Roll Call 190

Hi guys. Feeling bad today. I wish when I see my T tonight that she could wave a magic wand and just make it better but I know that can't happen. I'm feeling hopeless. Sucks.

Never heard of NFT's before SP. Sounds interesting.

I'm sorry you're feeling bad, Kit. I hope you'll be feeling better soon.

Thank you, @Breaking Dawn.

Crypto is digital heroin for new generation. I love it.

But we must be careful otherwise we can't escape the metaverse and socios will make digital copies of ourselves and torture us for eternity. Elon says it's better to just die.

Stash burrowed under the covers earlier to take a nap with me, when I woke up she was still there. She makes me so happy

Sorry you're not feeling well SK

I'm getting my hair cut next month, it's too much of a pain to deal with since it's gotten pretty long again.

I stayed inside all day today, I don't want to go out on the ice. I will try going to the library tomorrow, if the ice melts at all. Hopefully it does.

I ordered two really large jars of Nutella. They should be here on Friday. My grocery store usually has Nutella but they don't have the large 35 oz jars I wanted so I just ordered them instead. I'm planning on trying to make some banana Nutella bread, I found a recipe on Pinterest, it looks really good.

Banana Nutella Bread sounds really good Blue_Bird!

This, what I'm living in, hyper space

I just want life back.. Or what I thought was life

Hiya everyone. Just got a dental procedure so I'm in a bit of pain still, but otherwise I'm pretty good. Been doing a lot of writing and soul searching lately. Trying to put things into perspective. Been crushing my 2022 goals. Still weird to type out 2022 for me. I was listening to an audiobook, book two of the wheel of time, and for the first time in a long time in ages my ptsd kicked in again from what was happing in the story, so I need to process and unpack that with my therapist.

Need to get my editor to take a look at my story too, but I just dont have the money right now. I highly recommend Don't Look Up, it was a rare, cathartic experience for me. The Matrix was a rehash I felt, but I loved how they portrayed the experience of dissonance that Neo was experiencing in the beginning.

((hugs)) all around = ) I'll keep dropping in to see how everyone's doing!

HUGS Job, nice to see you

I feel you. I tormented myself for years because I wanted something I use to have. But my reality is that I have a new normal. Learning something or writing something helps keep my mind active though, I need an active mind. It helps me become whole.

How's your focus lately? You mention your thirst for philosophy often. What's the best way for you to digest information?

I've been doing great - My focus is amazing (Compared to how it was when I was abusing the ADHD med or buying methylphenidate/amphetamine analogues).

As long as I take the ADHD med as prescribed, I have the FREEDOM... to do anything. The way I digest information is just CONSTANT learning.. I don't stop. Videos, articles, books, podcasts..

After spending all day after work doing these things, I watched a video yesterday, I realized that (An estimation of?) what I don't know about how deep things can get (Illuminati?) is 100x+ more than I realize (I'll send you the video on messenger).

One of my research chemical friends, he said "This woman has escaped from *****ute" - So there's some real nonsense out there.. Like QnON or what ever. It's incredible nonsense that I can't get into because I'd go insane.

I felt like my mind broke last night - I was lacking sleep. I slept for ~15 hours.

I woke up, it was sunny, made coffee and tried to make sense of things - There's a lot of consuming of information (Maybe to make up for consuming drugs). Things will get better (I hope).

I'm just scared about the spots on my skin and the vaccine, what is happening with world take over. I need to prioritize everything that I do - Cuz I feel like things won't last. I have a lot of FOMO and can't just relax or stop being 100% hard on myself. I'd like to learn about philosophy but I'm doing it in ways of updating my mind, identity, reality.

I'm not sure if (My sister for example) likes to experience new things (Travelling the world) compared to how I do it (Travelling in my mind)..

I'm pulled in so many directions but it's OK.

All of these meds.. They're good.

I haven't drank any alcohol so it's great.

I'll see my psychiatrist and say that it's been quite a bumpy road - But to just decrease the Invega Trinza to a medium dose.

That's it. I'll stay on these + doses for a while - Maybe few years possibly.

Unless I die in that time - Then that's no good.

When I was walking every where I bought something called yak trax they are fantastic on ice.

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We use these here

Those look intimidating....lol.

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Klonopin reduction not going well. I wanna quit my job too, eh. So there's that. I mean why can't I just be free?

I just remember in the past I didn't have to take Klonopin regularly and I could deal with anxiety normally. WHERE oh where has that "me" gone?

Klonopin has severely detracted from my life.

Hugs. I know tapering is the normal thing but it also prolongs the agony. Are you on a dose that’s low enough to cold turkey? I just know some doses are too high and can cause seizures if you quit like that. The other option is to cut an even smaller amount by no more than ten percent....

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WA this is the longest I’ve seen you at a job so it must be tolerable. Think about the freedom the job brings, you can have an apartment etc. it’s not about buying stuff, it’s about doing what you’d like without parental control.

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