rather say it in person... I don't know how long I'll be inpatient this time. Usually it's around 10 days. Give or take a few days... I won't have my phone so I'll be incommunicado for the time being...

Good luck and be safe

[newtus]

Morning

I can barely sleep. I really couldn't. I went to bed at 2am and woke up about 5am.

I'm so excited for today. I go do paperwork at my new job and all the background check/drug testing. I'm not excited about that lol just that I'm eager to know more about what I'm supposed to be doing on the job. I have questions too.

I dont go til 10am. Plus fiance is off the next 2 days!!!

[childofchaos831]

Thanks y'all