Roll Call 166!

I'm not. I've been asked to go on it but I'm kinda scared

So far for me I'm not getting as much side effects on it vs other anti psychotics. the blood work they have you do every week for 6 months is to check on something that's rare for the med to do. I'm ok with needles so I've been able to go to each week.

How's it working for you? I remember when you first went on it you kinda broke out of a really long psychosis

I have some good days and some bad days as they increase my meds. I'm still waiting for things to work or something. my mind is like telling me I"m going to die soon.. to run away... they are also telling me to cut myself to give them my blood. I hear **** all the ****ing time. I just hope it doesn't go down to doing ECT along with the clozapine. 900 is the max dosage for clozapine and I"m at 650 a day. I however did gain 16 pounds from when I first started on it. I'm trying to avoid gaining more weight. well see how it goes.

Be careful at higher doses, high risk of seizures above 600 or 700mg I believe

Thanks! never had a seizure but if I did it would of been in my sleep. Doctors didn't say anything about risk of seizures

Morning

I feel like I can taste my bones popping. Like as if it’s giving off a smell when it’s popped/cracked. Like how dogs nails smell when you file them down or something. Like dusty smelling, and old smelling.

I think I’m just smelling my morning breath tho

Unemployment services called me but I was really scared for a second because I missed the phone call and called them back and when they answered the phone they asked for my ssn. I was like “Um is it safe to give it out?”. But anyway I found out it’s a legitimate Texas unemployment service number, but they really shouldn’t be answering the phone with “this is twc. What is your ssn?”. That’s not good in my opinion.

Anyway they needed clarification on my disability and I was honest. If they refuse my unemployment claim it’s ok. I’m not gonna risk my disability for 88 dollars a week.

Well, I took a shower, took my morning meds, took out all the trash and have the laundry in the washer. So that's good, that's a million times more than I did yesterday

I can't wait to get my sisters cat. I hope she's able to get a vet appointment within the next few months to get her vaccines updated so she can come live with me. I miss having a furry friend.

I stayed up till like 1am watching stuff on Netflix. I'm addicted. lol I was gonna stay up the whole night but I forced myself to get some sleep.

I have over 1,000 songs on my iPod which isn't much considering how much good music there is but I have portfolio thing where I've written down every song, album, etc that I want to purchase. It's only like 20 pages long but those are just my absolute favorites. Anyway, I cross them off as I buy them. I love music, it's amazing. I plan on getting some more soon probably next week

I had to force myself to sleep too. I got excited last min last night over something I’m working on with my poetry.

“It’s only like 20 pages long”

Lol there''s a lot of good music, I've been writing down favorite songs and albums for several years

I had a good talk with sp this morning.

Got up, took a shower. Gonna clean soon. Already did some business for my unemployment claim. I’ve also been a million times more productive than I have been.

Do u use Apple Music or Spotify at all?

No, I prefer owning my music on a separate mp3 device than my phone

Makes sense. I don’t have enough room on my phone for my music. So streaming it is. 1/3 of my phone is taken up by photos. Maybe more.

I’m someone that needs everything in 1 place. Like my phone. I couldn’t deal with separate devices unless it’s a gaming console or something. That’s the one thing I don’t do on my phone is game.

And fiancés neice is so slick about that “hey, do you play games on your phone?”

Lmao his mom was like “it doesn’t matter anyways. You’re not gonna use her phone” lmao lmao lmao

She shut that down realllll quick

Woke up still feeling blah. Had a good sleep though. My doctor is gonna phone me today and I'm gonna say that the diazepam replaced the alprazolam except I don't even take half as much benzos, to refill vyvanse, zopiclone and atenolol and then put the invega injection to every 3 weeks instead of 4 weeks.

Just re-watched the video musicians who played the original theme song for animal crossing new horizons. One of them played it on the uke. That’s my new venture. Gonna learn how to play animal crossing theme on ukulele.

I want some cherry pie. And also ice cream, I haven't had any in awhile, but it's too hot to carry ice cream back from anywhere close to me, it would all melt by time I got home. Guess I'll wait till autumn or winter

Pumpkin spice ice cream sounds good right now

I'll be honest, I don't do food sex or sleep.

I'm an alien pretending to be human.

When I take selfies, that's just the host that I've inhabited.

That’s why I adore you.

Can you go get a cone somewhere?