Roll Call 187

My sister lost her job today so she asked my parents if she could move in with us and they said yes but IDK what she is going to do because her kids can go to school there for free (private Christian school). She got fired bc she broke the morals clause. Sigh.

My sister is coming to visit this weekend and I don't know how long she is going to stay but I hope it doesn't interfere with IOP. I am already changing my Friday for Tuesday because she will be here.

Sounds like you’ve got a lot going on....hugs SK.

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Thanks SP.

Anyone have some Netflix recommendations, movies or shows?

Amazing vacation rentals.......restaurants on the edge...the chair

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On Friday I'm getting a slice of pizza from the place across the street and a piece of their cheesecake

I don't consume entertainment. All I do is think slowly while antipsychoticed.

I have an appointment tomorrow morning to get my abilify injection then 10 minutes after that an in-person appointment with my therapist. (she works in the same office), We normally do videochat or phone appointments but since I'll be there that day anyway she said we could just do it in person.

Then after that I have to go to CVS to pick up my meds.

Proud of myself. Almost at a week

I'm buying a bubble tea kit so I don't have to ask my sister to drop of bubble tea for at least several (like many) months. The one I picked out has 6 flavors (taro, honeydew, green tea latte, milk tea, and spiced chai tea latte), it makes a total of 60 drinks (according to reviews though it may be more like half that because they say the drinks need more of the powder to have a stronger flavor) and comes with two pack of boba pearls. In addition to that I'm getting a 3 pack of popping boba pearls, strawberry, kiwi, and mango flavored. Plus a reusable bubble tea cup and straw. I think it will be a fun thing to do once in awhile, for a treat Oh yeah, and I added in a packet of vanilla flavored bubble tea mix too

This time in reality is very hard.

I had a good talk with my dad. Basically I have to sort things out with my mom. If I do drugs, he said she'll send me to the psych ward "Oh poor me, look at my beautiful hair.. I need a holiday"

We're gonna sort out her HPD

Just got my abilify injection. Now waiting to see my therapist

Edit: had a good appointment with my therapist

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I have some chocolate hazelnut biscotti coming tomorrow

Delusions of grandeur! I love them..

Oh God.. I don't want the invega Trinza.. I'm overdue by a week. I might put it off if this continues.. although I think its the phenibut

No.. I need to plan things...

I'm getting some German chocolate to have on Halloween. I've been looking up different types of candies and cookies and stuff based on my heritage (Irish, British, French, German, and Italian). I grew up with Italian food so most of the stuff from that I know already/have had

IOP Pdoc is changing the Latuda to 100mg. He asked me if I would rather be IP because of the hallucinations. I was like, no. He was like, don't you think you'll be safer there? I was like, probably, but no. So he increased the medication instead. I need to think about whether I need to be IP or not but I really don't want to be IP. Bleh.

I’ve never been so excited for getting food stamps… I got my card today and it had over 460 something dollars in it and should be getting over 200 dollars a month in food stamps by myself. I actually can get fresh fruit now and can explore healthier options.

My grandmother annoys me. She's like my mom. They both irritate me so badly. It's the reason I am the way I am and the cause of all of my suffering!

No but..

The reason that my parents divorced was because my dads mom (My grandmother) always wanted to compete with my mom - And my dad always defended my grandmother and never took my moms side. My grandmother would be like "Oh my hair looks like (My moms) doesn't it??".

My mom wanted a harp so my grandmother bought one. She sold it recently for some extra money and it's worth thousands of dollars. My dad got mad about that because he was going to give it to my mom when my grandmother dies. My grandmother was like "I don't want people to think that I have no money" while my dad pays for everything.

I think my dad is going nuts



My family is too dysfunctional. It's sick and twisted.

My grandmother told my dad that I seem "Not self centered.. but something else"... I think it's cuz I'm always used to being in therapy idk

I'm introspective.. And feeling.. I feel.. Introverted feeling