Roll Call 182

I just feel like my brain is fighting me on this. I don't want to do these things and be obsessive and it kicks into overdrive.

Must... fight.

It flares up sometimes and I can't help it.

Have fun! I've never really tried Stevia before. I try to stick with regular sugar, except for energy drinks and Coke Zero.

My OCD has been flaring up, but my mood has been stable and I haven't worried about food the last couple of days. I ate steak, corn, and broccolini for dinner. I just feel like there are germs everywhere now. I'm so dirty.

I don't know if they do witchcraft or a seance to pick the day they'll let us smoke. It still hasn't arrived. I keep staring at my hands. My favorite scene in Dark Shadows with Angelique in the 3rd season (I think) is when one of her enemies possesses her portrait from the 18th century and brings it to a Collinsport artist and he's instructed to add terrible old age to the portrait of Angelique, finishes up her hands and the camera catches her face and screams of horror panning to her 300 year old hands and they look just like mine! Haha!

Good time sitting by the fire with people. A friend visited and I gave him back his books that he lent to me - I didn't read them and said that I was reading on my tablet. He said that he has 75k books on his computer and would download them for me which is awesome.

My moms friend invited us to Greece if the lockdowns ever stop.

I didn't really feel like talking - Idk why.. Maybe depression.

It leaves the worst taste in ur mouth

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Very interesting bad news.

I can’t help myself... I had to wash my hair three times before I thought it was clean. Trying not to focus on it but my mind keeps obsessing.

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She was licking her leg and left it like that

My flowers came wrapped in this picture from the grocery.

The world sometimes looks visually skewed on days when I’m not feeling good.

Same, that’s why when I’m physically is able to, I clean my house.

I can’t bring myself to paint or draw these last few days. Probably I’m having PMS idk

My period may be starting finally idk. But there’s like 2 or 3 days of my period I physically feel really good. That’s usually after day 1 of my period. And before day 4 or 5

Yeah same, I’m a mess before until like 1-2 days after it starts but then feel good for the rest of the time

I want to sell my own adult coloring book one day 🤔

That would be awesome. There's one I like called "The Mindfulness Coloring Book" that's really well done. Might give you some ideas. Or you could just start from scratch. Actually I think it's cooler to start from scratch.

Just make sure you don't publish it on Kindle -

Hahaha 😂

Thanks for the idea

I just feel this urge to get up and go for a long long walk. Just start walking and keep going.

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That’s some Forrest Gump shyt right there!

I used to take long walks. It sometimes helps clear my head. If you have time, I say go for it.

I feel so physically out of it today. My mind this is bombarded with sadness and grief and anxiety

I want to get a new watercolor set but I don’t want to bring too many art supplies when I move

Immigration officer : Why are you bringing so many watercolors are you a watercolor smuggler 🔫 👮
Me : I’m just trying to feed my 9 little babies Officer 😩

Baby number 1


Baby number 2