Roll Call 166!

I’m ok. Other than feeling physically kinda crummy. (Stomach hurts) but it could be from both ice cream and not eating for like awhile, but I was asleep til like 3pm. I feel fine. Fiancé was upset this morning. But when I woke up he said he just doesn’t want me to use money that was supposed to be his without permission. I wasn’t trying to hide anything. I bought him breakfast. But I get it. And I’ve never done that before in my life. My whole life growing up my dad had money laying around. Never once did I take it or steal it. I guess it’s just a sign of how bad off we are doing financially. Sucks but I’ll never do that again.

Zelda: Breath Of the Wild for switch.

one is the loneliest number

Two is just as bad as one it's the loneliest number since the number one

That sounds fun, enjoy!

For me two is just about right, any more you’ve got trouble....

I'm an asexual that needs to public speak. It doesn't matter if it's just empty seats.

I swear my nose is stuffed up....but pollen is high here. Mildly disconcerting though.

Yesterday it felt like I was on an alien planet. Now it feels like I'm in the holocaust. The sky is yellow/grey and I hear a train - People talking. They would likely hurt me - But this is all in my mind.

That’s how I felt. My nose a bit and my throat was sore. I also feel somewhat lethargic but I’m not depressed. Idk what it is.

Yeah my nose was stuffed up this morning. Lots of dandelions all over the grass.

I was googling "Cure to schizophrenia psychedelics". Nothing popped up. I did about 10 searches in relation to it.. Nothing.. I just wanted to make sure.

Now I'll do something. I'm in a good mood to focus before I need a mind rest. I'm gonna go into the living room and read or something.

I'll be back tomorrow so if I don't reply it's cuz I'm ignoring PC FOMO.

They’re headed towards my house

Took 2 lactaid pills

holy **** they're setting on fire colleges/schools.

they're about 2 or 3 miles from us.

Guns are going off where I'm at.

That’s scary, here most of the protesting is downtown but they’re going after cops etc...the shut down the cta and imposed a curfew....

I signed a contract to be a live streamer

There's been protesting in big cities. I"m i columbus but I know cincinnati and cleveland ohio are having protesters and rioting. Right now I'm in a part of town where safety can be a concern.

How do you do these things all of a sudden over the past few years D:

Much happy 4 u ^^

Idk lmao. I do know I work my A off to go after opportunities.

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I need to make an introduction on reddit r/psychonaut or r/ADHD or something and find someone to be accountable to. I have friends online that I can ask but I don't want to bother them.

I feel like there's a specific mind state that people can be in to manifest their destiny based on living in the moment and using their emotions, intellect, spiritual side, etc.. Being able to do anything they want with the randomness of reality..

I've heard about this and I'm coming closer to it but I'm a long way away from actually being in tune with it.

It's like a musical dance of life. Expression, capturing, problem solving, letting go of certain things..

I'm becoming alive yet feel so alone too.

I love you all

Even though you're my empty chair audience of my rhetorical rants and expressional cries for help, I'll only admit for once that I appreciate the connection and you guys are very real persons. My avoidant and schizotypal/autistic personality protects me.

Fin (Real fin - But fin will continue..)