Roll Call 190

I know I've just got to work on my business instead of living in regret about quitting my job. But that seems so indeterminate.

I was really hurting on the day I quit (last Thursday). Really hurting.

I feel skittish. Like my cat.

We are both skittish now.

I need to take clonazepam..

Hugs WA….hugs.

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Hi guys. I am considering doing a residential treatment program because my depression has been so severe. I have an intake call in less than an hour to see if I am an "appropriate" candidate for their program. I'm really scared as it is 45 days which is hella long. And you can't have your phone and stuff like that. Boo. I don't know. I think it might be what I need but I would be missing my Dad's birthday and stuff so I'm scared. Plus I have never been away from home longer than a week.

SP, Des, someone smart. What kind of medication do they give you for anxiety that is not a benzo? And what kind of medication can they give you for ADHD that isn't controlled? Because if I go residential I can't have xanax or vyvanse. Bas*****

HUGS WastingAsparagus

The first line for anxiety is an ssri….so an antidepressant can you take those? For ADHD think there are things like modafinil……des will know more because I just treat mine with fish oil.

Sometimes a break from the phone and connecting with other humans works well. Depression is never easy to treat so it can take a while…if you’re feeling that bad I say go for it.

Playing the new Pokémon game Legends Arceus, it just got delivered today. It’s awesome

I have plans to hang out with my friend on Saturday

I am feeling pretty bad about myself today. Gonna go make myself a coffee. Hopefully that will help.

Also I wish my former employer was more understanding. I could have probably stayed at that job given the right supports.

At the very least I have therapy tomorrow. Hopefully that will help.

HUGS WastingAsparagus HUGS

Yeah it's like a huge major decision and decisions are tough to make when you feel crappy.

Have you ever tried a beta blocker for anxiety it blocks the physical symptoms……

No, never tried that. Thanks. I will bring it up to my psych doctor.

The residential treatment place will help with self-harm. But I don't think their goal isn't to improve your general mental state considering that some of the meds you take aren't recognized as legit medications - It's more of a crisis thing.

You can't stop 60mg of Vyvanse without getting bad withdrawal which would last ~2 weeks or more. It feels like you can go without it if you skip in the morning - But by 24-36 hours after not taking, you're wiped out. Especially if on antipsychotics. I was taken off of 60mg and was in bed for 10 days - Maybe you'll be an exception and be OK and just a little sleepy + ADHD symptoms.

It might be good for you though <3 Supportive, kind and tends to all of the other things that you don't get from your current environment, or a break from bad thoughts or have a different perspective, be monitored and safe etc.. That's basically what I needed when I was hospitalized.

Beta blockers decrease physical anxiety.. But the selective adrenal agonists like Intuniv (guanfacine) can help with ADHD. I'm not sure what would be good replacements... Maybe an SSRI and Strattera (NRI) or Effexor (SNRI) which helps with anxiety and ADHD somewhat. There's also Parkinson's meds (Like dopamine agonists) but I don't know much about them. It's only a month or so - I was able to do it. It was difficult though.

Changing your perspective, feeling safe is the main part in this I think.. Stopping the Vyvanse could improve positive symptoms of schizophrenia a little.

It's incredibly difficult with depression - I stopped skiing today and sat in the car because I didn't enjoy it (But also my mom was drunk and annoyed me). But it helped to talk with her and laugh a bit, explain myself and everything is OK.

It doesn't hurt to try going to that place. If it works, you go back on the Vyvanse easily and try something new. The reason that we're on medications is to build coping mechanisms and mental wellbeing to be able to enjoy life in the best way that we can. Schizophrenia can be thought of as different - but it's not widely known that mostly, some of the best treatment (Just as good as/better than antipsychotics) is habit building, support, therapy in the proper way.

Hugs <3

If I can add my opinion on the residential treatment place - I did one when I was 18 and I was there for roughly 5 months or so. I was also probably in the most severe episode of depression of my life, and I needed ECT, and all of that. They basically got me out of there and I was not that great, but I was okay, and that was better than I entered the place feeling.

So, I guess, if you have reasonable expectations about it - it can improve your mental state, for sure. I understand that my experience is probably different than other people's in terms of the time frame I spent there - I mean 5 months is a super long time.

Anyway, yeah, I wish depression and psychosis were easier to treat, but they're really not that easy to treat. Luckily, I'm on a pretty good combination of meds right now, it's just the outside stuff that I need work on - I am planning on joining a DBT group, for example. Just because meeting with people going through similar stuff w. a therapist is helpful to me.

Also, have you tried Abilify? I'm not sure I remember you mentioning that, but it can have great effects for depression, or at least it does for me. That might be worth bringing up if you haven't tried it already. It literally has saved my life on multiple occasions.

Ugh I have a friend from my job and he wants to hang out and I haven't told him I quit yet. I don't know what to do...

The wellbutrin could be making me feel worse

+ everything else. I don't feel coordinated mentally

Hey, how is everyone doing today? I am better than I was feeling yesterday.